Had intended to post this earlier on in the year but distractions and lack of initiative to be motivated to update as it's mostly just been a terrible end to last year. A mental affliction I suffered around the end of 2020 has returned again, since around last September. This was something I feared as it pretty much has and is continuing to cripple my overall well-being both mentally and physically more so each month it's persisted as it's lingered longer than the first time I was afflicted by it.

Essentially like before, it's nullified any emotional stimulus both good and bad. Meaning I cannot fell any significant responses of happiness, sadness, anger and other types. Something similar to a symptom of Anhedonic, but much worse. Meaning it's difficult to even be motivated or keep creative in a sense that there's no usual enjoyment I get even when collaborating with others. It's hard to say if the condition has become less or showing any signs of passing on like it has before. Due to this I finally got a medical CRT scan for my head hoping to find some answers. At least some good news was that when the Doc received the scans later on, reported nothing physically wrong with my brain. Meaning it's something of a bio-chemical / mental state.

I'll probably post a update later on in the year to let you know how things go, since I'm still in the process of going into the second phase of tackling this problem, now that I know it's not some physical damage responsible for this. Meaning more medical tests through blood analysis and medicine to see if there's a way I can be rid of this damn mess that's put me out of a drawing mood for nearly 8 months now ...

Sooner it's gone, the sooner I can get back to enjoy drawing and feeling like my old self.

Take care.