sometimes there are ships I really do want to be convinced to like because it would give me a lot more fic about my favs to read and I’m sure writers have done it well but I just can’t even get over the hump of caring to click on it
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thing is I truly cannot be getting stuck on a pair that rare. I’ve got to focus
another all-nighter and another paper down, only one more to go 😌 (it's a big one and I've got work 😔)
no negative consequences to any of this except I’m going back to read my recent posts and I do sound rather deranged and that doesn’t bode well for my assignments and also I’m once again quickly becoming convinced that everyone’s angry with me and deeply disgusted by me.
if i had any belief whatsoever in my ability to organise an event without tearing my hair out i’d run an idril/tuor day or week. alas!!!
and you know…if I’m completely honest with myself they might be the one ship with which I can occasionally become actually annoyed when it’s depicted in ways that clash too wildly with my interpretation. so it’s probably best I do not do this anyway. idea cancelled forever peace and love on planet earth <3
so so so so so so embarrassing and terrible and horrible to have been very effectively pretending to be having a good time and have everything organised and under control with a professor for almost a year working with them and then fucking one! deadline up and having to lay way more out on the table than you ever wanted to. should i just drop out instead be honest
thankfully didn’t end up having to disclose all that much - she basically just said I’m on thin ice. like ok. truer than you know prof [redacted]. lol.
aaaaaah posting writing is so scary and relearning how to do something you used to like to do but fell off of when you fell off of doing literally anything SUCKS! everyone is so nice though and gives me so much grace and it's lovely I'm just like. UGHH it's so scary and I'm always finding typos later and stupid stuff I missed and feeling like it's just not good or cheesy or whatever. but it's fine it's cool it's whatever I'm learninggg I'm just learning
there’s also a double edged sword of posting fic about a not-that-popular character and it’s that it doesn’t get a lot of traffic (calming, less pressure, yay!), but it also doesn’t doesn’t get a lot of traffic (I have no idea if it sucks)