Sooooo a crazy thing just happened today.

There's this guy at work. He's the HR guy. He's older than me. He's gay. I've had a crush on him for a bit.

We started growing closer as friends for the past few months.

Today he says: "Hey I'd like to talk to you after work. Do you wanna go to this restaurant I like?"

We had passed in front of it before. It's a Japanese food restaurant. It was "buy one get one free" Thursday.

We had Yakimeshi. He had it with a mix of protein, I had chicken.

We talked about work. About this coworker we all know kinda sucks as a person but has very close relationships with higher ups in the company, so she's very sheltered by them.

He told me about ways they made his life more difficult when he joined the company.

The servers there know him by name. He's mentioned he has a bit of a crush on one of them. He was there today, looks nothing like me, tattoos all over and a very hip mullet.

I asked if that's all he wanted to talk about. He said: "No, let's finish eating first and we can take a walk."

It was dark out by then. We walked around the neighborhood close to our office.

The subject started to shift away from work. About his family, how him coming out to his parents had gone. How I technically "came out" for the first time in my life at work cause my Mom figured it out on her own and basically pulled me out of the closet with her and dad. (My friends know too but I never actually like... Came out, it's a whole thing)

Then he started to stutter. And I knew it was coming. I was so nervous, but excited.

He likes me. He's not in love with me, not yet, but he likes me. And I do too.

We hugged and kept walking. Sat on a bench and talked and talked and talked. We held hands and he leaned his head on my shoulder.

I told him I'm scared. I've never been in a relationship with a guy. We work together. He's eight years older than me.

But... He's so funny. He's smart, and kind, and knowledgeable. I love his laugh, and yeah he's my type.

He said to take my time. That he doesn't expect an answer right now. That he understands it's a complex situation, but that he feels we could make it work.

I'm still scared. I knew he was nervous, and I knew I was too because of the heat in my cheeks and how heavy my legs felt and how fast my heart was racing. I made him laugh, and myself too. I needed it. I told him I'm scared.

We kept walking and talking for a while. We took the opportunity to get to know each other better. I hugged him while we walked, we held hands till they were sweaty. It made me feel... Proud? And I guess LGBTQ pride finally clicked for me.

After going around the neighborhood in circles and ending up in front of our office building, we sat back down on a bench. Kept talking, especially about family. We have a lot of things in common. And many we don't.

His life has been harder than mine.

Mine isn't exactly easy either.

He only asked me to tell him once I make a decision. We hugged one last time and he walked me to my pickup spot.

He asked me to let him know when I got home. We've been doing it for a little bit whenever we leave the office late.

I didn't tell my parents when I got home. I just said he wanted me to check out the restaurant and that we ended up just walking around for a while.

I practically tell my parents everything. I don't know what they would think about me dating a guy in his thirties.

We'd probably have to let the company know if we do go ahead with things. He's the HR head in the Mexican office. I don't fully know what that would imply. I don't want it to affect our jobs.

He's a foreigner. There's a bunch of cultural differences.

But I kinda want to give it a go? From what we said it seems I started to be into him before he did, so it's not like there's nothing there and it's just the pressure.

But I also am a little sad that my first actual chance with a guy isn't... Less complicated?

He's going to be out of office until Tuesday, comes back Wednesday.

We texted a bit after I got home. He said I was the best part of his week.

Man, this year has just been changes changes changes.

I needed to vent a bit. I'm scared. But I'm very happy too. Even if we don't go through with it, tonight was really special.

I hope he's happy too. I hope he's a little scared too. I hope I can figure this out. I hope he can too.

he’s my boyfriend now :)

I’m sorry Orpheus i was too harsh on you…

i was in the physics lab today and we were working with lasers, so the Lab Freaks (legal name) were being very careful to stress that we Do Not Turn Around or Look Behind Us because we’ll get extremely blinded by the power of high strength lasers

and i’m not gonna lie it was actually extremely hard to resist turning around. i misjudged orpheus it turns out this isnt extremely easy actually

okay i’ll be honest i 100% looked back at the lasers. actually multiple separate lasers multiple different times. they were pretty

and i didnt get blinded. so clearly lab safety isnt real and you should always risk it cus taking risks is awesome #gambling

but uh. my ass is NOT making it out of the underworld 🔥🔥🔥

Sooooo a crazy thing just happened today.

There's this guy at work. He's the HR guy. He's older than me. He's gay. I've had a crush on him for a bit.

We started growing closer as friends for the past few months.

