So uh, hi! This is the shittiest intro you'll ever see on this site/silly but fr I'll. Work on a better one. Possibly a color coded one? I don't know yet

My name is Syd but my friend has taken to calling me "Syddie" or "Sydula" sooo whatever works honestly

I'm transmasc, my pronouns are... uh. Well. They're something- honestly I'm fine with any other than she/her, get creative with it :p

I'm autistic! I can't really tell tone of online text and such and sometimes I don't understand things so please be patient with me ^^

Anyway yeah that's. All you really need to know as like the basics lol

Uhhhh things I like/fandoms I'm in/etc blast:

I draw sometimes but it's not good so yeah- I might post some art but like probably not a lot

I have a bunch of PJO rp blogs, including Octavian and Nero! And a few ocs. I'm constantly thinking of ocs and making more and stuff lol

I aspire to be the book analyzing guy of tumblr/j but also yeah I analyze the stuff I read and probably will start analyzing other media I consume as well when I get time

Take a look under the cut for like, tags I guess?

I forgot Trey Sterling's dad was named Sterling Sterling

That's so stupid lmao it's worse than Robert Robertson...

Burnout paired with emotional instability is so silly because one moment you're like "aw yes I'm the best I'm gonna solve everything on this worksheet" and the next you're ugly crying and thinking you'll never amount to anything ever and you should just give up and drop out because clearly you're a failure that can never do anything right and wow you should kill yourself all because you got one question wrong

*taps mic* Blonde Blazer is autistic

Sincerely an autistic person who acts very similar to how she does

Dispatch swap au... hear me out I know this is the most basic au format ever but

What if the Red Ring took the role of SDN and SDN took the role of the Red Ring

Would anyone fuck with that

Would anyone maybe want to read the ideas I've been thinking about

Perhaps even see art of the au if I make it...

Have you ever felt so helpless you just sit and do nothing but stare straight ahead while you sob?

Do you ever feel like everything you've ever done, everything you've ever worked for, was all for nothing because your dreams changed at the last minute and now there's nothing you can do to change your career path because you're too far into the thing you thought was going to be your entire future?

It sucks, doesn't it? To know you're too far gone into studying for a job you now realize you're going to hate, to know it's too late to change the outcome? To know younger you would look at you now and be so disappointed, because what happened to your dreams? Why aren't you trying anymore?

And while yes you enjoy the subjects you're studying you realized you don't want to associate your future with them, but the system made you pick which general direction you want your career path to go at age 13. So now your past decisions make you sit in your room, in front of your notes and instead of studying, scream into the void about how it's all so unfair, that you don't want to be what you thought you wanted to be.

The "what do you want to be when you grow up?" question will haunt you forever, because your dream hasn't changed since you were six years old, and now, at eighteen, you realize you want to do something entirely different. And you sit here knowing you'll hate waking up to go to work because you geniuinely do not have another career because you had to choose which subjects to expand when you were 13, and now your options are limited to just that.

Hot take there should not be a need to say "imagine if the roles were reversed" for people to recognize male SA

You should not need to say "what if she was a man and he was a woman" for people to actually listen to male SA victims, or for them to be recognized at all

It pisses me off so much when people only listen when they hear that, because male SA is just as valid as female SA and everyone should recognize that regardless.

SA is a horrible thing, no matter the gender of the victim, no matter the gender of the perpetrator, no matter ANYTHING. It should always be recognized, the victim should always be valid in the eyes of others. I am sick of people cherry-picking which victim is valid and which one isn't.

Coś podobnego! To agenci heparynowi z biura antykoagulacji, na ogół są bardzo pożyteczni ale ta akcja to kompromitacja!

I love plotting in my friend's dms because then I can test out how angsty something will be

Most of the time I'm spitballing off of a singular idea that popped up in my head too it's crazy

BEETLEJUICE BEETLEJUICE BEING YOUNG AND FEMALE DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M AN EASY MARK

Yes

He is me and I am him except way less traumatized

Hi so the short answer is yes

The long answer is I used to be OBSESSED with them like 2-3 years ago and religiously listened to the And Justice For All album to sleep, I currently own multiple Metallica shirts and hoodies (including a plain black t-shirt, a ride the lightning one, a 72 seasons zip-up hoodie and I believe I have a and justice for all hoodie as well but I haven't seen it in a while..) and would sing along to Master of Puppets with my parents who got me into Metallica. My favorite songs were and still are The God That Failed, Sad But True, Chasing Light (< this one is especially good for tortured oc playlists and embodies multiple of my characters I fear) and Eye of the Beholder. I still to this day remember a lot of the lyrics to their songs

So yeah :p