swan // she/her // currently into: genshin impact, honkai star rail, naruto (i do not control when i re-enter naruto hell etc etc), whatever i'm currently reading or watching
mattfoggy from the like 2016 daredevil show were actually so crazy bc like. you’re best friends, you’re each others emergency contacts, everything that you’ve built for yourself as an adult is something you built together, and yet at the same time. your best friend has been lying to you since the day you fucking met. you know each other better than truly anyone else in the whole fucking world, and there is a fundamental piece of his existence that he never told you about. this shit could ruin everything you’ve built, could get him killed, and he didn’t tell you a word of it.
and on the flipside: here’s the one person you’ve ever gotten close to without getting abandoned, and you can’t even bring yourself to be fully honest with him bc how could he ever stay if you were. and he finds out and he leaves, bc of course he does, and you let him, bc it’s probably for the best and he can do what he fucking wants. you’re not gonna twist his arm to get him to fucking love you. but he comes back, and you both keep coming back through everything that follows, bc who else is going to know you like this?? what could ever fill the hole they’d leave behind??? everything you’ve built you’ve built together. how could you ever actually leave that behind?
okay no but the WILDEST thing is that he said “who the hell is bucky” in the first place. if you really think about it, in context it’s actually pretty damn funny. here’s this amnesiac assassin whose mask gets pulled off, and he pauses to mug at the camera, and when steve recognizes him, he takes the time to say HIS FIRST REAL LINE IN THE ENTIRE MOVIE, “what the fuck did you just call me?” then is only unable to shoot steve because he gets kicked and exploded.
literally so fucked up* that Steve just didn’t give a shit that Bucky was the winter soldier. not even for a second. he didn’t even know that Bucky had been tortured and brainwashed and electro-wiped. when he said “who the hell is Bucky” that’s all he needed to know. that’s my friend and they fucked him up. time to save him. “I don’t know if I’m worth all this, Steve” too fucking bad, we’re going. went against his new friends his job his duty the UN 117 countries to save him. he’s responsible for more than 2 dozen assassinations and killed innocents and his own friends under Nazi orders. yet he didn’t question or hesitate for one godforsaken second. im crying
