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Meep
10 years ago
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So.
How am I suppose to fall in love with someone when they don't amount up to you? When they're not as sweet as you... When they're not as caring or miraculous. Maybe I've become picky?
It's been 9 months, and my stupid ass still loves him. I guess we'll see where I am in another 5 months. Plagued by the thought of you, feel like I'm going mad. I just wanna rip my hair out and scream. At least I've gotten to the point where when I'm with another person doing sexual or talking about sexual things doesn't make me feel guilty anymore. But every god damn day, "I wonder what he's doing..." "I hope he's okay." "I miss everyone." I feel like I'm trapped in the loneliness, and there's people reaching out to me. But I find all their flaws, and watch their every move. If they're lacking morals or respect it's an instant turn off. It's like a FUCK ATHA ABORT YOU AINT NEED THIS NIGGA.
I hate myself for not being a tough cunt.
How am I suppose to fall in love with someone when they don't amount up to you? When they're not as sweet as you... When they're not as caring or miraculous. Maybe I've become picky?
It's been 9 months, and my stupid ass still loves him. I guess we'll see where I am in another 5 months. Plagued by the thought of you, feel like I'm going mad. I just wanna rip my hair out and scream. At least I've gotten to the point where when I'm with another person doing sexual or talking about sexual things doesn't make me feel guilty anymore. But every god damn day, "I wonder what he's doing..." "I hope he's okay." "I miss everyone." I feel like I'm trapped in the loneliness, and there's people reaching out to me. But I find all their flaws, and watch their every move. If they're lacking morals or respect it's an instant turn off. It's like a FUCK ATHA ABORT YOU AINT NEED THIS NIGGA.
I hate myself for not being a tough cunt.
