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obligatory reblog of this after I forgot to bookmark them (again)
TRASH SUGAR MAGIC
➛ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 20: ɢᴇᴛ ᴏꜰꜰ
➛ nikolai gogol x fem!reader
➛ cw: general content in main menu, n.sfw mdni, fluff, non-con (touching, kissing, etc), male masturbation, disturbing and perverted thoughts, manipulation, dead dove do not eat | words: 8.1k
You cannot sleep.
The train noise is not greater than the chaos within you. You do not understand a thing at all.
After he kissed you, he acted as if everything was normal—no scary talks, no deep thoughts. He invited you to go for dinner at the bistro, and you two played a board game that was provided by the kind bartender for hours. It was a variant of the Monopoly board game, and you did not really play such a thing in a very long time. Nikolai taught you some ‘updated’ and ‘correct’ rules that are usually played in Russia, although you suspected that he cheated because he basically robbed your money.
when you’re having a bad day and someone starts mentioning God
The concept of HABIT not knowing the difference between love and fascination
I’m kirkuenly foaming at the mouth I love him sm
GTFOOO LMFAOAOOAOA
And Habit’s love for u is weird bc like he DOES love you 😭😭 it’s just never gonna be in the way that most people feel it.
You’re never gonna be seen as an individual with full autonomy or something intelligent that’s a “partner.” You’re just… his. That’s it.
Something he keeps, a pet he takes care of. It’s not that he’s holding back or denying he cares ab you- it’s the fact that he physically cannot feel anything past that. This is his max, and the way he views you is Habit’s equivalent to loving someone with your whole heart.
He adores you as property. Like in his head, you basically have no purpose besides being his, and wouldn’t be able to survive without him.
It’s the reason he’s actually a pretty decent lover. He can’t get mad at you when you need affection, when you reach for him blindly when even if he’s busy- because you don’t know better.
He’s borderline codling at times, treats you like you’re dumb, but he’s so good at making you think he doesn’t.
Habit will scoop you up and carry you to bed after a long day. Especially if you point out that he acts as if you’re stupid- he’ll use these times as an example.
Saying that he’s not being mean for reason. That he knows you, knows what’s best for you. Telling you how worried you make him. Along the lines of-
“Poor thing, see what I mean? You can barely stand.”
And
“C’mon, you can’t even walk straight. This is why I need you to listen to me, sweethearts.”
You always fall for it. Maybe it’s the way he says it, the low rumble of his voice in your ear. When you’re head feels heavy and he’s just so warm.
Or maybe it’s the way he holds you during. When his eyes lose that edge for just a second, and he kisses you like his appetite is simmering. Slow and steady, his tongue will slide against yours. It makes you fuzzy all over.
You and your bunny brain will be your downfall I fear. 💔😔
Me pushing Bf Habit agenda and propaganda ^
so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god
okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post
…..not even six hours later i got an offer of a well paying full time long-term job with free room and board in queens in nyc, allowing me independence and a way to escape an abusive situation and an unhealthy environment
likes charge reblogs cast, folks, this is the good luck post
i need all the help i can get for finals
beautiful women named "storage space running out" keep texting me every day
I almost said “this is knocking me up” to something that Amused me. I really dont know what i was even trying to say
That was pretty funny. Im pregnant, with laughter. Can you say that again?