Today he says: "Hey I'd like to talk to you after work. Do you wanna go to this restaurant I like?"

We had passed in front of it before. It's a Japanese food restaurant. It was "buy one get one free" Thursday.

We had Yakimeshi. He had it with a mix of protein, I had chicken.

We talked about work. About this coworker we all know kinda sucks as a person but has very close relationships with higher ups in the company, so she's very sheltered by them.

He told me about ways they made his life more difficult when he joined the company.

The servers there know him by name. He's mentioned he has a bit of a crush on one of them. He was there today, looks nothing like me, tattoos all over and a very hip mullet.

I asked if that's all he wanted to talk about. He said: "No, let's finish eating first and we can take a walk."

It was dark out by then. We walked around the neighborhood close to our office.

The subject started to shift away from work. About his family, how him coming out to his parents had gone. How I technically "came out" for the first time in my life at work cause my Mom figured it out on her own and basically pulled me out of the closet with her and dad. (My friends know too but I never actually like... Came out, it's a whole thing)

Then he started to stutter. And I knew it was coming. I was so nervous, but excited.

He likes me. He's not in love with me, not yet, but he likes me. And I do too.

We hugged and kept walking. Sat on a bench and talked and talked and talked. We held hands and he leaned his head on my shoulder.

I told him I'm scared. I've never been in a relationship with a guy. We work together. He's eight years older than me.

But... He's so funny. He's smart, and kind, and knowledgeable. I love his laugh, and yeah he's my type.

He said to take my time. That he doesn't expect an answer right now. That he understands it's a complex situation, but that he feels we could make it work.

I'm still scared. I knew he was nervous, and I knew I was too because of the heat in my cheeks and how heavy my legs felt and how fast my heart was racing. I made him laugh, and myself too. I needed it. I told him I'm scared.

We kept walking and talking for a while. We took the opportunity to get to know each other better. I hugged him while we walked, we held hands till they were sweaty. It made me feel... Proud? And I guess LGBTQ pride finally clicked for me.

After going around the neighborhood in circles and ending up in front of our office building, we sat back down on a bench. Kept talking, especially about family. We have a lot of things in common. And many we don't.

His life has been harder than mine.

Mine isn't exactly easy either.

He only asked me to tell him once I make a decision. We hugged one last time and he walked me to my pickup spot.

He asked me to let him know when I got home. We've been doing it for a little bit whenever we leave the office late.

I didn't tell my parents when I got home. I just said he wanted me to check out the restaurant and that we ended up just walking around for a while.

I practically tell my parents everything. I don't know what they would think about me dating a guy in his thirties.

We'd probably have to let the company know if we do go ahead with things. He's the HR head in the Mexican office. I don't fully know what that would imply. I don't want it to affect our jobs.

He's a foreigner. There's a bunch of cultural differences.

But I kinda want to give it a go? From what we said it seems I started to be into him before he did, so it's not like there's nothing there and it's just the pressure.

But I also am a little sad that my first actual chance with a guy isn't... Less complicated?

He's going to be out of office until Tuesday, comes back Wednesday.

We texted a bit after I got home. He said I was the best part of his week.

Man, this year has just been changes changes changes.

I needed to vent a bit. I'm scared. But I'm very happy too. Even if we don't go through with it, tonight was really special.

I hope he's happy too. I hope he's a little scared too. I hope I can figure this out. I hope he can too.

So he and I have been chatting constantly. It’s so weird to get compliments from my crush ahahaha. He’s very sweet, and a bit overwhelming in how nice he is. But I’m not bothered, I just hope he’s not like in a rush.

I haven’t fully decided what I’m gonna do but currently leaning towards giving a relationship a try.

Other than well… Here, I’ve only told what happened to a friend from work. She said, and I quote “I’m happy for you, for the two of you. But I do have to say the age gap can be tough. And if something were to happen and you guys break up, it’ll split the office in two, and I’m for sure gonna side with you.”

Which wasn’t exactly encouraging lol

I’m not sure why there would have to be sides to take?

Still, I keep thinking in circles and feel this a chance to do something I’ve never done before with someone that feels like a good fit.

Idk, I’ll probably talk with him on Tuesday afternoon or on Wednesday once he’s back.

My parents are as usual, the part that worries me most. Mom is already kinda pissed at me cause I took a few sips of alcohol at a work event a few days ago (Which by the way was pretty much a mandatory event and an alcohol taste-testing event) despite me saying I hated it and did it to be respectful of the event (and yeah I was curious as well but this did not make me like it anymore than I already don’t lol)

So I can only imagine what she’ll say once she finds out. And my dad too.

