So, hello everyone. Been a bit since I've been around, let alone posted art heh.......

TL;DR? I just, am still burnt out and Don't Enjoy Art as much. I've been easing back into it with personal art and memes alongside working on comms but it doesn't feel GOOD enough so I get frustrated fast. But anyways. I digress. Commissions remain CLOSED, as I want to try to get my queue done this month ENTIRELY for everyone. How will I do this? Well. Proceed reading

Due to declining physical health I'd rather not get into, I lost my job. It was discussed with the work to have me resign instead of be fired to make it look better on resume/have them able to be a proper reference so I'm ETERNALLY grateful for that but also this is a huge fucking hit to me when I really need the income to help my household which has been patiently waiting on me to be able to offer more money for bills/rent and I kind of feel useless. I've also been fighting mental health crisis after crisis and I'm admittedly struggling a lot. HOWEVER please note, my living situation? Is still a delight. I love my partner, I love my roommates, I enjoy myself. I'm just STILL recovering from some VERY deep wounds from last relationship/situation. But I /am/ healing. I'm also trying a new medication which right now isn't ideal but I'm /trying/ because that's step one

I also lost a very close friend for a stupid fucking reason, and proceeded to delete myself from a LOT of media/left almost all discord servers and removed most ppl from my life. This at first stung, because of my shrunken spaces but now... I feel like I can breath. I feel less judged. Less sui**dal. It's...... nice

Also note about Patreon: I have PAUSED BILLING right now, as I need to catch up on current headshots then I am going to contemplate whether or not I wish to even keep it up. I might as an archieve/resource for speedpaints and process posts, but not add anything new as it just. It hurts, putting time in making them and having 98% of them not getting a /single view/. I'd rather set up a cute little Ko-fi front for donations if people want to support me, maybe offer little discount rewards for ko-fi members, but not push patreon any longer. I'm unsure, thoughts appreciated

Regardless..... I'm gonna try H A R D to be more present from here on out. I'm cramming paperwork, resume buffering, ect, today so tonight into tomorrow I can do patreon headshots, then sketch comms and get them sent out as proof of progress to clients. If I owe you something and I forgot/it isn't on trello by TOMORROW EVENING, please REACH OUT and don't be shy about it. I will trust word of mouth if you say I owe you something as my memory isn't /that/ bad, and I just wanna ensure nobody is forgotten or left behind!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways. Happy holidays, I am so thankful for all of you and for the new followers even though I've been on an unmentioned Hiatus. You guys rock

Also, little shoutout to my bros

For being absolute OG's, and supporting me with love, guidance, patience, and willingness to wait as I fight through my demons. I love you all
Also, shout out to my discord server!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YA'LL ROCK

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Commissions - https://derangedleech.carrd.co/ CLOSED RIGHT NOW
Ko-Fi - https://ko-fi.com/derangedleech
Patreon - https://www.patreon.com/c/Derangedleech PAUSED FOR NOW
Merch - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59308950/
Adopts - https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....der/56727/Open
YCH -https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/derangedleech/folder/56730/Open