“I think I know how the staff likes to be treated after all these years” hits so hard. ilya has been secretly paying close attention to shane for seven years. what makes him tick, what he loves in bed, his hockey skills, that he loves ginger ale and has a cottage where he does yoga and his parents’ names are yuna and david and david reads the new yorker. he has been gathering up all of these pieces of shane and holding them inside of him. before this, we only ever get pieces of it (is the ginger ale cold enough?). but in this episode we finally get to see him own up to that and put his knowledge of shane on full display. I know what you like in bed, shane, I know that you like to be pinned down and fucked hard and teased. I know you like to be bad. I know that you do your yoga over there and I know how to refocus you when you’re panicking. I could map your freckles by heart. you have a weak backhand. I love you.

“after all these years” made me cry