But honestly I’ve been in a place of craving freedom in my life. They’re not controlling but I would be lying if I didn’t say that a lot of my decision-making is based on fulfilling their expectations.

Anyways, he (possible boyfriend to be) gifted me a sweater on Wednesday before he confessed. I’m gonna wear it next Wednesday when he comes back to the office. 😸

I hope I’m making the right call with this. I’m so nervous but excited.

GET TO KNOW YOUR MUTUALS!

Rules: answer and tag six people you want to know better

1. Favorite colour: Pink

2. Last song: Drop Pop Candy by Giga

3. Currently reading: Dealing with Dragons by Patricia Wrede

4. Currently watching: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic + Transformers Animated

5. Currently craving: McDonald's french fries

6. Coffee or tea: coffee, but with a bunch of creamer and sugar so it no longer tastes like coffee lol

tags: @shortcircuitthegreat, @ambulocetuss, @doggyspeak, @it-is-i-zim, @markmaker36, @confluencechimera

ignore this if you do not want to do it!!

i’m doing this why not

1: green

2: the ultimate showdown of ultimate destiny by lemon demon

3: les miserables by victor hugo

4: my life go down the fucking drain

5: mango 😋😋

6: tea ofc (coffee tastes like shit and i can get caffeine from energy drinks)

tags: @yourdeargatsby @bejeweledweaponz @2011lanei @littlefallof-rain @send-me-to-the-exr @stonerbabeoc96

1. Purple
2. Disco! In The Panic Room by Bug Hunter
3. Many, many books, including but not limited to: Musical Theatre History: Expanding The Narrative (idk the author), Radio Silence by Alice Oseman, Dear Evan Hansen, Un Secret by Philippe Grimbert (school book -_-), and Much Ado About Nothing by William Shakespeare (also a school book but I enjoy it)
4. Dimension 20 Fantasy High Sophomore Year
5. Fish and chips
6. I am a tea ADDICT ( we're talking 5-9 cups a day)

Open tags!

ayyy

1. Black and dark green
2. Hymn to Virgil by Hozier
3. Suicide Notes - by Michael Thomas Ford (it's really good you should check it out!! very accurate depiction of dissosociating)
4. Staged BBC
5. Vanilla choc-chip mug cake
6. Black coffee, sometimes with a dash or two of milk. Never creamer

Open tags!!!

1. Crimson red

2. Drift away by Dobie Gray

3. The casebook of Sherlock Holmes and his last bow by ACD

4. Currently watching a bunch of shows, most of which are my same old hyper-fixations lol

5. Iced apple cider

6. TEA. I LOVE tea. I drink at least 4 cups of loose leaf tea every day

@lisbeth-kk @haley-harrison @cats-fluorescent @ceruleanmindpalace

1. Oof, impossible to choose. I like red, black, gold, blue, purple, or teal, depending on the mood. 😅

2. Do Not Disturb by Rudy Ayoub

3. In Spite of the Teeth by winsive (on ao3)

4. The Great (historical-ish show with a good amount of comedy)

5. Watermelon (summer only just ended but I already miss it)

6. Both (coffee on weekdays, tea during the weekend)

Tags: @greensmile-thatisnotdream @reaperlight @main-exam @flowersintheimpala69 @pagannatural

@mysticfreaks @howmanyholesinswisscheese

yeahhh i love tag games!!

1. Blue and green but like forest green and sky blue but the darker part of the sky

2. I wanna be your boyfriend by The Ramones

3. Not that often but the young justice comics

4. Smallvile (its fkn good)

5. anything really its midnight (something sweet)

6. both but in specifc instances

@piro-piroooooo @parttimetimetravellermaybe @birdsquidd @random-conspiracy @notkorolrezni

:)

Thanks for the tag! <3

1. Favorite color: Any sort of warm pink ^^

2. Last song: Au Revoir by Malice Mizer

3. Currently reading: Humankind by Rutget Bregman

4. Currently watching: Like ten things that I haven't been able to continue lol. I'm in like episode 18 of the Sailor Moon live-action, three episodes in Texhnolyze, and there's still like 5-4 episodes of Moribito I haven't watched.

5. Currently craving: Lots of candy, like a bag full of assorted candy.

6. Coffee of tea: Coffee! <3

I'm just going to tag people I sometimes talk to or irl friends, you can ignore the tag if you feel like it ^^

@danthatartman @carianbf @gay-debord

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