skyfullofdeadstars

I think the worst part is that at the end of the day, when I get too exhausted pretending I'm fine being completely alone and when I run out of things to keep me busy or they no longer make me happy, I realise just how alone I am and it hurts so bad. All I've wanted was a hug. And I got nothing.

skyfullofdeadstars

I quit smoking… and I can’t work out now because my muscles are aching so bad already. So wtf do I do to keep myself busy. How do I get that fucking love and safety that I can’t have but my body craves so much?? All I wanna do is bash my head against the wall until I bleed

totheoneswhocannotsleepatnight

If the hand that fed you was also the hand that hit you and the mouth that said loving words was also the mouth that hatefully screamed at you, how could one not become a living contradiction?

kosmogrl

i’m so kind but i’m so evil and bitter

spaneltejo

I used to want to be a good person until I realized society doesn't typically value someone like that. So all this talk about "I feel like a bad person therefore I don't deserve good things" is so irrelevant. Look around. The worst people are living their best lives, so what's exactly stopping me from becoming the worst version of myself?

whendidmythoughtsgocrazy

And if i'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

k.b. // unknown

speedlimit15

When youre a kid youre like wtf adults are making themselves sick with poisons and when youre an adult youre like i need more poisons ASAP

junglejim4322

People really underestimate the power of just telling someone you like them. romantically obviously but hell even just platonically too. You can admit you enjoy peoples presence it doesn’t have to be mind games it’s okay to just be sincere and true with your thoughts and intentions btw

totheoneswhocannotsleepatnight

Sometimes (often) I feel like I live in a very different reality to others cause how can you be so ignorant, lack so much common sense, be so dense, so completely and utterly stupid and careless??

skyfullofdeadstars

Started going to a boxing club and omg... it is so incredibly fucking hard and ow ow I'm in so much fucking pain but the masochist in me is loving it

skyfullofdeadstars

Chronic depression took so much from me, I should’ve started so many things sooner

cannagracie

is there a foolproof way to scoop the obsessive nature out of my pathetic soul or am i supposed to just let it swallow me whole

fairycosmos

beyond fucked how the traits you hate most in your parents manifest in you more and more the older you get despite consistent and long term effort to break the cycle and not end up like them