1.5 stars
I don't think a book has ever simultaneously bored me to tears and then proceeded to piss me off as much as this one did.
I didn't DNF as I wanted to in the first half because I did pay 4 bucks for this and I did see reviews that said it got better.
It did not get better for me.
It at least got less boring, which is why I gave it 1.5 stars, but then while it kept my attention it just started to piss me the fuck off. More accurately, Kip did.
The first half was basically this:
- They meet, barely talk, but like each other
- They dance around not doing much until a few weeks later
- They have sex, and then some more sex. All the dialogue is pretty boring and it just says "they talked and laughed" for what I bet was the interesting, getting to know you shit.
- Kit is actually likable, and sweet and that was one plus
- I actually didn't mind Scott
- But Kit & Scott being somewhat likable did not save me from the boredom. I started skimming a lot of parts - which didn't stop in the second half, but that was more skipping because I was pissed off - and did not care for the long, drawn out sex scenes. Like usually I hate when there is barely any detail...but then I guess there is also TOO much detail, too many times. I don't need each sex scene written out in like 5, 6 page long detail.
The second half, while it had less sex (but still had those drawn out sex scenes regardless), instead of bored me, it:
- Caused drama for drama's sake.
- I get being annoyed and frustrated and not wanting to be closeted, and I get not liking have to hide, but Kip didn't last one fucking month before he was done with the sneaking around.
- At two months, he just couldn't handle it anymore, got into a fight with Scott and walked out. Real fucking mature.
- OH! Oh, but then - and I don't care about spoiling this even, although I guess this is warning enough for a spoiler - but then after he walks out, he goes and gets drunk and kisses another guy. Well, the guy kisses him, but then he kisses back. Which I wouldn't have minded, seeing as he pulls back and doesn't go further, but then he doesn't tell Scott about it at all. AT ALL. Yeah, what a great relationship these two have, lying about shit - on Kip's part mainly.
- Which reminds me that he never tells Scott about his job interview, because he doesn't want to feel like a failure in Scott's eyes. Which isn't even trusting Scott or giving him the benefit of the doubt, but okay. Also, he never tells Scott about that failed job interview either. And Kip eventually tells Scott about getting into Grad School.
I'm sorry, but I couldn't get behind Kip's asshole behavior, and then of COURSE - I fucking knew it was coming - it was Scott apologizing, it was Scott reaching out, it was Scott saying he was going to fix things. Look, not to say that Scott always handled things the best - he didn't, and he wasn't always the nicest to Kip. But Kip didn't tell Scott any of what was bothering him, and then even as he's thinking "i'm not gonna pressure Scott" he goes and pressures Scott, and has the gall to not even try and empathize with what Scott is going through, as if it's just that easy for Scott to come out.
Right, so that's why there are no out players in the major sports in America (And the one who did - in Football - faded into obscurity). Makes SO much sense.
Kip was not cute, he was not sweet and he was a major asshole. Not understanding at all, and PLUS the whole thing with Kyle and that kiss and not telling Scott about it - and I realize Kip was drunk and I blame Kyle more for the kiss itself, because he knew Kip was drunk, but Kip still should have told Scott - or telling him about his life much, really, and then acting like the victim and going along and not taking responsibility for his shit, or letting Scott in and trusting him.
God, I don't know why I hated this book so much - I've read other hockey books with closeted characters, read one recently where a situation was similar to this...but it just handled it SO much better! For one, neither MC's acted like Kip, so that's a plus, and also they talked and made it work.
But after all the drama and how Kip acted, it was pretty easy after all for Scott to come out. Which wouldn't bother me too much - stories don't always have to be realistic - except I was already pissed and annoyed by this story and Scott being so sweet to Kip when frankly, Kip didn't deserve it.
Also, an aside, the writing wasn't the best. It wasn't bad, but it had problems. My biggest pet peeve throughout was the straight dialogue we'd get so many times, without any qualifiers, emotions, etc. Like I get writing classes say not to use qualifiers excessively, I get that, but also having big chunks of dialogue throughout with anything around it just loses a lot of the emotions between the characters, because we can't always get the inflections or meanings behind what they're saying. I think that contributed to what made it so boring at first - I wasn't getting much of anything from the characters.
Also, Kip and Scott didn't have great chemistry, I wondered why they were interested in each other beyond the physical when we didn't get much of anything else besides sex, and when they did do things beside sex it was almost sugary sweet without the payoff of getting to that sugary sweetness. They said "I love you" way too soon and I didn't buy it.
There were also so many conversations and so on that could have either been cut down or cut out. This was way too long and I would get to 28,29,30 percent and felt like I read 50 pages in that span. It was draggginnng until it wasn't, but then it was pissing me off.
Kip and Scott was a little bit promising at first...but then they bored me. And then Kip pissed me off. There were a few lines that made me laugh and as I said, it at least got less boring, so I'm giving this .5 up from 1 star. But that's all I'm giving to this. I considered giving it two stars, but then I just couldn't, with how little I liked and how much I disliked.
And I'm bummed too, because the sneak peek for the next book actually interested me and those guys actually had chemistry....but I read this and while there was chemistry, it was already quite dragged out and I just knew I would probably be skipping parts in that one as well.
This author was not a good match for me, I'm afraid. I rarely dislike books this much, but this one got to me, I guess.
Do NOT recommend.