how to move through life like a real human being and not a reanimated corpse
eroticising guilt is fun and reliable but let's not overlook the potential for eroticising lack of guilt. i don't feel bad about what i did and i'm helpless with terror in the face of what that says about me. of who i could become if i let myself acknowledge it without a firm hand to hold me back from going too far. without someone to restrain me. someone to unchain me. someone who'll take what i can give them.





