IND. PRIV. & SEL. multi muse
as studied by mika. 30+ / MST
est. 06 / 2020
Muses from: Solely Dragon Age for the moment, but play Sanctuary by Utada Hikaru and I'll fold like a pretzel. Typically Final Fantasy, DMC, etc.
tyrannis
From the Latin sΔ«c semper tyrannis, short for sΔ«c semper ΔvellΕ mortem tyrannis ("thus always I cause the death of tyrantsβ), the line reportedly uttered by Brutus after he assassinated Caesar.
fidelis
β a Latin phrase that means "alwaysfaithful" or "always loyal."
pinned post.
penned by mika ( he/him, 30+, mdt ) β¦ independent, multi-muse, canon & original characters. mostly a little insane but like, in a good way.
rules.Β we all know how to act right. donβt expect anything else here.Β that includes: fiction =/= reality, and if you disagree with that statement, turn around post haste! thank you. donβt want any nonsense or drama. iβm an old man whoβs tired of it. in essence: donβt be a twat.
how do i explain to people that i put so much thought, work, and effort into working within the realm and lore of da:i that i genuinely, after so much meta/critical analysis, had such high hopes for veilguard and… got nothing. and that’s why there’s this disconnect for me.
like. i’m sorry. 😞 heeeeelp.
and frankly once i DO play it regardless of doing it for the fun of it, i will be critical of it because it’s a piece of media and it’s one i CARED about and when that happens i promise i’ll tag any criticism so people can block it or something ffhdhdj
i wanna make it unequivocally clear that there are no time limits when it comes to rping with me. idc if you’re scrolling through your drafts and you find a thread of ours from two years ago+ and you wanna continue it… but you’re afraid i’ll be upset with you bc it’s been so long…
babes, i am holding your face so gently when i say this: do the thing. i promise, the only thing i'mma be when i see that notif is excited
please feel free to jump into my DMs or even reply to this post with which muse you primarily followed for!! it would give me a good idea of where to start with everybody 🙂↕️
π πππππ πππππ ππππππ ππ ππππ πππππ,Β the wintry wind of the mountain easy to seep in under the crack under the door βββ to seek to sully the ambient warmth of skyholdβs rotundaβs candlelight ;Β and, to a degree, the elvhen mage inside it. sleeves rolled carefully to catch and settle at the crook of his elbows, solas stands among leather skins unfolded at his feet ;Β a spread of brushes and oils of varying color, with one such paintbrush tucked safely behind his ear as he stands, grey eyes surveying his most recent work documenting their journey for some future generation.
folly, perhaps, to seek to govern what would be remembered, and what would inevitably be forgotten. the truth, he knew, was often mired by the need for fantastic sentimentality. the mural would turn to dust not unlike the ash in his mouth that the thought left in its wake: cold, collecting cobwebs. a furrow knit solasβ brow, drawn tight in an effort to stave off the bile that roils in his stomach. emrys would becomeβββ
footsteps crash into his present awareness ;Β the commander a welcome distraction, though the way solasβ ear twitches in his previous irritation may not betray such a sentiment. it was, however, indicative of the fact that he was listening, even as he was slow to turn toward the man himself. chill indeed ;Β and he wiggled his toes, wrapped feet recalling the icy bite of the rain that had pelted them for nearly a fortnight. arms folding, he flexes his grip on his biceps, nails lightly scratching over the weave of the folds of his sweater as he turns his gaze on the commander, one brow rising in its arch. Β Β β it is the chill of the mountains that plagues me presently. β Β Β voice lilting, his eyes flicker to the door behind the other man, perceptive in their minutely narrowed gaze, before flickering back. Β Β β but βββ at least i am dry. β Β Β cullenβs inquiry, however, strikes solas as more than a littleβ¦ strange. he gives half a thought to the notion that cullen had come to the rotunda seeking someone else out entirely, and now sought only to make polite, idle chatter. grey gaze glancing momentarily back to the painted stone wall, solas decides he can indulge the commander. at least this once. Β Β β was the inquisitorβs briefing so unsatisfactory ? βΒ Β Β if only a little.
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Β Β The commander rolled his shoulders, willing the stiffness to dissipate though Solas was correct, the chill of the mountain was a plague, one heβd scarcely gotten used to. There was a reason he dressed as he did, avoiding the cold was just one measure. He noted the wrappings over Solasβ feet, the state of dress he was in. He didnβt understand it in the slightest. Why not invest in a pair of sturdy boots, something supple yet warm to keep out the damp and the chill. Solas was odd, in many ways, if he were being honest. Heβd never voice such sentiments though.Β βDry, and preoccupied,β Cullen noted, ducking his chin ever so slightly in apology for interrupting his work. This, at least, Cullen thought he understood. It wasnβt an endeavor he wished to undertake himself, but it was something he admired all the same.Β
Β Β He shook his head immediately at the comment, unwilling to speak ill in any way of the inquisitor.Β βNo, his report was, as always, thorough and enlightening.β He insisted, blinking slowly as stars move into his peripheral. His jaw ticked, nostrils flaring as a wave of nausea passed over him. He exhaled, fist clenching behind his back before relaxing once more as the pain passed.Β βCall it nostalgia from boyhood, if you must,β He clarified,Β βI find I like hearing stories of your journeys, particularly those I was unable to join you on.β He explained, the white lie wrapped neatly in truth. He had always been adventurous as a child, and he did enjoy hearing the stories, especially the parts that werenβt necessary for briefings, the ones shared over laughter and ale while the party spoken about cringed and feigned embarrassment.Β βAnd I admit, Iβm going a bit mad looking at my own reports.β He sighed, wiling to acquiesce that in order to explain his presence before seeking his aid. His hand moved to brush through blonde curls, sweeping them back. They were the slightest bit damp, he realized, irritably.Β
A furrow knits a quizzical brow. Grey eyes watching, closely; he sees the subtlest of sways, weight shifting in a way that might not be concerning were it not for the circles under the commanderβs eyes. Strange to think heβd come here, regardless. Gaze thread with green dulled by the flickering firelight all around the room, he forgets the paintbrush safely tucked behind his right ear for a moment, bringing his stained hand up to his lips and simply watching more than he is admittedly listening. Or, rather, listening in the same way one listens to Dorianβs groaning rants in the Wastes; as a static background noise where words seep through oneβs awareness on occasion.
Thorough and enlightening.
Indeed, he thinks, amusement writ in the creases that form at the corners of his eyes; a fondness for the inquisitor in question and nothing more. It does nothing to soothe the ever encroaching reality of his observance that their very own Commander Cullen β βYou lookβ¦β there is a pause for breath, a sigh, βterrible. If you donβt mind me saying.β He felt no need to mince words, and never truly had in the other manβs presence, despite their rocky start. Solasβ thumb brushes under his bottom lip. Without further thought, he turns; taking a few long strides to the seat he so commonly occupied and pulling it out to offer. βPlease, sit.β The hands that grip either side of the backrest tighten their hold as his head tilts ever so slightly to one side, considering. βWhile I fear the Lady Cassandraβs wrath, Iβm inclined to think Emrββ A stop and a minute shake of his head. βThe Inquisitorβs would be much worse if you fell unconscious under my watch.β
speaking of replaying da:i again for the 9568789th time: i did what i’ve never done for the kicks and played champions of the just instead of in hushed whispers and sided with the templars and i
blame my love for cullen on this and
thought why not? and
holy shit it was so well done.
i’m genuinely impressed by it and YES it did take me this long to try that path, but also yes i should put in emrys’ bio / path that i’m open to exploring other options because some are equally as good in very different ways. anyway that’s that.
