Aww, love I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. The best way to combat grief is by not combatting it at all. Just allow yourself to totally feel your emotions. I over use the phrase ‘grief is love with no place to go’ abundantly and it hasn’t once stopped being true. This person meant the world to you and I am entirely positive that the feeling was mutual. Live on in their memory, reflect on their impact on your life, talk to them out loud. Keep their spirit alive. Crying is expected, encouraged actually. Remember that they’re always living through you. I hope you find peace, my friend. 🫂