imo the pov character should be lying to themselves and concealing shit from themselves constantly

interrupting others who might say something revealing or important, thinking around things, using words like “didn’t” or “doesn’t” or “imagines” to describe actions not taken or half taken, dreaming things and never talking about them or thinking about them during waking hours, lying to people, hiding true feelings, sitting in shadow or low light to keep any accidental flicker of emotion hidden, writing in obtuse ways that doesn’t let the reader know what they’re thinking or planning, avoiding adverbs in tense moments, describing actions in straightforward and almost clinical ways sometimes, hiding the truth from the character and the reader even though you both know or suspect but there is just enough space there to fill with doubt

you can never go back. this is your one life. you had a bad childhood and that's it. you lost your teen years to mental illness and that's it. you're miserable in your 20s and that's it. you just go forward

Dipping a toe then another and another until submerging your whole body into the unchartered waters of yourself after years of living in suspension

i’m boreddddd let’s forgive ourselves for our failures

I’m working on myself. I should be emotionally available by 2027 I can feel it.

if you tell yourself “I’ll deal with it later” enough times with enough frequency you can slowly destroy your life. follow for more tips

guys be honest am i doomed forever

ALT

the journey by Mary Oliver

Honestly if I knew it was my last day in the time loop I think I’d get kinda sad and nostalgic about it

eventually one has to come to terms with the fact that "conceive of myself as a person capable of tackling difficult things" is an achievable goal toward which one can take concrete steps whereas "have things be easy" is Not