Make fun? Perish the thought. So tell me β have you ever licked a lamppost in winter?
He stood by the window, where the moon lay behind shifting clouds and the steady curtain of rain. His amber gaze lingered on the glass, watching droplets trace ephemeral paths down its surface - fine threads weaving their way to the edge. On occasion, two would meet, merge, and continue on as one, their journey altered yet aligned. Strange, he mused, how even the most fleeting of things - raindrops born of storm and sky - can find unity, carving a singular path none but they may tread together.
Not unlike the two of them, in some ways. Even the rain understood what it meant to converge; to share a path, if only briefly. A sound drew his attention, faint yet distinct. Not the idle murmurs of one lost in peaceful dreams, but something strained. Troubled. His steps were measured and silent, hardly stirring the air as he crossed the room.
His eyes fell upon the harbinger, noticing how his brow was taut, expression marred by some unseen torment. This was no mere nightmare. No fleeting phantom of the mind could evoke such tension in his features. The sounds he uttered were incoherent, yet laden with weight; words spoken not with voice alone, but from some deeper, fractured place. Zhongli knelt beside him, reaching with practiced care. Ginger strands clung to his dampened forehead, and Zhongli brushed them aside with gentleness. His voice, when it came, was low and steady, a quiet anchor. “You are far from whatever battlefield holds you now,” he murmured, not to wake but to ground. His fingers threaded through his hair, a slow, soothing motion. Be at ease, he thought, his presence offered not as a shield, but as a shelter - quiet, constant, and resolute.
It was becoming more commonplace. The coming and going. Dealings with the bank and dealings… else wise. A search he’d been tasked with that seemed hopeless. It kept him coming back to Liyue more often than not; be it for resources or simply in search of a friendly gaze as his own shoulders had gradually become lowered, downtrodden. The line of his shoulders didn’t break so easily, but cracks and crevices over time lead to the inevitable crash: be it in the comfort of linen or stealing a hilichurl hut for the night through less than friendly means, all done with a near to manic grin twisting his lips. Still, when he stepped foot into the Harbor, it was becoming more commonplace, to take solace in the warmth of a shared bed rather than slipping into the shadow of solitude at the Wangshu Inn.
He had not seen a golden smile accompanied by fluttering fairy typically in fits in many, many days. Weeks? He couldn’t be sure, as time slipped from his fingers like fine grains of sand, swept away by the wind. When had he last rested? Truly rested? The question bore a heavy weight over his mind, his body. Bruises accumulating, he’d come to Liyue bearing bandaging over his forearms with blood that had already dried over; still offering the faintest tang of iron if one bothered to look at them for too long. And, with practiced ease, he allowed the inevitable crash.
The rain had soaked him through and through; demanded that he strip himself of sodden wet clothe and armor with dew drops slipping over the sleek shine of familiar silver. It all lay by the wayside, without a thought held for its account. All that had mattered was the cup of tea on the bedside, the hands that had brewed it; the words given in some hint of chastisement were like a balm to his soul, at the time. And so, under the hush of a gently falling rain, the ache of his muscles had finally pulled him into sleep.
Sleep, yes. But not the rest he so desperately wished for.
If he had once been weighed down by nothing more than twelve thousand steps, the tension returned to snap his muscles back into fitful sleep; a darkness behind the eyes, trapped within the mind, far too familiar. It presses in from all corners and, in the utter silence, his heart kicks up; because the silence always comes first, he knows. He’s been here before, pulse beating with the frantic heartbeat of a terrified child. The silence sits, as if air itself dare not move in the space around him.
Childe already knows it’s too late. He will be swallowed by it; mind, body, soul. The strain of his muscle, nor the blood on his blade can push back the tide. Not forever.
Within this there is a touch, both unassuming and unexpected; it startles him out of sleep, jerking upright, breaths quick but quiet. Blue eyes flit about the room, taking in every corner, table, candle: tension in his body noted even in the way his fingers curl tightly in the sheets at either side of his hips, tendons flexing. Sweat drips from his temple to slip down; over his cheekbone, the curve of his jaw, the lines of a slender neck. It settles over his collarbone as his eyes finally lock onto Zhongli; amber eyes shadowed by the ridge of his brow. Childe swallows, but the strain of his shoulders, doesn’t dissipate. “You—” His heart throbs in his ears, quick as a hare’s feet. Childe bites down on his tongue hard enough to draw blood. He doesn’t have anything to say.
Instead, he pushes the sheets from his hips, slips out from under them with a swift kick of his legs so they can swing over the side of the bed. He grips the edge of the mattress, nails digging into the linen as he stares blankly at the floor before his eyes. The room is cast in moonlight, he realizes. He has no idea what time it is. The bolt of his jaw ticks.
My askbox is available to anyone and everyone, no matter the nature of your inquiry, IC or OOC. Due to the nature of this inbox, ANONYMOUS WILL REMAIN ENABLED, to allow people to send both meta questions and things such as gif requests. However, in regards to any gifsets / graphics requests, I'd prefer them be sent here, to sicsemper, but as I am primarily focused on Cloud and Ignis these days, do expect slower responses.
Guidelines / Elaborations
I saw a young Qunari working in a simple kitchen, baking bread as she was ordered every morning. In every loaf she broke the rules. She'd take a pinch of sugar and would fold it to the center; like a secret. And this act of small rebellion brought a shining smile across her face.
001. Introduction / Disclaimer
Hello, my name is Mika! Iβm a grumpy 60 year old man on the inside, and a soft pop punk boy on the outside. I've been dancing to this song for far too long, so we're going to keep the rules page pretty nice and simple. That being said, this blog is independent, private, and selective. Meaning β this blog will be mutuals only&plot based.
DISCLAIMER! I am not affiliated with any of the material that my muse originates from / the actors associated with the franchise.
Thoroughly plotted threads take priority. I'm rather busy, and I would rather spend the time I have developing threads via mutual plotting over answering undiscussed threads. I may respond to starter calls, or throw out a few myself, but please don't be offended if the responses are slower than things that have been previously plotted.
003. A NOTE ABOUT CALLOUT CULTURE
I do not participate, and I will not participate. This is a pervasive culture that I do not ascribe to. Not only does it push the idea that people cannot grow and learn, but I most often find that people seem to mistake personal disagreements for community drama. Regardless β it's not my business, and I have absolutely no interest. I ask that you're respectful, and do not ask me to participate. Simple as that!
004. A NOTE ABOUT PURITY CULTURE
I do not adhere to purity culture, under any circumstance. What makes an individual person uncomfortable is personal, and is ultimately their own hang up to contend with. Literature has explored dark themes for longer than the ancient Greeks wrote down their histories. To try to completely erase dark themes from literature and to bully writers into writing only what you feel is appropriate based on the RPC's ever fluctuating moral compass benefits no one and nothing but your ego. So, if you have a problem with that, I encourage you to look inward instead of other people's inboxes. This is quite the classic instance of dead dove: do not eat.
Essentially: If you are not mature enough to understand that fiction =/= reality,please turn around post haste.
