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1. |
Lost Signal
01:24
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I leave the lights on in every room when you’re not home
The TV auto-playing YouTube videos
It’s quite the shadow of a person who once craved to be alone
Now cemented in this house and turned to stone
I wrote a thousand different songs, they sound the same
I folded origami spelling out your name
It’s just another thing to look at and pretend that there’s a way
For this broken part inside of me to change
And maybe there’s a way out that nobody sees
In the static displays of our old CRTs
The sounds of the universe being created
And most people hate it
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2. |
Dirty Mirror Selfie
03:37
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I’ve been looking at the night sky waiting
To find another glitch inside this matrix
The amniotic that we all were made in
It’s just the water that we wade in
Well I’m an honest man, I admit my mistakes
But what good is that when your reality breaks?
Arbitrary moments in your life are replaced by
The feeling that you’re not in control
Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me pointing my anger at
All of the things that I thought that I lacked
Now I’m taking that back
And as I look unto a world unwinding
There’s silicon instead of silver linings
The golden rule by which we’ve all been mining
But what the hell are we refining?
Cuz I’m an honest man, I admit my mistakes
But what good is that when your reality breaks?
Arbitrary moments in your life are replaced by
The feeling that you’re not in control
Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me pointing my anger at
Dirty bedroom mirrors and the person looking back
But it’s a matter of time before I’m conquering it
I’ll grab in a choke hold now I know I’m stronger than it
All this time I wasted struggling fighting for things that I thought that I lacked
Now I’m taking that back
Now I’m taking that back
I guess it probably serves me right even if it ends up feeling kinda wrong
I think about it every single night, I never sleep for long
I wake up every morning faking smiles
But it doesn’t seem to budge a thing, I’m stuck and buffering
This fucking suffering only amounts in to stupid little songs
Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me pointing my anger at
Dirty bedroom mirrors and the person looking back
But it’s a matter of time before I’m conquering it
I’ll grab in a choke hold now I know I’m stronger than it
All this time I wasted struggling fighting for things that I thought that I lacked
Now I’m taking that back
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3. |
Where Blue Light Blooms
03:20
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Just waiting for the cue to go outside
So I can lock up every single door and
Hide behind these firewalls
I’ve built them up to be so tall
And I forget what day it is and I don’t miss remembering
Cuz I’m addicted to this room where blue light blooms
To teach me the rules and tell me what to do
It feels like I’ve been underground for this whole year
Just waiting for the sun to reappear
But now I see the distant glow
I think I’m feeling higher on a place that’s low
I waited for the perfect time not to try
I watched the opportunity look me in the eyes
It took the end of days just to realize
My safe haven is oh so close to hell
Buried under my bed sheets
Steeping in the wet concrete
Setting in around me I turn to stone
Half alive and half asleep
Trapped inside the past two weeks
Staring at the photons that teach me the rules
And tell me what to do
It feels like I’ve been underground for this whole year
Just waiting for the sun to reappear
But now I see the distant glow
I think I’m feeling higher on a place that’s low
I waited for the perfect time not to try
I watched the opportunity look me in the eyes
It took the end of days just to realize
My safe haven is oh so close to hell
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4. |
Viral
02:39
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Even the optimist in me is feeling half empty
And half full with doubts and regrets
Obviously it’s no secret
I’m a hermit washing up and my shell is turning to dust
And I’m tunneling myself deeper in it
Tell me something good I wanna smile one more time
Tell me I’ll be safe from the virus in my mind
Putting one foot in front of the other
Doesn’t amount to much
When you’re struggling to tread water
All these baby steps they lead me
Back to square one out of breath
But I’ve still got a marathon to finish
