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I've got like, 20 names irl, just call me yggy or something | ANY pronouns | living for those gay cannibals

scum villain is a greek tragedy disguised as a regular tragedy disguised as a comedy disguised as a danmei

this is going to be long, and this is only PART ONE.

a.k.a, Analysing the plot of Scum Villain’s Self Saving System through Aristotle’s Poetics, because I Have Mental Issues

And then also the tragedy of Tianlang-jun forever ago. Having power and happiness, and losing it to his trust in Su Xiyan, his "undemonlike" belief in kindness. When we see him in SVSSS, he's already lost everything, his story is long over. All that's left is hatred and sadness. When he realizes his trust in Su Xiyan was mever misplaced, there's no more point to his hatred.

And Zhuzhi-Lang, who's frequently mentioned and very obvious fatal flaw is his need to repay his debts. Like, so many characters bemoan his inability to let the smallest kindness go. And his inability to truly understand what kindness others would want. To the point that he loses whatever kindness he initially recieved. His humanoid form, his power, his life. There really is no other end for him in a tragic text like SVSSS, and that's not fair actually, and fuck that.

And Yue Qingyuan, losing the only person he cares about over and over again, because he can't see past his need to help him (And because he refuses to ever fucking communicate, the self-sacrificial self-hating bastard). He's foolhardy in choosing Xuan Su, far too soon, and too powerful for him anyways, because he needs to get back to Shen Jiu as soon as possible. When he finally gets Shen Jiu back, he does everything to try and make him happy, except the one thing Shen Jiu actually wants, to have saved him in the first place (or to actually tell him that he tried to go back, he just failed). In PIDW, he sacrifices himself again, just for the chance to save Shen Jiu from his fate. And in SVSSS, he loses Shen Jiu entirely, for no other reason than that he could never have him. I just. he makes me sick /pos. The only time he tells the truth about what happened, the person who needs to hear it is already long gone.

I feel like Mobei-Jun and Shang Qinghua of SVSSS are the only not-technically tragic characters. Maybe if you include their extras, but even then it still feels like more of a stupid sweet (sadistic) love story. It definitely could have ended tragic, but, it feels like even for all of Airplane's flaws (his lack of spine, his willingness to do whatever must be done to survive, his disregard for his own pain or feelings) he's kind of just vibing in the gutter the whole time. Maybe he lost everything when he transmigrated, but he ends up getting everything he ever wanted in Mobei-jun. so like. not a bad deal. My favorite snivelling rat <3

Anyway I'm gonna go stare into the middle distance mourning the things that could never happen in SVSSS, and the many side tragedies that will forever haunt me (and then read a bunch of fanfics)

You don't have to force yourself to bounce back so quickly. I read something recently that said "when you come in from a rainstorm, you don't expect yourself to be dry and warm right away", and it really resonated with me. It's okay to take time to dry off and warm up. Take the time you need to process what happened to you.

worst part of anxiety/ocd is that sometimes your fears actually do happen and you have to wag your finger at i like this still doesn't prove you're right asshole. it's like having a venom symbiote except you don't even get to have gay alien sex

I feel like all the "they broke weird al" "weird al got serious we're so cooked" comments about the killing in the name cover are missing the point. that is not a broken man. comedy is politics. comedy has always been politics. weird al has been satirizing politics for a long time because he knows the court jester can say to the king what other people can't. by doing a serious cover of an explicitly anti-establishment song that his gen x and millennial audience knows by heart when he's built his career on parody, he's saying this can't be satirized anymore and he's saying it in a very deliberate way that his audience will understand. those aren't the actions of a broken man, they're the actions of a man who is trying to tell you something. are we going to listen?

you'd think that "inhuman thing that isn't a person but speaks like a person and talking to it will slowly drive you mad" would only be found in folktales and fables and so on. but no. chatgpt

chatgpt actually makes me feel better to talk to it than almost any human I've ever known but yeah sure

you are a frog in a pot and you are boiling yourself

Hate it when TikTok farm cosplayers and cottagecore types say stuff like "I'm not going to use modern equipment because my grandmothers could make do without it." Ma'am, your great grandma had eleven children. She would have killed for a slow cooker and a stick blender.

I’ve noticed a sort of implicit belief that people used to do things the hard way in the past because they were tougher or something. In reality, labor-saving devices have historically been adopted by the populace as soon as they were economically feasible. No one stood in front of a smoky fire or a boiling pot of lye soap for hours because they were virtuous, they did it because it was the only way to survive.

Taking these screenshots from Facebook because they make you log in and won't let you copy and paste:

These posts are sisters

Semi-respectfully, I don't care? I'm not engaging with media from a literature analysis perspective? I want to feel joy and pain and love and hate and collect blorbos to inform how i exist inside my mind? I'm capable of distancing myself from the text, I just don't want to? There's allowed to be a difference between academic talks about literature and people talking about characters they like? And my fav fanfics are by people who heavily project onto their characters and/or make them something new to serve the story they want to tell and feelings they provoke?

I cut, dye, and shave my own hair not (just) because I'm cheap, not (just) because I'm a control freak and not (just) because I'm incredibly vain about my hair. If I'm going to have a fuckass hair cut for months, it's going to be because I got tired of being careful and fucked something up, not because I'm incapable of explaining to a hairdresser what I want, with all of my people pleasing tendencies and insecurities and fear of surprise queerphobia. No more Karen bobs, no more cartoonish boy styles, only shitty bleach jobs and choppy undercuts. This is MY bad haircut, start to finish

contrary to popular belief not everyone has an innate sense of internal gender or care to have one or seek a name for it, some people go their whole lives without questioning their occupation in one of two gender roles, but for some people, if pressed, they don’t feel that internal sense of ‘i am a woman’ or ‘i am a man’, and in that case i feel the switch over to transgender vs cisgender relies on active identification of a gender other than the one they were assigned. if someone’s like ‘idk dude I just work here’ then that’s valid

A portion of people in the notes are like ‘but that makes you trans. That’s called being agender’ and another portion of people are going ‘this is how the majority of cis ppl feel and it’s NOT agender’ and personally I feel like both of them are missing the point here. Yes a lot of people identify as agender because of this feeling. Yes a lot of people with this same feeling still identify as cis. These are not mutually exclusive experiences and it doesn’t mean the agender people are secretly cis or the cis people are secretly agender. It just means they have very similar experiences of gender that they choose to conceptualize and label differently, and neither of them are mistaken or wrong to do so.

I am a cosmic horror who lives in the shell of a kid. what next?

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All cosmic horrors begin in the shells of children. What's next is to decide: Will you inflict the chaos you suffered onto the next child, or protect them from it? Thus as we shed our first skins, we either decay into cosmic horrors or grow and bring compassion to that cosmos.

Until then, probably Nintendo and potato chips.

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