yo, i’m hallie, she/her, writer and fangirl #strugglin young adult.

i try to stay heavy on the escapism, but when i do reblog world-related things, i tag it “#current events //” + general topic.

other posts are tagged with fandom(s) (if any) and ship(s) (if any). if you need a trigger/content warning on anything, feel free to let me know and i’ll do my best.

i have entirely given up on my tagging system. i’m too tired for this.

discourse stances that might pop up from time to time: ship and let ship, KINKTOMATO, death of the author, etc.

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current obsessions:

  • cooking and budgeting, apparently

dni if:

  • you don’t want to interact

live your best life, fam. <3

abalidoth
truelittleblackstar

My dad literally said to me today "You're the only person I know who watches movie and tv shows several times"

Which is bonkers to me cause HOWWW would you discovered all the DETAILS in ART if you only got to look at it for the few seconds (plus the whole aspect of comfort shows/movies)

So I just gotta know

How often do you usually watch a show/movie you like

Once

more than once if enough time has passed that I forgot the details

several times

I lost count for my favorites

nuance (explain in the tags)

Please reblog for lager sample

(yes I'm aware this is probably very biased cause *gestures at the fandome culture on tumblr* but I gotta prove my dad wrong)

toosmallforeyes
thenightisland

people trying to insist a fandom is tiny when it /only/ has a few thousand works on ao3 meanwhile my current fandom is a sixteen book series and has several hundred fewer works than goncharov, a movie that, and i cannot stress this enough, doesn’t even exist

feathersandblue

#measuring the size of fandoms based on their goncharov index#this has been a useless text post you may now resume your normal programming#rote has a goncharov index of 0.63#for perspective ofmd has an index of 26.5#spn’s is 360.8#the cosmere is 2.26 for a fantasy book comparison#i am very normal

The Goncharov Index, everyone.

toosmallforeyes
palant1r

me: ok so how gay actually is it between you and your liege lord? like everyone on tumblr -- it's like a symposium of scribes, don't worry about it -- is eroticizing knighthood recently but i have my doubts about how intimate that relationship actually is, especially considering the actual political position you occupy

the medieval knight ive brought from the past and given the ability to understand modern english: hold the fuck up can we circle back to the magic potion that means you have naught to fear from the plague

anemistheglitch
thisisnotacreativeusername

cozy game means fucking nothing. i saw someone call firewatch a cozy game. the game about child death. i saw someone say dredge was a cozy game thats secretly horror. theres nothing secret about the horror the main plot is about necromancy and the world ends. what the fuck are you talking about. is it bc the art style is nice to look at. oh im gonna watch my favorite chick flick the descent. what are you fucking talking about

clairelutra
clairelutra

Strangest experience Being A Woman and loving being a woman/being perceived as a woman, except for the one little bit where having a uterus specifically was making me downright dysphoric. I like the gender part of it, but the organ? Nope. God no. Get it out. The ovaries are fine, the vag is a little gross but w/e, but the uterus made coping with being alive so fucking hard. And now that ive had the surgery, my depression has gotten so. much. better. I don't periodically think about how i'm doomed to die because i have that fucking thing inside me. I don't get nauseous remembering it's there. I don't feel like i'm constantly trying to astral project out of my flesh prison. I don't feel like i'm in a flesh prison at all anymore, actually. My body feels like it's mine and that that's pretty okay. Fucking wild experience.

clairelutra

looking back, how much of my teenage depression was due to me having cycles and being unable to tune out that i had a uterus? i was begging for a hysterectomy at age 9, and tapping out of everything and refusing to socialize or go outside happened... about a year after my first period? hm.

clairelutra

like, i knew in theory that “dysphoria” wasn’t necessarily a gender thing, and could technically happen with any body part, but it still didn’t seem Real. when. apparently. it was,

clairelutra
clairelutra

Strangest experience Being A Woman and loving being a woman/being perceived as a woman, except for the one little bit where having a uterus specifically was making me downright dysphoric. I like the gender part of it, but the organ? Nope. God no. Get it out. The ovaries are fine, the vag is a little gross but w/e, but the uterus made coping with being alive so fucking hard. And now that ive had the surgery, my depression has gotten so. much. better. I don't periodically think about how i'm doomed to die because i have that fucking thing inside me. I don't get nauseous remembering it's there. I don't feel like i'm constantly trying to astral project out of my flesh prison. I don't feel like i'm in a flesh prison at all anymore, actually. My body feels like it's mine and that that's pretty okay. Fucking wild experience.

clairelutra

looking back, how much of my teenage depression was due to me having cycles and being unable to tune out that i had a uterus? i was begging for a hysterectomy at age 9, and tapping out of everything and refusing to socialize or go outside happened… about a year after my first period? hm.

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