Tell me something good I wanna smile one more time
Tell me I’ll be safe from the virus in my mind
Tell me I’ll be safe from the things I don’t know
Keep from the places you know I can’t go
Feel the earth that crumbles between my own hands
Save me from the things that I cannot understand
Save me from the things that I cannot understand
Tell me something good I wanna smile one more time
Tell me I’ll be safe from the virus in my mind
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5. |
Underneath My Skin
02:38
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I don’t care I think it’s meaningless to
Think that you know someone you really don’t
Just cuz you’ve got mutual friends
Opinions and pictures of them
But my blood is red just like yours and it’s brighter if you
Dig underneath my skin
Dig underneath
Dig underneath my skin
You’re working overtime to change my mind but I won't bite because I’m
Worried bout me and my-myself and I, the holy triangle
My inner circle is shrinking by the day and by the way I’m getting
All bent out of shape I think it’s time we try to live on independent planes
Bigger number better person
Bigger picture better mercenary tactics get you where you wanna be
Smaller circle shorter temper
Throw some kindle on the ember
Start to blow up like you always wanted to
But not so metaphorically
It’s your reality
Burning every single thing you see
You’re working overtime to change my mind but I won't bite because I’m
Worried bout me and my-myself and I, the holy triangle
My inner circle is shrinking by the day and by the way I’m getting
All bent out of shape I think it’s time we try to live on independent planes
Cuz you’ve got mutual friends
Opinions and pictures of them
But my blood is red just like yours and it’s brighter if you
Dig underneath my skin
Dig underneath
Dig underneath my skin
Dig underneath
Dig underneath my skin
Dig underneath
Dig underneath my skin
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6. |
Wretched Trajectory
02:46
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I was enjoying myself and then the next thing I know
I’m freaking out in the bathroom at the back of the show
But I got away just to hit you with a
“Could you come get me in a minute
If you’re able to? Cuz my night is ruined and
I just might need a ride home”
This is why I don’t go out (Find your name in my phone and text you)
Things always start heading south (Share my location with you, come through)
The moment I open my mouth (Save my day cuz I really need you to)
I regret ever leaving my home
Cuz I don’t like where this night is going
I can’t wait to get out the door
Already come get me I’m ready, I’m ready
I’m ready to be alone with you
Even if it means there’s nothing to do
Come rescue me out of this
Wretched Trajectory soon
Come rescue me out of this
Wretched Trajectory soon
Come rescue me out of this
This is why I don’t go out (Find your name in my phone and text you)
Things always start heading south (Share my location with you, come through)
The moment I open my mouth (Save my day cuz I really need you to)
I regret ever leaving my home
Cuz I don’t like where this night is going
I can’t wait to get out the door
Already come get me I’m ready, I’m ready
I’m ready to be alone with you
Even if it means there’s nothing to do
Come rescue me out of this
Wretched Trajectory soon
Cuz I don’t like where this night is going
I can’t wait to get out the door
Already come get me I’m ready, I’m ready
I’m ready to be alone with you
Even if it means there’s nothing to do
Come rescue me out of this
Wretched Trajectory soon
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7. |
AP Revisitionist History
02:53
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And scene, co-direct my life for me
Rewrite everything you don’t believe
Throw out all the lore and history
They just get in the way of the world you portray
My life in your character design
Non nuance or moral comprise
All evil on earth personified
You’re the light, I’m the shade there’s no room for the gray
So you throw me out to sea
Tie me down with extra weight
And incase you see me breathe
You can burn me at the stake
But you left me drowning
I’m sinking deeper by the day
I’m fucking drowning in things that I can’t change
Left adrift, to the undertow I’m bound
When I come up for air you push me down
All the way to the seafloor ground
Where I lay in the sand in the palm of your hand
Write it off like you do for everything
An accident that you couldn’t see coming
Another verse in the requiem you sing
Out of time, out of tune, out of breath, out of key
So what are you waiting for
