10 years on!

So for those new (and anyone still receiving emails) life got a bit crazy and n o the 10 year time gap is very much due to my inability to tech like a smart person!

What has happened in the interim?

IDespite the gloomy prognosis in my youth that I would be lucky to reach adulthood I recently turned 30. Chalk one victory against medical science. After escaping a toxic relationship, a mental health battle and a minor alcohol addiction I took some time to get myself back in my feet and reevaluate my world view. O wanted a fresh start and relicated to a new country with little more than clothes and a fortunate investment that vested in the nick of time…In the days since I have found a loving partner, we have a home with a dog who is as mad as any toddler and are actively planning a wedding. Aswell as beginning studying for a university degree …More for my own confidence and to capture the experience i missed but with the (much nobler) end goal hope to work in advocating for disabled people. I have managed to learn to speak some very limited phrases but due to the way Bricas works this is exhausting mentally and physically, years of habit have also meant significant.laryngal atrophy has occurred meaning even now I am limited to short sentences (about 6 or 6 words) and I certainly won’t be winning any rap battles as it still sounds very hoarse, stuttery and disjointed.

this of course is a very brief summary but if anyone is that bored I’d be happy to belaborate

Oops…

I recently regained access to the Gmail account I used to set the blog up way back when. I went through a very protracted MH crisis which (assuming my memory is correct) was precipitated by an abusive relationship and things like blogs and social media fell by the wayside until today when i found an old journal with all my old logins while decluttering.

I doubt many even remember signing up or commenting on this blog but for those who did and have left kind words and thoughts. I thank you for them, hope you are doing well wherever life has taken you and thank you for taking the time. I apologise for the excessive hiatus as my aim was to educate and give people a platform to emphasise with people like myself affected by mutism. While I can’t (and won’t) say sorry for the events leading to the time away I do feel bad for failing in that goal.

All the best,

Unexpected outcome

In all honesty I never expected this little blog to get any attention whatsoever, really I’d forgotten about it until I checked my email. Thank you all for your interest and my apologies to those who asked questions so long ago and didn’t get round to responding too.

All the same, thank you for taking the time to read my ramblings 🙂

Inspired

So after seeing the recent popularity of blogs, I finally decided to publish my own after holding out for so many years, I’m not sure what it will have, what I will put on it, or whether anyone will even see it. It’s good to have your own small space in the world, even if it is just online. A small part of a vast network that I can claim as my own. Who knows if this blog will end up abandoned like too many other projects, or whether it could blossom into something major in my online life even if it does go unnoticed. The world is waiting, and it’s an adventure.