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1. |
House Of Stories
03:33
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After the disorder
Reality lies
Under the calm water
Calamity smiles
Don’t stop
You’re a house of stories
Stay clear cos we need you now
Stand tall
When the pages turn you’ll see
More clearly
Trapped in our warm bodies
Still brimming with hope
Reaching the highest places
We think we can go
Don’t stop
You’re a house of stories
Stay clear cos we need you now
Stand tall
When the pages turn you’ll see
More clearly
Don’t stop
You’re a house of stories
Stay clear cos we need you now
Stand tall
When the pages turn you’ll see
More clearly
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2. |
Emotional Tourist
03:47
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You think I’m an emotional tourist
But you don’t know how deep I go
Holding tight, but I’m lost in this forest
And there’s no sign of my hero
So I guess I’ll just sleep in the snow
It’s like this -
The lure of a late night kiss
A situation that shouldn’t exist
Now I’m trapped in a house in the humdrum
With a cut-price narcissist
- Now I’m trapped in a house with a poisoned mind
He tells me to give up my dream
The thing I’ve wanted since I was 13
Or I’m not on his team
Now there’s smoke in the house
And I didn’t even think to scream
You reap what you sow, motherfucker
Go
Go, go
You think I’m an emotional tourist
But you don’t know how deep I go
Holding tight, but I’m lost in this forest
And there’s no sign of my hero
So I guess I’ll just sleep in the snow
I’m not finished
That’s two years I’ll never get back
I’m sick of hearing
I’m too fat
I’m too boring
I’m too this
I’m too that
He said I couldn’t make him feel
That I shouldn’t write about what’s real
Then he lit that match
Oh well - what’s a girl to do?
You reap what you sow, motherfucker
Go, go
I hope you know
You reap what you sow
So go
I hope you choke
You think I’m an emotional tourist
But you don’t know how deep I go
Holding tight, but I’m lost in this forest
And there’s no sign of my hero
So I guess I’ll just sleep in the snow
I guess I’ll just sleep in the snow
You think I’m an emotional tourist
But you don’t know how deep I go
Holding tight, but I’m lost in this forest
And there’s no sign of my hero
So I guess I’ll just sleep
And you can just weep in the snow
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3. |
Space, Man
04:18
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Spaceman
Floating in your tin can
Furious at everyone
Will you go straight for the gun?
Coulda woulda shoulda done
Still you go
Straight for the gun
Are we ecstatic or just numb?
Pushing through the bodies as we run
Boil the water slowly so we forget to scream
Pick out the wrong side
So we can just fight
Spacequeen
Louder than you should have been
Blowing it to smithereens
Still you go
Straight for the gun
“Unbelievable scenes”
Cos you go
Straight for the gun
Are we ecstatic or just numb?
Pushing through the bodies as we run
Boil the water slowly so we forget to scream
Pick out the wrong side
So we can just fight
It’s too late
Let your lies drag you under
Tell me what you want now
Can you tell me?
Tell me what you want now
You’ve got nothing to say anyway
Tell me what you want now
It’s all so strange, strange, strange
Tell me what you want now
You’ve got nothing to say
Nothing to say
Nothing to say
Spaceman
Could have been the biggest bang
But you go
Straight for the gun
Are we ecstatic or just numb?
Pushing through the bodies as we run
Boil the water slowly so we forget to scream
Pick out the wrong side
So we can just fight
Pick out the wrong side
So we can just fight
Pick out the wrong side
So we can just fight
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4. |
The Life Of The Party
03:50
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When did the light fade out of your eyes?
When did the life drain out of mine?
Now when the storm comes I’m ready to run
How do you explain what we’ve become?
Just wait
Don’t leave yet
Don’t second guess
I’m not the life of the party
I’m the light, I’m the light, I’m the light
I dream of a birthday - on my birthday
Chocolate cake in my hands - don’t take my hand
The gentlest fiction for my crash land
It shouldn’t surprise me - you surprise me
The mess that we’re in - this mess we’re in
Cos if it’s not raining it’s threatening - is threatening
Don’t leave
You’re never known me
Just listen
I’m not the life of the party
I’m the light, I’m the light, I’m the light
Where did the love go out of your kiss?
Why does it always come back to this?