Choke me to death
Watch as i suffocate
Finish me off
Clean up the mess you made
Throw me away
Bury me under this weight
You’re the light, I’m the shade there’s no room for the gray
So you throw me out to sea
Tie me down with extra weight
And incase you see me breathe
You can burn me at the stake
But you left me drowning
I’m sinking deeper by the day
I’m fucking drowning in things that I can’t change
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8. |
Living Proof
03:16
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I don’t think that that’s how you’re supposed to
Talk to people you say you love
Maybe I’m just misinterpreting
Everything that you do
Or maybe there’s some reason behind the
Things you say that I can’t ignore
Everytime you fuck someone over
You ended telling the same old story saying
“Sorry is easy to say, harder to mean and even harder to prove”
You’re telling me but I should be telling you
That someday you’ll suddenly see that that couldn’t be more far away from the truth
You’re asking me but you know you’re living proof
You’re living proof, you’re living proof
You’re living
Live and die by your own design
Live your truth gimme one last lie
Living proof that you can’t find
Live a lie that I caught onto
Leave alone what you can’t undo
Memories that you can’t prove
“Sorry is easy to say, harder to mean and even harder to prove”
You’re telling me but I should be telling you
That someday you’ll suddenly see that that couldn’t be more far away from the truth
You’re asking me but you know you’re living proof
You’re living proof and you know that
The proof in the way you treat your life like it’s litigation
You look for something wrong in everyone you meet, it’s insane so
Keep it fucking moving I don’t wanna hear another motherfucking justification
I’m losing my patience, I don’t wanna hear what you’re always telling me
“Sorry is easy to say, harder to mean and even harder to prove”
You’re telling me but I should be telling you
That someday you’ll suddenly see that that couldn’t be more far away from the truth
You’re asking me but you know you’re living proof
You’re living proof, you’re living proof
You’re living
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9. |
Fruit Wine
02:51
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Go get ready, prepare yourself to be disappointed
Alter your state of mind to adapt to
The fact that you’ll never have happiness
In any capacity
It’s almost impossible to find
I’ve been looking everyday for like a year or so
And I can’t even look it in the eyes
Yeah it’s brighter than the sun and moon combined with all the
Stars that you can see in the night sky
Where the light pollution’s low and nobody can hear you
Cry out for a better life
As simple as it seems, it’s still so hard for me to make it look easy
And that’s my fault, it should be second nature filling wounds with
Salt and iodine, I do it all the time
Turning water into fruit wine
Here’s the secret, try all you want you just can’t defeat it
You’re only as strong as your greatest weakness
So you better get used to your obsoleteness
I hope that you realize
It’s not simple seems
As simple as it seems, it’s still so hard for me to make it look easy
And that’s my fault, it should be second nature filling wounds with
Salt and iodine, I do it all the time
Turning water into fruit wine
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10. |
Sixth Cents (Get It?)
02:15
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If you got it, flaunt it. That’s what they taught you
At the school of the materialistic mantra
If you want some, get some. It could be that easy
If you can’t, well fuck off that’s what being greedy gets you
Income income income, the outcome is you
Win some win some win some, you lose a lot of yourself
In the things that you can hold between your hands
But you cannot give a damn
Because the way the cookie crumbles is
Your value’s just a number in
An algorithmic database
Until you get replaced
And if you give into the pressure it exerts
Aren’t you just getting what you deserve?
If you think that you know what you’re worth
Buckle down because you’re gonna have to
Turn blood sweat and tears into dollar signs
You need that .6 cents if you’re gonna
Survive in the big leagues, you’re stuck behind the fence and
Complain all you want it still never makes sense
It never makes sense
So you’ve got to stick through the bullshit
Prove that you’re in love with music
By reinforcing the useless platform
Fucking abuse it
Make money that you’ll never see
It disappears magically
But you would do this for free, right?
