do you ever think about how if you dive into the ocean and go deeper and deeper you will pass through layers of darker and darker blue until everything is black and cold and the pressure will be so intense that it will kill you without protection but if you keep going you will find little glowing specks of light, and if you go up into the sky and go higher and higher you will pass through layers of darker and darker blue until everything is black and cold and the pressure will be so intense that it will kill you without protection but if you keep going you will find little glowing specks of light
sometimes a post makes you get out of bed at 230am to spend a quick hour on something like this
[Image description: A color image in portrait orientation. The background transitions smoothly from a starfield on black at the top, through dark blue, medium blue, lighter blue, then back to medium, dark, and another starfield at the bottom. In the very center is a black silhouette of a human figure, appearing to float on its back as on the surface of water. Above it in the blue “sky” area are a curved, thin white line like the contrail of a jet aircraft, and two small black silhouettes of seabirds. Below in the deep dark blue, just before the starfield, are some silhouettes of fish. /end description]
what they don’t tell you about mental illness is that it is so much more than sadness. sometimes you don’t want to eat. sometimes you don’t shower for days because you forget or don’t have the energy. sometimes you fall asleep in your clothes. sometimes you can’t even cry because you just feel empty. sometimes you appear happy but it’s sucking the life out of you to appear so. sometimes you want to be left alone but you’re lonely. sometimes you sleep but it doesn’t make you feel rested when you wake up.
all of these things are valid parts of dealing with mental illness, and all of these things can change one day or week or month or year at a time. acknowledge your pain. then work on healing.