005. A NOTE ABOUT COLLECTING TROPHIES (MAINS)
I am not here to collect dust. I am not interested in becoming mains unless I feel someone is going to actively return the effort that I put in. Let it be known: I treat mains as lowkey exclusives. I'm highly selective and always have been. That is not something I expect anyone to return, however, I do expect to be treated as your main writing partner for that specific portrayal / dynamic. That means being prioritized just as much as I would / will prioritize you. I have noticed people seem to have lost track of this, and seem to want to declare 'mains' and then treat that main just as they would any other writing partner. As someone that is very invested in what I write and who I write with, I'm not interested in anyone wasting my time, just as I wouldn't wish to waste theirs. Be respectful.
That being said, I'm sure you can imagine how I feel about exclusives.
Triggers that are canon compliant will not generally be tagged. This means that potential untagged triggers can include: physical and psychological trauma, and canon compliant violence. However, if there is anything a mutual wishes me to tag specifically, donβt hesitate to message! That being said β please be reasonable. If you are at all familiar with the franchise, you should know what to expect on this blog.
Triggers that are tagged will be tagged as "trigger /".
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"A bird can fly away for seasons, but it will always recognize its nest when it returns."
"I don't think I'm welcome here."
"When the time is right, we always get to go home."
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Cloud: Introduction
This portrayal of Cloud Strife is based within the canon of the Final Fantasy VII Remake, with influences from the broader Final Fantasy franchise. However, it is worth noting that because the creators seem to have different intentions with the direction of the remake than the original, this portrayal will be heavily, heavily based in the remake and will adapt as new information is released based on such.
That aside, Cloud is a character that delves quite deeply into both psychological and physical trauma, and this depiction will not shy away from those things, as they are integral to his character.
Note: At present Cloud will be written within canon and now, after a complete replay through the series: his Kingdom Hearts verse!
Elaboration: Shipping
Clerith (Cloud & Aerith) is the only ship I will entertain for Cloud at present, particularly seeing as this portrayal is primarily based on the remake.
It's important to note that thus far I do firmly believe it is the remake's intention for Cloud to be falling in love with Aerith, despite his complicated relationship with Tifa. However it is doubly important to note that this is not to say I don't find Cloud's relationship with Tifa to be extremely important. It is: it's incredibly complex, there's a ton to unpack there, and I intend to explore that because it's a fascinating dynamic, is significant to Cloud's character, and affects the way he navigates interpersonal relationships and the narrative at large.
But when it comes to romantic "shipping," I can't imagine writing Cloud opposite anyone other than Aerith.
Note: This is, of course, subject to ongoing changes in the remake's narrative β as has been shown between the original and the remake thus far β as I am rather canon strict. That also being said, my stance is influenced in no small part by my interpretation of the original storyline, spanning from FFVII (1997) to Advent Children. But for now, this is where I'm at.
So what if it seems hopeless? If it were me, I still wouldn't give up. Embrace your dreams. And, whatever happens β protect your honor.
Zack: Introduction
This portrayal of Zack Fair is based within the canon of Final Fantasy VII, and subsequent material. For Zack, this means that influences are drawn not only from Crisis Core, FF7 OG, but the Remake as well. Because of this, it is worth noting that the meta written for Zack is going to be important for understanding this portrayal, as there are several discrepancies with Zack's characterization between what we understand of him based on the OG, and what Crisis Core presents.
In regards to the Remake, it is important to note that because the creators seem to have different intentions with the direction of the story than the original, this portrayal will adapt as new information is released based on such. Beyond that: any writing to be done surrounding the Remake, its timeline β or even any verse that might be OG based in which Zack lives β needs to be heavily plotted. There will, in time, be whole posts dedicated to my interpretation and adaptation of Zack into such verses.
All that aside, Zack is a character that delves quite deeply into psychological and physical trauma, loss and isolation, and death and this depiction will not be shying away from any of those themes, as they are integral to his character.
Note: At present Zack will be written within his canon; including Kingdom Hearts, though I will be expanding what that canon looks like for him.
Elaboration: Shipping
This may be considered heresy, but I am not a huge fan of Zerith β at least not as it is often depicted or boiled down to. There is far more nuance than it being a cut and dry romance β and arguably not a romance at all. Crisis Core changed the OG's original intention of the relationship, which I don't find myself to be a huge fan of. I think it's inarguable that there is a puppy love aspect to the dynamic in the beginning (two teenagers meet, the boy is a terribly handsome flirt β so the story goes), but beyond that, the roots don't run that deep in terms of a romance: they both needed comfort, and ultimately found that in each other. Aerith was lonely, and Zack desperately needed someone to turn to (which plays heavily into the themes of Aerith + the church being representative of a sense of sanctuary). For this reason, I find myself far more interested in the platonic aspects of the dynamic.
In essence, I am thrilled to write and explore the dynamic as it's presented in the canon, I just want to clarify that I don't interpret it as being some tragic romance (though, it is certainly tragic).
Note: This is, of course, subject to ongoing changes in the Remake's narrative β as has been shown between the original and the remake thus far β as I am rather canon strict. That also being said, my stance is influenced in no small part by my interpretation of the original storyline, spanning from FFVII (1997) to Advent Children. But for now, this is where I'm at.
Elaboration: Shipping Part II
The above all being stated, I find it worth noting that I do have a shipping dynamic that I adore for Zack: Zack / Tifa. This is heavily verse dependent, as the dynamic is only given room to develop and grow in verses where Zack escapes Shinra and makes it to Midgar with Cloud. With five years having passed, Zack deserves that room to grow β and he's someone that would be a healthy, supportive influence for Tifa despite the trauma of their shared past. It's a dynamic that encourages them both to heal, and it makes me coo coo bananas, so I won't ramble about it here.
But what about Aerith, you ask? In FFVII (1997), Zack made it clear that he never planned to meet Aerith's mother, and therefore was unsure about whether or not he even wanted to try to see her upon their return to Midgar. While I do think he would struggle with where they stand and would actively seek to rectify that based on both Crisis Core's events and what we've seen of him outside the church in Remake β I still think the roots were not deep enough for a romance to further bloom between the two. Especially not once Aerith and Cloud meet.
Point being, my main ship for Zack is with Tifa, under any circumstance where the verse allows it.
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Ignis: Introduction
This depiction of Ignis Scientia is based on that of the character in FFXV, with influences from the surrounding media (ie: Kingsglaive, Brotherhood, etc). As such, there will be a heavy focus on emotional and physical trauma, as well as the nature of devotion. These are fundamental aspects of Ignis' character and they will not be watered down.
That is to say, I am fully aware that the nature of Ignis' devotion to Noctis is, by and large, unhealthy: but it's a primary aspect of his character, his emotional arc, and the physical trauma he endures. I will in no way gloss over this.
NOTE: At present, Ignis will be written solely within canon, insofar as all FFXV canon has to offer. This means that Brotherhood and Kingsglaive are also up for grabs β but it also means that I am very well interested in exploring the extra verse Square Enix themselves have presented, as I think there's a lot more to unpack there than some folks give it credit for.
Elaboration: Shipping
It's important for my portrayal, I feel, to mention that I firmly believe Square Enix was quite heavy handed in hinting (if you can even call it that) at the nature of Ignis' feelings for Noctis. In any iteration of this portrayal, Ignis' feelings for Noctis remain desperately devoted and either conscionably or unconsciously in love. This, of course, depends on what part of Ignis' life is being explored, but after playing through and rewatching Episode: Ignis multiple times (and continuing to do so and replay/rewatch the main game), the nail in the coffin is just hammered in too deep, and I feel it would be a disservice to his character to disregard it.