That’s where they got you wrong
That’s where they got you wrong
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11. |
secondgradefoofight
02:17
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There’s a wire in the wall
A fire in the hall
Burning everything
It’s here when I’m alone
The voice inside my phone
The tinnitus starts to ring
It’s poison in my mind, and I would rather die
A million fucking times
Than have to read another syllable another line
Of something on your mind, why yes I fucking mind
I’m leaving all this useless shit behind
So you can try to text me, I’ll just change my number
Good luck tryna find me now
I’ll go off the grid, I’ll swiftly disappear and
You’ll never figure out how
I slipped into the shadows and I got myself away
From all the pandemonium that caused my disarray
I crossed the burning bridges that were standing in the way
So nobody can find me, fuck a needle in the hay
There’s something creeping on me in the middle of the night
It’s underneath my skin and digging in just like a knife
It’s every waking hour every other minute every single second of my motherfucking life
So you can try to text me, I’ll just change my number
Good luck tryna find me now
I’ll go off the grid, I’ll swiftly disappear and
You’ll never figure out
So you can try to text me, I’ll just change my number
Good luck tryna find me now
I’ll go off the grid, I’ll swiftly disappear and
You’ll never figure out how
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12. |
HM07 Waterfall
03:01
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Look at all my friends living happily
Living normal lives, that couldn’t be me
I’ll make one mistake, they’ll be mad at me
Get your cameras out, comedic tragedy
That’s just how it goes living in this skin
Sleeping through the days, dying for a win
Skull so fucking thick, stretching myself thin
Everytime I say to you
That I don’t wanna be the guy who makes you have to compromise
Between the things you wanna do and people you could be beside
It’s easy to get lost in all this overflowing waterfall
The information age becomes the death of all my wherewithal
And I don’t wanna be the one who takes away from what you’ve done
But all this negativity, it starts to get the best of me
If only I could disconnect from the people I respect
And things that I could not reflect
I think that I could finally find some peace
Watching all my friends turn to enemies
Quite the turnaround in just a couple weeks
Nobody’s to blame, it’s just the industry
There’s money to be made in people’s jealousy
It may be wrong, it may be right
It may be somebody else’s petty fight
But we’re stuck in between, dropping guillotines
Thinking we can finally find some peace
I think that I could finally find some peace
And I don’t wanna be the one who takes away from what you’ve done
But all this negativity, it starts to get the best of me
If only I could disconnect from the people I respect
And things that I could not reflect
I think that I could finally find some peace
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13. |
Higher Road
03:13
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Make my way up the higher road
It’s the thing you’d always expect me to do
Point your eyes through kaleidoscopes
Anything to falsify my point of view
You throw shots in the air that I could never hope to see
And you know I won’t step away, I’ll just take it how you dish it out to me
I’m not done I’m just getting started
Got my bag I’m ready to bargain
I’m not done I’m just getting started
I think that might be what you want
I’m not done I’m just getting started
Got my bag I’m ready to bargain
I’m not done I’m just getting started
I think that might be what you wanted
You throw shots in the air that I could never hope to see
And you know I won’t step away, I’ll just take it how you dish it out to me
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14. |
Feeling Not Found
04:15
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I got with the program, I did what they told me
I tried medication, I bought what they sold me
I tried feeling better, I started indulging
In a little nostalgia, I felt like the old me
But all this time I wanted to feel new
It’s like I’m stuck in a loop
And that’s where they get you, you question yourself now
You try to refurbish but you’ll never learn how
Until you realize the lines of code in you
Never go out of date when they’re what defines what’s you
And it’s okay to think that you want these things to stay
Just scream at the top of your lungs when you say
And I may not feel found, but I’m not as lost as I used to be
And it may not be right, but it’s not as wrong as it usually seems
I can be as here and as real as I want if I want and you’ll never take that away
This out of date software’s here to stay
So when the cycle is over, and all the circuits are broken
You won’t be fighting resistance in spite of existence
There’s nothing to fix inside your brain
And someday you’ll realize you always felt this way
So scream at the top of your lungs when you say
And I may not feel found, but I’m not as lost as I used to be
And it may not be right, but it’s not as wrong as it usually seems
I can be as here and as real as I want if I want and you’ll never take that away
No matter how much the world wants me to change
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