• huaidanta

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    Drew some stuff based on songs I like. I love (hah) this song and I think about Mappi every time I listen to it.

    3. Lovefool - The Cardigans

    Love me, love me
    Say that you love me
    Leave me, leave me
    Just say that you need     me

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  • archivalofsins

  • I will say the one thing that everyone seems to have missed is even though Appare March is a direct callback to Purge March. It is Futa literally repeating Amane's teachings to him in his mind as he is once again forced to go through this trial and have his very mind peeked into. Something that he was always anxious about happening before that and still is now. He says in his voice drama that he's relying on these teachings to keep moving forward to hold onto hope.

    Throughout the Appare March he is literally repeating these teachings as over and over in his mind to remember what not to be. As we look back on who he was when this started someone who couldn't even take responsibility for his own impact and how it must have made the last days of someone's short life more painful he's looking at it and going I don't want to do that anymore. I want to believe in these teachings and the person I can be.

    How I can change for the better and stick to the ideals I espouse for real instead of just pretending to and saying anything to get attention online, to get attention from anyone, to feel included. A lot of people are focusing on certain aspects of the report which is fair but I think one being ignored is that Futa lived alone. That he was originally from Osaka and he had to come back home to an empty house everyday no sister or dad. No friends in this new place and the only social outlet he had was in these online spaces was that echo chamber.

    Where the only time he was engaged with or felt included was when he was being entertaining when he was bringing those people something to jump on. Until he became the one they were jumping on. I haven't seen anyone home in on how isolating that must have felt as well as how it added this pressure to fabricate stories simply to have some sort of engagement from other people.

    Or even tie it into how he doesn't even really celebrate his own birthday and how the first birthday he actually spent around people since being in college may have been that one he had right after Milgram started. I think it's important to think about what it's like start college, living all on your own in a big empty house, being in a cycle of school then home, seeing others at the arcade but only being able to tweet about how shitty the service is while others are actually playing games with friends around you.

    All those things we saw from Bring It On, Backdraft, and Appare March. As well as in the portal timeline. All the instances in which he did try to reach out and be there for others. How he attempted to change his ways when Milgram started by being their for the woman and those younger than him. How he tried to speak to Haruka.

    Honestly it's a very tragic trap that a lot of people fall into. Doing everything and anything to feel included somewhere because all around they see no space for them, no community. So, they're willing to do anything to get that acceptance but once they get something like that unconditionally they start to wonder what was I even doing that for? What was I even trying to accomplish? Do I really believe how I acted was right and I'm glad that despite it all Futa concluded he never thought it was right he was just excusing himself to benefit.

    That doesn't change what he did that led to him feeling this guilt that brought him here. However, it's honestly an amazing thing for someone to be able to admit.

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  • garlandgerard

  • i also want to point out that his change in worldview and his immense growth isn't just shown throughout backdraft, the appare march and the Q&A answers from T2 but also - if not especially - his T3 VD

    he used to surround himself with people who would deem others unforgivable over a single, simple mistake. he used to be one of those people! and yet he says to es, "don't blame yourself just because you made a mistake. all humans make them! that just means you are a normal human like all of us"

    he went from being someone who would dox people over the stupidest, pettiest things to being someone who would encourage someone else to learn from a decidedly not simple mistake

    i just think that's really powerful

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  • sent by rejectionobsession

    hello hi THANK YOU for the kind words on how I wrote!! it does actually mean a lot since i. struggle with writing my thoughts out!! also. my name is also wren. it's an excellent name (due to being a bird)

  • answered by arotome

    helloo fellow Wren!! :)

    Of course!! I really liked your post a lot, especially since my own current Milgram thoughts are semi-incoherent following the new Fuuta content. 😭

    I really appreciated the points you made, especially about his guilt and coping mechanisms + how he sees himself as a villain (honestly one of my favorite aspects of the mv because I loved his previous mvs and it’s super cool to see the shift as his character develops). I just feel like there’s been a lot of quick (and less thought-out) moral judgements being made across the internet as soon as the mv dropped (which I feel is one of the points the project is trying to criticize?), so I liked that your post acknowledged both his feelings of guilt/bad actions as well as how he’s changed.

    Anywho, I don’t mean to ramble too much lol. I just really love how complex Milgram is and I liked the points you made in your post a lot! <3

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  • rejectionobsession

  • I think fuuta's writing is good and interesting and people need to remember that milgram as a whole is extremely subjective. cracks knuckles here we go

    Keep reading

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