This isn't to say I expect reciprocity from any portrayal! Not at all. I think that canon portrays something horribly messy and heartbreaking and I, for one, love it. This is simply to say that regardless of Noct's feelings, Ignis is in turn struggling with his own just beneath the surface. I only ask that you be aware of it as an aspect of this portrayal.
Elaboration: Extra Verse
The "Extra Verse" is something I am entirely willing to explore. From chapter nine onward, and especially into the ramifications it presents in the world it presents once the dust has settled. I have seen that it sometimes gets disregarded as fan service, but I personally find the world after the dawn to be one very worth exploring. Trying to reinstate a monarch in a world of political unrest and upheaval? The physical toll the entire ordeal has taken on all of them β particularly Noctis? I find what canon presents as an 'alternate ending' incredibly interesting! Very worth plotting, 10/10.
Note: It is worthwhile to note, however, that even down that path, my portrayal of Ignis remains visually impaired, to some extent. Not quite blinded, but certainly impaired. Even with the crystal's healing, I can't imagine there not being some remaining injury (aside from the obvious scarring). This is a detail that I will develop with time.
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Auron: Introduction
This portrayal of Auron is primarily based within the canon of Final Fantasy X, with minor influences from other iterations of the character (ie: appearances in Kingdom Hearts, etc). To reiterate what is noted on Tidus' page: while FFX can come across as a very lighthearted and silly game, please be informed that the themes presented in FFX β such as the concept of sin and the nature of death β are very heavyreligious themes. If exploring these things in depth makes you uncomfortable, getting in depth with Auron's narrative and meta might not be for you, especially as I intend to rather seriously further explore these things, rather than ignore or water them down.
These themes and the implications thereof even carry into Kingdom Hearts 2 for Auron, and I won't be ignoring them there either.
Note: The only verse Auron will have beyond canon will be Kingdom Hearts.
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Darkness always finds a way into a wounded heart. You have to be strong. Strength of heart will carry you through the hardest of trials.
Terra: Introduction
This portrayal of Terra is based out of the Kingdom Hearts series, ie: Birth By Sleep, Kingdom Hearts 3, and the subsequent material (book adaptations, etc). That being said, Terra is one of the few characters that delves deeply into the dangers of the dichotomy of light vs. darkness, and what path having darkness in one's heart may lead to ("Channel the darkness," Master Xehanort said. "It'll be fun," he said), as well as the motif of strength of heart vs. will and the role of the protector.
Note: At present, Terra will be written solely within canon.
ELABORATION: SHIPPING
So, let it be stated that I know Terra / Aqua is a very popular ship in the fandom. While there are certain motifs drawn on particularly for Aqua that shouldn't be ignored by any means (ie: "true love's kiss" returning again and again in her arc in BBS), I don't personally feel that these motifs crop up for Terra / from Terra's perspective. That being said, I am actively reading the novelization of BBS, which gives quite a bit more insight into Terra's internal processes.
So, I feel neither here nor there about any ship for Terra, but as I work through the novelization of BBS and continuously refamiliarize myself with the cutscenes, as I tend to do, this might change. Especially since I don't feel Square's heavy handed implications for Aqua should go ignored β there would just need to be quite a large amount of development if exploring such a dynamic were to be pursued.
"The anchor has power, but itβs not why youβre still standing here. Your decisions let us heal the sky; your determination brought us out of haven. Youβre the creatureβs rival because of what you did β and we know it, all of us. The Inquisition requires a leader: the one who has already been leading it. You."
"Youβre offering this to an elf. Are you quite sure you know what youβre doing?"
"I would be terrified handing this power to anyone, but I believe it is the only way. Theyβll follow you. To them, being an elf shows how far youβve risen, how it must have been by Andrasteβs hand. What it means to you β how you lead us β that is for you alone to determine."
Lavellan: Introduction
A semi-original character, this depiction of Inquisitor Lavellan is based on that of the character in DRAGON AGE: INQUISITION, with a heavy focus on the societal implications of being a Dalish elf in such a position. As such, religious themes and societal injustices will be largely explored.
NOTE: Beyond that, there are canon elaborations where I felt concepts needed to be expanded upon rather than simply glossed over. Many of these will either be found on the character's biography page (which also includes the decisions made on my Inquisitor's path), and in the meta tag, both of which can be found above under the drop down navigation.
NOTE: At present, Lavellan will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: Shipping
Pavellan and Solavellan are the two ships I will primarily entertain for Lavellan at present.
It's important to note that in Emrys' default canon, in accordance with the game, Emrys romances Dorian Pavus. This means that 9 / 10 times I will default to referencing Dorian as Emrys' partner as / when it's appropriate in other threads!
"The anchor has power, but itβs not why youβre still standing here. Your decisions let us heal the sky; your determination brought us out of haven. Youβre the creatureβs rival because of what you did β and we know it, all of us. The Inquisition requires a leader: the one who has already been leading it. You."
"Youβre offering this to an elf. Are you quite sure you know what youβre doing?"
"I would be terrified handing this power to anyone, but I believe it is the only way. Theyβll follow you. To them, being an elf shows how far youβve risen, how it must have been by Andrasteβs hand. What it means to you β how you lead us β that is for you alone to determine."
"Do you think the servants here are happier then the people living under the Qun in Par Vollen?"
"It doesnβt matter if they are happy, it matters that they may choose."
"Choose? Choose what? Whether to do their work or get tossed onto the street to starve?"
"Yes! If a Ferelden servant decides that his life goal is to... become a poet, he can follow that dream! It may be difficult, and he might fail. But the whole of society is not aligned to oppose him."
Solas: Introduction
This portrayal of Solas is rooted in that of the character in DRAGON AGE: INQUISITION, with influences of the character in the broader franchise (ie: information on Fen'harel stretching back to DAO, later instances in The Masked Empire, etc). That being said, his character delves heavily into societal injustice, slavery, and retribution. He is, by nature, an extremely morally grey character that I'm not willing to water down.
Beyond that, Solas is one of my oldest muses β I've written him a lot and for a long time (years) outside of this blog. My portrayal of him is quite set in stone, so get ready for metaβ’, drabbles, etc.
NOTE: At present, Solas will be written solely within canon. Beyond that, if not expressed otherwise (or writing with another), Emrys Lavellan is Solas' default inquisitor.
Elaboration: Shipping
Solavellan is the one ship I will entertain for Solas at present. That being said, Solas himself has been largely developed with my own Lavellan (regardless of the nature of the dynamic), which makes it difficult to put him opposite other Lavellans and/or another elf, as he has not only been integral to Emrys' development, but also in the development of the verses he's been written in with close writing partners.
That being said, he's not entirely closed off to shipping, but the nature of a romance would be ludicrously complex, as removing Emrys from his story is difficult for me, which means that it would a) have to be in a universe where Emrys remains Inquisitor and b) means that individual would have to be understanding of the significance Emrys bears on Solas' life.
TL;DR β an absurd amount of meta/plotting behind the scenes would need to take place, and it's never going to be a happy story. As I've said, Solas is one of my oldest muses, and there has been a lot that's gone into his portrayal outside of this blog, and I would rather build his portrayal on this blog around that than disregard it entirely.
"Do you think the servants here are happier then the people living under the Qun in Par Vollen?"
"It doesnβt matter if they are happy, it matters that they may choose!"
