Who am I? You are Rei Ayanami. But, who are you? Are you Rei Ayanami as well? Correct, I’m the thing that is recognized as Rei Ayanami. We are all things that are recognized as Rei Ayanami. How could all of those possibly be me? It is simply because the others call us Rei Ayanami, that is the only reason. You possess a false body and a fake soul, do you know why? I am neither false nor fake, I am simply me. No, you are an empty shell with a false soul created by a man named Gendou Ikari. You are just an object that is pretending to be human. Look deep within yourself. do you perceive the almost intangible and physical presence that lurks below your waking self? inside your darkest dreams? It is there that your true identity lies. No, I am me. I became myself by the instrumentality of the links and relationships between myself and others. I am formed by interaction of others. They create me as I create them. These relationships and interactions serve to shape the patterns of my heart and mind.

Those are bonds?

Yes. That is the name for what I share with those who have created the thing known as rei. That is what will continue to shape me.

Those are bonds.

But there is someone else who is your true self. You don’t know her, but she exists. You’ve denied that fact, in an attempted to suppress that facet of your reality.

Because of fear.

Because she might not have human form. Because then the present self might cease to be.

This is fear.

This is what you fear. That you will become nothing. Or frightened that you will disappear from the minds of others if another exists. I’m afraid, why is that? Because your current self have never existed.

You are scared, aren’t you?

Because you will cease to be.

You are scared, aren’t you?

No, I’m not. I am happy because I want to die. I want despair. I want to return to nothing, but I can’t. He won’t let me return to nothingness. Not yet. I still exist because he needs me. But when everything is over, when I am of no use anymore, he will abandon me. I’ve prayed for the day he would abandon me. But now, now I fear it.