I just realised it's been a little bit since I actually did an update.

So what's been happening since last time? Well, I'm unfortunately back in retail, which is killing me inside once again. I really hoped I'd find my calling selling video editing services, helping people with OBS and things like that, a little techno' handyman of sorts but I had no takers by the time I got the interview for this job, I even left the sales page up on Fiverrr a couple of weeks after I started but still nothing, except one scam attempt. So I'm now working 7pm to 3:30am in a job, which yes, isn't hard but really takes a toll on my mental health. Most of the people there are detestable and the the job basically starts as the majority of my social group get going and because of the odd hours I spend most of the rest of the day dozing off and once again, that's not doing my brain much good. I'm going to get Christmas out of the way and see a doctor about it as I don't want to put Sio through me being like this, it's not fair on him as a boyfriend and it's not fair on any of my other friends when I'm being the way I am about it, it's just making me feel so isolated, like everyone is out having fun and I'm trapped in a terrible place with terrible people. I know I'm not alone in this feeling and I'm going to get off the subject now but there is a point to this that's relating to my doodling, I've had no energy to, I've done some doodles since I started but the amount has rapidly decreased and I feel my art is degenerating again. I wish I had something a bit cheerier to say around a time that is supposed to be so great for everyone but other than my amazing boyfriend being up here for the holidays to spend time with me and a good friend group that I now barely see, I really don't have much going for me right now.

All that aside I really hope everyone has a great time over the holidays, and if you aren't then I hope next year brings something better for you.