"Choose? Choose what? Whether to do their work or get tossed onto the street to starve?"
"Yes! If a Ferelden servant decides that his life goal is to... become a poet, he can follow that dream! It may be difficult, and he might fail. But the whole of society is not aligned to oppose him!"
"Does the Tevinter Chantry tell the same story of how the darkspawn came to be?"
"Slaves are not regaled with a Tevinter version of the Chant of Light. If I were to guess, it'd go something like: And lo, the greatest of magisters ventured into the Maker's City. And to reward them for their courage, he created darkspawn as a scourge against their enemies."
"You don't think they take responsibility for their actions?"
"Responsibility is the only thing magisters don't take."
Fenris: Introduction
This portrayal of Fenris is based primarily on that of the character in Dragon Age II, with influences of the ongoing Dragon Age: Blue Wraith comic series, as well as any extraneous depictions of or references to Fenris throughout the canon DA universe. As such, themes in accordance with vengeance, prejudice, and the consequences of both mental & physical trauma will be explored.
It is important to note that Fenris deals with the dark underbelly of the DA universe, meaning this portrayal will not shy away from the topic of slavery in a fantasy setting. Fenris' time in Tevinter as a slave has colored much of character, and I will not do him a disservice by ignoring that.
Note: At present, Fenris will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: Shipping
Fenhawke is the only ship I will entertain for Fenris. Fenhawke is, realistically, the only ship that works for Fenris. There is a level of trust and character development to be found through what canon presents of Fenhawke that Fenris does not appear to achieve otherwise.
That being said, I find the hints that canon seems to place here and there about Isabela and Fenris to be interesting. However, considering what is learned about Fenris through romancing him, I find the insinuation of Isabela / Fenris to be ultimately inconsistent with everything you learn about how Fenris navigates intimacy otherwise. For that reason, I'm not really willing to entertain the prospect.
"Does the Tevinter Chantry tell the same story of how the darkspawn came to be?"
"Slaves are not regaled with a Tevinter version of the Chant of Light. If I were to guess, it'd go something like: And lo, the greatest of magisters ventured into the Maker's City. And to reward them for their courage, he created darkspawn as a scourge against their enemies."
"You don't think they take responsibility for their actions?"
"Responsibility is the only thing magisters don't take."
What? Lead?Me? No, no, no. No leading. Bad things happen when I lead. We get lost, people die, and the next thing you know β I'm stranded somewhere without any pants!
Alistair: Introduction
This depiction of Alistair Theirin is based primarily on that of the character in DRAGON AGE: ORIGINS, with heavy influences from his subsequent appearances in the Dragon Age franchise overall. As such, internal conflict with religious themes,childhood neglect, and societal injustices will be largely explored.
NOTE: At present, Alistair will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: Canon
Seeing as the King Alistair path is the default canon within DA, but the Warden Alistair path is very popular (and very much something I love to explore, especially within Inquisition), I treat both as canon verses, simply with two separate tags to differentiate the two different paths. Anything tagged as 'canon verse' is in reference to the default canon (King Alistair), and anything tagged as 'canon verse ii' is referring to the Warden Alistair path.
What? Lead?Me? No, no, no. No leading. Bad things happen when I lead. We get lost, people die, and the next thing you know β I'm stranded somewhere without any pants!
If you awake to a knife at your throat, if monsters dig their claws into you, if death comes knocking at your door, call out my name.Adeptus Xiao.I will be here when you call.
Xiao: Introduction
This depiction of Xiao is based on that of the character in Genshin Impact. As such, it's important to keep in mind that this portrayal is bound to develop as Genshin itself expands, and more may arise about the character β including any possible inclusions in the extraneous media, such as the manga, etc.
That being said, it's important to keep in mind that Xiao's character revolves around dark themes. I will never cast these themes aside, but rather delve into them in order to gain a better understanding of the character's development and psychology. These themes include but are not limited to: mental and physical trauma, sins of the past, suicidal ideation, self degradation, etc.
NOTE: At present, Xiao will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: The Traveler
Unless specified otherwise, I have chosen to default Xiao's canonical Traveler to Aether.Aether appears to be the character Hoyo itself defaults to in official artwork, and therefore I'm just going with their flow. But I also find it narratively significant and more consistent that Xiao is able to warm up to Aether, who is quite literally a character that is conceptually connected to warmth, and the sun; whereas Lumine, on the other side of the coin, is connected to the moon.
However, that being said β I want to be clear that I have no qualms or hesitancy writing with Lumines. It's simply that outside of anything that might be plotted otherwise, or in the absence of a Traveler portrayal β Aether will be Xiao's canonical Traveler.
If you awake to a knife at your throat, if monsters dig their claws into you, if death comes knocking at your door, call out my name.Adeptus Xiao.I will be here when you call.
Childhood dreams are all too easily shattered. Even if you just leave them be, they will fall to pieces all by themselves.
Childe: Introduction
This depiction of Childe / Tartaglia is based on that of the character in Genshin Impact. As such, it's important to keep in mind that this portrayal is bound to develop as Genshin itself expands, and more may arise about the character β including any possible inclusions in the extraneous media, such as the manga, etc.
That being said, it's important to keep in mind that Childe's character revolves around dark themes. I will never cast these themes aside, but rather delve into them in order to gain a better understanding of the character's development and psychology. Most prevalent being his teetering on the edge of socipathic tendencies and perceived obsessive behavior in regards to violence.
NOTE: At present, Childe will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: The Traveler
For consistency with my portrayals β Aether will be Childe's default Traveler.See Xiao's page for further explanation.
I'm definitely more of a dog person myself. Cats are very independent, which has its merits, but you'll only find obedience in dogs. They'll do whatever you tell them to. Heh, what can I say? I suppose I find loyalty to be quite an attractive quality.
Kamisato Ayato: Introduction
This portrayal of Kamisato Ayato is based on that of the character in Genshin Impact. As such, it's important to keep in mind that this depication is bound to develop as Genshin itself expands, and more may arise about the character β including any possible inclusions in the extraneous media, such as the manga, etc.
NOTE: At present, Ayato will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: The Traveler
For consistency with my portrayals β Aether will be Ayato's default Traveler.See Xiao's page for further explanation.
I'm definitely more of a dog person myself. Cats are very independent, which has its merits, but you'll only find obedience in dogs. They'll do whatever you tell them to. Heh, what can I say? I suppose I find loyalty to be quite an attractive quality.
I don't need to fight β I only need to think.Everything is connected. All I have to do is find the weakest link, deal with the causal factors, and everything else tends to resolve itself. Essentially: more time on contemplation,less time on execution.
Alhaitham: Introduction
This portrayal of Alhaitham is based on that of the character in Genshin Impact. As such, it's important to keep in mind that this portrayal is bound to develop as Genshin itself expands, and more may arise about the character β including any possible inclusions in the extraneous media, such as the manga, etc.
That being said, I implore you to read the below elaboration and the resulting meta as it arises, considering my interpretation of Alhaitham's character is going to be from a very specific perspective.
NOTE: At present, Alhaitham will be written solely within canon.
Elaboration: A Note About Noise-Cancelling Headphones
Due to multiple choices made for Alhaitham's characterization, this portrayal is going to delve / lean into the interpretation that he is on the autism spectrum. He has been portrayed as being someone that relies solely on clinical logic, is remarkably apathetic (or, rather, is overly blunt without necessarily realizing or caring that it can be met with upset or anger), and that this tendency toward being antisocial causes his interpersonal relationships to suffer.
