tw: ed rant!
god, I feel so fucking deplorable and disgusting right now. Im seeing irl school friends for the first time in months since summer started. Im currently 52.35kg (or at least that was my weight yesterday), but I feel like Ive gained back 5kg over night. yesterday I only consumed abt 90kcal, but I C/S 2 cookies, a small bag of cheese and caramel popcorn and my entire dinner (taco salad), and I think I’ve gained every calorie. I feel like a giant fucking cow. I was so excited to show them how skinny I’ve gotten since last they’ve seen me, but I looked in the mirror and my face looks like I downed an entire pizza all by myself. my thighs still jiggle, my arms are still holding onto fat and my stomach is never flat enough. Im on my period so Im praying Im still just bloated. cant do anything fucking right istg
and we’re going out to eat ^^
… yippie