I’m not the life of the party
I’m the light, I’m the light
I’m not the life of the party
I’m the light, I’m the light
I’m not the life of the party
I’m the light, I’m the light
I’m the light
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5. |
Hold Tight
03:17
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Hold tight to
This starry night where
We can choose to dream
Hold tight to
This starry night where
We are free to dream
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6. |
In The Light Sometimes
03:47
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Cradling grudges I’ll grip til the end
Biting my tongue cos forever will mend
Keeping the peace with inscrutable men
Never again
In the light sometimes I fall to pieces
In the light sometimes
In the light sometimes
Grinding up gravel to spit at the sun
Simple affection can never return
Swallow my secrets
Protecting my home
Building my own
In the light sometimes I fall to pieces
In the dark sometimes I can’t believe it
You think I forgive you but I never mean it
In the light sometimes
In the light sometimes
In the light sometimes I fall to pieces
In the dark sometimes I can’t believe it
You think I forgive you but I never mean it
In the light sometimes
In the light sometimes
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7. |
Seasons
04:56
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I live at the bottom of a well that’s run dry
My thoughts rotate as I stare at the sky
A race to the finish that I’m happy to lose
The years are strangers now it’s me and you
We’ll go through seasons together, kid
Working out what the weather is
Holding hands across the years of our lives
While we take each others’ side
We’ll go through seasons together, love
Now we know we were always enough
Holding hands across the years
Soaking up the tears
Celebrate the rest of our time
I envy the person that I’m trying to be
You give me hope, tracing hearts on my body
Consumed by the spirit of an anger on hold
I’ll spend the rest of my life letting go
We’ll go through seasons together, kid
Working out what the weather is
Holding hands across the years of our lives
While we take each others’ side
We’ll go through seasons together, love
Now we know we were always enough
Holding hands across the years
Soaking up the tears
Celebrate the rest of our time
We’ll go through seasons together, kid
Working out what the weather is
Holding hands across the years of our lives
While we take each others’ side
We’ll go through seasons together, love
Now we know we were always enough
Holding hands across the years
Soaking up the tears
Celebrate the rest of our time
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8. |
Survival Information
03:02
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Dictate my life, and my mind
Take a bite out of my time
Break apart the meaning to
Blame my superstitions
Survival information
Delayed gratification
These four wheels were never true
I’m so done believing you
Cruelty cuts another shard
From this icicle made for two
Survival information
Delayed gratification
We crave regeneration
But it’s not enough, it’s not enough
Survival information
Delayed gratification
We crave regeneration
But it’s not enough, it’s not enough
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9. |
May We be Loved
03:29
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When the night falls
When the dark calls
May we be loved
May we be loved
When the battle’s not won
When we’re left on our own
May we be loved
May we be loved
I’ll remember forever
As we follow the path you drew
It floods with the blood of the covenant
Who can never admit that to you
When we can’t sleep
When the horror cuts deep
May we be loved
May we be loved
May we be loved
May we be loved
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10. |
The Argonauts
03:56
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Don’t get into the car
We know how lucky we are
Devastated cos I made a mistake
I thought that it could change
But it stays the same
It’s up to me how much I want to give
Or am I being oversensitive?
Don’t fight
He’s only joking
Cheer up
But it’s already happening
Don’t get into the car
We know how lucky we are
Silent screaming
Cos it could have been me
On a cold dark night
With no friend in sight
I’ve had enough, I’m getting out of here
There’s something nasty in the atmosphere
Don’t drink
Don’t draw attention
Don’t run
Just leave your hair down
Don’t dare
To walk alone in broad daylight
We’re used to violence when we share our thoughts
But you could choose to be the Argonauts
Please help this circle squaring
Don’t ask what was she wearing?
They were just walking home
Leave us the fuck alone
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11. |
Disco Loadout
03:37
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My perfect sentence
I will not give it back
In love with life
And everyone I met tonight
My skin is cooling
Now this is ending
Cos they’re turning the lights up
Stumble to the tarmac
Yeah they’re turning the lights up
I hope we’ll be back
Through letters on a screen
We stand together
These bodies made of scars
Still we’re staring at the stars
Cos they’re turning the lights up
Stumble to the tarmac
Yeah they’re turning the lights up
Step into the darkness
Yeah we’re turning the lights up
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