While this, to me, seems fairly tongue-in-cheek enough β they gave him noise-cancelling headphones that he wears as a permanent part of his design, along with palm rejection gloves. Both of these things are used to decrease stimulation; and the headphones especially are well known for being things autistic individuals use to do so, so that they might be able to better focus and not suffer overstimulation, which can interfere with daily life β and especially work. Beyond that, his design centers around focus, precision, incredible intelligence, antisocial behaviors, and what Kaveh refers to as "arrogance" so much to the extent that I would argue it indicates that this creators seemed to very much have designed him according to life experiences similar to / once attributed to Asperger's Syndrome (AS), specifically.
TL;DR β This portrayal isn't going to ignore some pretty heavy implications that Alhaitham is meant to be read as being on the autism spectrum, so I simply ask that you be aware of that. There will be a full meta about this in the future, which will be linked to below once it has been completed and posted, so stay tuned.
Note: Let it be said that while the term Asperger's Syndrome has been reclassified for numerous reasons, there are those with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) who continue to use the term colloquially or as simply being a part of their identity within that spectrum β particularly because it is an easy way to identify a narrower, more specific set up symptoms (ie: someone who would have previously been diagnosed with Asperger's would suffer less social delay than an ASD individual with higher needs), and I quite simply am not willing to demonize any individual that chooses to do so.
That being said: I will be using the term 'ASD' primarily in regard to Alhaitham, but in the above instance, noting what is colloquially still understood as 'Asperger's' β regardless of the demedicalization β seemed the easiest way for people to understand my meaning, especially were they to have a quick look into it.
Additionally, it needs to be stated that this will apply to any iteration of the character that I write β be it within canon or otherwise.
Elaboration: The Traveler
For consistency with my portrayals β Aether will be Alhaitham's default Traveler.See Xiao's page for further explanation.
Elaboration: Shipping and Muse Exclusivity
Due to the overwhelming wink wink, nudge nudges by Hoyo in regard to the pair, Kavetham is the only ship I will entertain for Alhaitham.
That being said, it's not only for that reason β it's simply the only ship that realistically works for Alhaitham contextually within the narrative. Kaveh is quite literally the only person who is radically sympathetic enough to be able to have enough love and patience to be in a relationship with Alhaitham. Admittedly: the man is hard to love, but that's one of the things I love most about him.
Additionally, I have come to a point in writing Alhaitham where it feels only natural that aequitaes' portrayal (linked to below) of Kaveh is the only portrayal I will be shipping or writing with. Not only does this allow continuity on a broader scope, but after so much meta behind the scenes and squabbling with each other, I really can't deny that those two are stuck with each other.
That being said, whenever Kaveh is mentioned in other threads, it is in reference to aequitaes' Kaveh.
I don't need to fight β I only need to think.Everything is connected. All I have to do is find the weakest link, deal with the causal factors, and everything else tends to resolve itself. Essentially: more time on contemplation,less time on execution.
Year 4931 of the Light Calendar, Month of Balance. Nikador β the Strife Titan, Lance of Fury β fell. Mydeimos,king of Kremnos, triumphed over the trial, and the new god was born. On the following day, the Kremnoan dynasty, which had lasted for a thousand years, came to an end.
Mydei: Introduction
This portrayal of Mydeimos is based on that of the character in Honkai Star Rail. As such, it's important to keep in mind that this portrayal is bound to develop as HSR itself expands, and more may arise about the character β including any possible inclusions in the extraneous media, etc.
That being said, I implore you to understand that much of my characterization is going to be based not only within the canon, but pulling from the Greek culture and mythology that all of Amphoreus pulls from; i.e. Kremnos is Amphoreus' version of Sparta, and I'm not going to ignore that.
That being said, some aspects taken from such mythos and history to make Mydei a more realistic character might be difficult to swallow. Please bear this in mind. This includes themes such as religious guilt, internalized homophobia, etc.
Threads will not have a warning tagged, but meta posts might.
NOTE: At present, Mydeimos will be written solely within canon, but I will be delineating between pre-divinity and post his ascension.
Elaboration: The Trailblazer
For consistency with my portrayals β Caelus will be Mydei's default Trailblazer.See Dan Heng's page for further explanation. However, I am still perfectly happy to write with Stelles!
Elaboration: Shipping and Muse Exclusivity
Due to the typical implications done Hoyo-style in regard to the pair, Phaidei is the only ship I will entertain for Mydeimos at this time.
That being said, it's not only for that reason β it's simply the only ship that realistically works for Mydeimos contextually that the narrative seems to be hinting at; quite tragically (Greek). They are presented as two sides of the same coin, as Hoyo so often loves to do with implied canonical pairs.
Additionally, I have come to a point in writing Mydeimos where it feels only natural that aequitaes' portrayal (linked to below) of Phainon is the only portrayal I will be shipping or writing with. Not only does this allow continuity on a broader scope, but she pulled me out of the depths of Hades for this (pun intended) and we two are stuck with each other.
That being said, whenever Phainon is mentioned in other threads, it is in reference to aequitaes' Phainon.
Year 4931 of the Light Calendar, Month of Balance. Nikador β the Strife Titan, Lance of Fury β fell. Mydeimos,king of Kremnos, triumphed over the trial, and the new god was born. On the following day, the Kremnoan dynasty, which had lasted for a thousand years, came to an end.
For consistency with my portrayals β Caelus will be Mydei's default Trailblazer.See Dan Heng's page for further explanation. However, I am still perfectly happy to write with Stelles!
The flow of time is always cruel. Its speed seems different for each person, but no one can change it. A thing that doesn't change with time is a memory of younger days.
Link: Introduction
This portrayal of Link is based within Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild, with influence from previous iterations of the character with a focus on the main titles within the franchise. As such, a heavy focus of this portrayal will surround displacement in time, and the struggle with identity, loss, and sense of isolation that comes with it.
Note: Despite this portrayal being based in the BOTW timeline / storyline. This includes the full storyline, meaning anything set during the Age of Calamity is also viable. I do want to note that I am seeking to dip into AOC as soon as I'm able, which both opens up interaction in terms of canon, and will have an effect on the portrayal as it stands.
At present, Link will be written primarily within BOTW canon, but I am also seeking to refamiliarize myself with Twilight Princess as well!
Elaboration: Shipping
It's worth noting that Zelink is the only ship I will be entertaining for Link. While I do absolutely think there is a level of romantic tension and complexity to be found with Mipha, as is suggested by the diary entries and canon events of BOTW, I do also believe that Zelink is the primary romantic pairing that The Legend of Zelda has always presented. And while there is something to be explored with Mipha β considering she was confident enough that Link might return her feelings to formally propose β I do think the canon also presents her love as very tragic, and so I do not personally think those feelings are necessarily returned in the way she hopes.
Essentially: Link and Zelda are intrinsically tied to one another, throughout the franchise's history, and I've no intentions of ignoring that.
Elaboration: Ship Exclusivity
Due to the above, I am happy to state that I will be writing Zelink exclusively with aicidos' portrayal (linked to below) of Zelda. There is just a level of meta and natural flow between our interpretations and our writing that I absolutely adore, and I, frankly, have no desire to write the ship with anyone else.
The flow of time is always cruel. Its speed seems different for each person, but no one can change it. A thing that doesn't change with time is a memory of younger days.
You know what separates us from animals? Choice. I choose to travel with you. A dog would do it on instinct, to fulfil a need. Disrespect me again and I won't choose to kill you β I'll do it on instinct, to fulfil my need to hear you scream.
Astarion: Introduction
This depiction of Astarion is based primarily in that of the character in BALDUR'S GATE 3, drawing influences from previous history and lore of the Forgotten Realms franchise (as I come to learn it), as well as general DnD mechanics and lore. As such, Astarion deals with fairly heavy themes, including: internal conflict of nature,manipulation, and both physical and psychological trauma that will be largely explored.
Beyond that, Astarion's tumultuous past and the nature of his character means there will be potentially triggering content such as: mild body horror, past dubious/non consent, and exploring enslavement as a theme/fear. And, naturally, potentially graphic depictions of blood!
I say all this to give fair warning: all of these things are inherent to his canonical character. They will be explored, not ignored, but they will most often not be tagged, because if I had to tag every potentially triggering thing about the nature of a morally grey, chaotic neutral vampire with a violent and manipulative past, I'd be tagging nearly every post. Anyone has the option to blacklist his character tag for this reason.
NOTE: At present, Astarion will be written within two verses: canon, and the Dragon Age universe.
Elaboration: Canon
Seeing as I am not terribly familiar with the original franchise (as a gamer, I know what I know about Baldur's Gate through proxy, in essence), I just want to make a little note to iterate: on top of watching and rewatching nearly every dialogue option and cut scene currently available in the early access of BG3, I only was just able to purchas BG + BG2, and I am only just getting into BG lore on the whole. So, as a DnD player relatively 'new' to BG, I still need to learn where BG as a franchise differs from classic DnD, etc. I will get there, I am sure, and I will start to feel more at home after my first play through, but for now: I ask for a bit of patience!
Additionally: As we know, BG3 is in early access, which means as more of the game is released, the more we'll learn about Astarion. Meaning, as someone who is fairly canon strict with their portrayals, if new released material directly contradicts an idea I had had for the character, I will revise or completely do away with that idea. Basically, Astarion is a portrayal that is more subject to change than most. At least, at present!
You know what separates us from animals? Choice. I choose to travel with you. A dog would do it on instinct, to fulfil a need. Disrespect me again and I won't choose to kill you β I'll do it on instinct, to fulfil my need to hear you scream.
You look like a warrior to me. Even warriors feel fear β there's no shame in it. Fear helps us survive. It's temporary, but honor is not. You'll find no honor in jumping off this building β only death. Talk to me.
Alexios: Introduction
This is a canon divergent depiction of Alexios based on that of the character in Assassin's Creed: Odyssey, with influences of the subsequent DLC material. The primary focus of this portrayal is to explore the motifs and themes inherent in the concept of the Classical Greek hero, as Alexios was crafted to draw on not only the myth of Odysseus, but the Classical archetype of the mythic Greek warrior.
Note: Alexios will be written solely within his canon for the time being; though, it is important to keep in mind that due to the circumstances of his canon, this means he is eligible for interaction beyond the events of AC: Odyssey.
Elaboration: Canon
Please understand that this portrayal is largely canon divergent from the time Alexios meets his father, onwards. This, however, does not mean I am retconning the events of the story, but rather certain choices that were made that did not logically suit the themes inherent in the main story and crafting of his character, nor logically suit the existing lore within the franchise. In essence, my divergence is an attempt to bring Alexios more in line with the pre-established lore that occurs before AC: Odyssey, in order to bring Alexios and the events of the game back into line with AC's original canon (ie: primarily the canon put in place from AC1 to AC3), as much of what was done was unnecessary by the world's own standards of lore. Beyond that, I find some of the decisions that were made (and their consequences) to have a sense of narrative dissonance with the character and story they had been crafting up until that point.
Essentially: I find that fashioning a character after a Classical Greek hero with the heavyhanded implication that he is indeed β like the heroes he is narratively fashioned after β a demigod, and then choosing not to follow through with that, to be such a lost opportunity. It is my hope, then, to follow through with what's presented in the canon that Ubisoft decided not to. So, I do not follow the canon that Pythagoras is the Champion's father. My other divergences primarily stem from this point.
That being said, it's also important to note that my default canon is the "worst ending." It's the most thematically consistent with actual Greek tragedies β and all stories of Greek mythic heroes are tragedies. However, it is also something I'm willing to be flexible on β I understand that it can limit interaction with certain characters, and so I'm not super strict on this. But it is what I will default to when it's appropriate to do so!
TL;DR βI simply ask that assumptions not be made about this portrayal based on other portrayals, or any vague familiarity with the character, as this depiction of Alexios is going to diverge fairly heavily in certain aspects (eg: his lineage and his subsequent bloodline β though due to the recent patch, there is room for conjecture on this particular topic). For this reason I ask that, if you are truly interested in interacting with his portrayal, that you at the very least skim his divergences page.
You look like a warrior to me. Even warriors feel fear β there's no shame in it. Fear helps us survive. It's temporary, but honor is not. You'll find no honor in jumping off this building β only death. Talk to me.
"I would certainly find it regrettable to be... interrupted β before I can finish this investigation."
"What will happen if I pull this trigger, hm? Nothing? Oblivion? Android heaven?"
"Nothing. There would be nothing."
Connor: Introduction
My depiction of Connor is based on the good path Connor's character choices can lead him down in Detroit: Become Human, meaning he follows the road of loss of self identity and eventual deviancy. My primary focus with Connor is to explore the major theme of which he is the conduit for the narrative of the game: what it means to be human.
For Connor, this largely is explored through internal struggles of self identity, and navigating human relationships; including navigating manipulation, abuse, and neglect, as well as trust, empathy, and the development of familial bonds.
Might controls everything. And without strength, you can not protect anything β let alone yourself.
Vergil: Introduction
This depiction of Vergil is based in the Devil May Cry series, so far as the canon extends. This means that any materials in relation to the original franchise, including Visions of V, are very much taken into account. As such, it is important to understand that DMC is a franchise that delves into the horror genre, so be suitably warned. That being said, Vergil's character revolves heavily around potentially triggering motifs, and imagery. Potential content warnings within the canon primarily include: child neglect, physical torture, and emotional and physical trauma.
Note: As I am working my way back through the franchise (I now have DMC 1 - 5 under my belt, plus some of the available books + manga), certain interpretations are subject to change. That being said, I should also note that this portrayal is not reboot compliant.
Elaboration: V vs. Vergil
To be clear (and to reiterate what's on V's page): I do not adhere to the interpretation that V is Vergil, particularly after reading Visions of V. I find this conflation of their characters to be a very surface level read of the connection between the two. Which, frankly, I think is a shame, because as straightforward as the storytelling of the DMC franchise often is, I find V's character to be incredibly nuanced and well crafted.
That being said, I am likely going to write an entire meta about this in the near future (me being me), which I will properly link to when it's posted. Until then, for those familiar with the Kingdom Hearts series, you can sort of equate the V : Vergil as being similar to Roxas : Sora. One is borne of the other, retains some memories, β though Visions of V makes it clear that the reasons for this are primarily because of the "nightmares" (familiars) that he hosts β but is not, in all actuality the same person, despite the connection.
While the demarcation between the two is sometimes unclear because of the connection between them β ie: V having Vergilβs memories (read: trauma) due to hosting the manifestations of the nightmares, it seems evident V =/= Vergil. This is further evidenced by the fact that when V (and the familiars) talks about Vergil, there is a sense of dissociation, and he is spoken of in the 3rd person, as if heβs a different entity entirely.
Beyond that, when Vergil is not spoken of as if V and Vergil are separate entities, it is primarily when Vergil is spoken of by Dante or Nero (in game), interpreting the connection between the two or, rightfully, being confused by it. Alternatively, this will happen with Griffon (in the manga) in much the same way. It is worthwhile to point out, however, that when Griffon does so, it is often in jest; as it is also Griffon who differentiates between V and Vergil quite clearly (see: 1 & 2). It is doubly worthwhile to note that the moments V himself speaks as if he is Vergil is overwhelmingly primarily when heβs having flashbacks of the nightmares he subsumed, or is hallucinating because of them.
TL;DR β While there is obviously a deeply rooted connection between V and Vergil, they are not the same character, and I won't be writing Vergil as if they are.
To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower, Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour.
William Blake (c. 1757 β 1827), Auguries of Innocence
V: Introduction
This depiction of V is based in the Devil May Cry series, so far as the canon extends. This means that Visions of V is very much taken into account. As such, it is pertinent to understand that DMC is a franchise that delves into the horror genre, so be suitably warned. That being said, it is also worthwhile to note that V's character is one that finds itself amidst potentially triggering motifs, and imagery. Potential content warnings within the canon primarily include: dissociative behavior (including hallucinations) and developing physical illness, as his body fails him. As these play a heavy role in his narrative and characterization, they will carry over even into his other verses.
Note: As I am working my way back through the franchise (I now have DMC 1 - 5 under my belt, plus some of the available books + manga), certain interpretations are subject to change. That being said, I should also note that this portrayal is not reboot compliant.
Elaboration: V vs. Vergil
To be clear: I do not adhere to the interpretation that V is Vergil, particularly after reading Visions of V. I find this conflation of their characters to be a very surface level read of the connection between the two. Which, frankly, I think is a shame, because as straightforward as the storytelling of the DMC franchise often is, I find V's character to be incredibly nuanced and well crafted.
That being said, I am likely going to write an entire meta about this in the near future (me being me), which I will properly link to when it's posted. Until then, for those familiar with the Kingdom Hearts series, you can sort of equate the V : Vergil as being similar to Roxas : Sora. One is borne of the other, retains some memories, β though Visions of V makes it clear that the reasons for this are primarily because of the "nightmares" (familiars) that he hosts β but is not, in all actuality the same person, despite the connection.
While the demarcation between the two is sometimes unclear because of the connection between them β ie: V having Vergilβs memories (read: trauma) due to hosting the manifestations of the nightmares, it seems evident V =/= Vergil. This is further evidenced by the fact that when V (and the familiars) talks about Vergil, there is a sense of dissociation, and he is spoken of in the 3rd person, as if heβs a different entity entirely.
Beyond that, when Vergil is not spoken of is if V and Vergil are separate entities, it is primarily when Vergil is spoken of by Dante or Nero (in game), interpreting the connection between the two or, rightfully, being confused by it. Alternatively, this will happen with Griffon (in the manga) in much the same way. It is worthwhile to point out, however, that when Griffon does so, it is often in jest; as it is also Griffon who differentiates between V and Vergil quite clearly. It is doubly worthwhile to note that the moments V himself speaks as if he is Vergil is overwhelmingly primarily when heβs having flashbacks of the nightmares he subsumed, or is hallucinating because of them.
TL;DR β While there is obviously a deeply rooted connection between V and Vergil, they are not the same character, and I won't be writing V as if they are.
You misunderstand me, Dean. I'm not what you think. I was praying for you to save the town. These people β they're all my Father's creations. They're works of art. I'm not... a hammer, as you say. I have questions, I have doubts.
Castiel: Introduction
My portrayal of Castiel is based in the Kripke Era, meaning it is based in seasons 1 β 5 of Supernatural. I focus quite heavily on the inhuman aspect of Castiel's nature and how this affects not only his relationships with others, but his journey in falling for the sake of humanity, and in turn becoming human himself. For this reason, I am fairly canon strict leading up to the events of Swan Song, and am heavily divergent thereafter.
However, this doesn't mean I am not open to writing anything post β season 5 canon! It would simply take a bit of extra plotting. I have officially seen up to season 10, and once the show has finished airing, plan on doing a full rewatch and finishing it in its entirety.
You misunderstand me, Dean. I'm not what you think. I was praying for you to save the town. These people β they're all my Father's creations. They're works of art. I'm not... a hammer, as you say. I have questions, I have doubts.
"What if we win? I'm serious! I mean, screw the angels and the demons and their crap apocalypse. Hell, they want to fight a war, they can find their own planet. This one's ours, and I say they get the hell off it. We take 'em all on. We kill the Devil. Hell, we even kill Michael if we have to β but we do it our own damn selves."
"And how are we supposed to do all this, genius?"
"I got no idea. But what I do have is a GED and a give 'em hell attitude, and I'll figure it out."
Dean: Introduction
This portrayal of Dean is based in the Kripke Era, meaning it is based in seasons 1 β 5 of Supernatural. Much of my focus for Dean is his perpetual internal conflict, including his self loathing and suicidal ideation, therefore mature and potentially dark themes will be touched on with this character more often than others. For this reason, I am fairly canon strict leading up to the events of Swan Song, and am heavily divergent thereafter.
However, this doesn't mean I am not open to writing anything post β season 5 canon! It would simply take a bit of extra plotting. I have officially seen up to season 10, and once the show has finished airing, plan on doing a full rewatch and finishing it in its entirety.
Note: At present, Dean will be written solely within canon.
"What if we win? I'm serious! I mean, screw the angels and the demons and their crap apocalypse. Hell, they want to fight a war, they can find their own planet. This one's ours, and I say they get the hell off it. We take 'em all on. We kill the Devil. Hell, we even kill Michael if we have to β but we do it our own damn selves."
"And how are we supposed to do all this, genius?"
"I got no idea. But what I do have is a GED and a give 'em hell attitude, and I'll figure it out."
"Do you know what bugs me?"
"People... taking your order?"
"No. Taking people's orders."
"Why would you do that?"
"You don't know my dad."
Austin: Introduction
This semi-private portrayal of Austin Ames is based in the film A Cinderella Story (2004). This is my every opportunity to live my late 90s / early 2000s nostalgia, yes β but I also look at is as an opportunity for me to write within a genre that was popular at that time. While it is shamelessly American, there were many other pieces of media at the time in a similar aesthetic vein that adhered to similar tropes, such as One Tree Hill and Friday Night Lights. As a writer, I've always wanted to dip my toes into such a genre, and this is officially my attempt at doing so. On top of which, I love me a good romantic comedy.
That being said, at present, Austin is more of a writing exercise than a muse I intend to throw around β I have no intention to write him outside of his genre, and therefore I've no intention to write him in verses outside of his canon. However, if anyone is interested in him, please feel free to message me! He's not completely closed off from interaction, either.
It's a switch on your fears, fear of the other. They try to isolate you. It's called divide and conquer β and they tricked you into thinking it's what you asked for. You said with one voice: We will not be lied to.We will not be afraid.We will not be silent.
It's a switch on your fears, fear of the other. They try to isolate you. It's called divide and conquer β and they tricked you into thinking it's what you asked for. You said with one voice: We will not be lied to.We will not be afraid.We will not be silent.
