Fresh off a rewatch and I’m really intrigued by the fact that the two times Elphaba uses magic to save someone’s life (Boq and Fiyero respectively) she turns them into something that isn’t human.
I know she has a fairly loose grasp on the language of the Grimmerie so there’s a lot of desperation and monkey’s paw logic to it, but given that the Grimmerie is pretty attuned to her, I just feel like it speaks to a fear of the vulnerability of being human that she’s like I have to literally take away this person’s humanness to keep them safe.
This whole concept of “human=weakness” is such a heartbreaking change in her given that Elphaba’s whole life she’s been made to feel like she isn’t human but always fought to assert herself as human anyway when she was younger, and then went on to fight as hard as she could to defend the personhood of Animals. I would have loved it if Part 2 explored Elphaba’s conflicting attitudes toward humanness and her own identity quite a bit more than it did. The closest we get is in No Good Deed when she expresses doubt and cynicism over her own motives, which is a phenomenal moment for her, but we don’t really get to see her wrestle with that concept along the way.
There’s so much depth to Elphaba that I feel gets skated over by fans who just want to make her a revolutionist saint and martyr to imprint on, when that’s still forcing her into an archetype rather than acknowledging her humanity or all the doubt and insecurity she’s just barely keeping contained beneath the surface. Her fluctuating struggle with humanness/personhood and whether it’s something to be protected and valued, or something that causes harm and weakness, or whether it’s something she’s even allowed to experience, is such an integral part of her character, something she does her best to ignore until it’s too late; along with Boq and Fiyero’s transformations, her surrendering to becoming the Wicked Witch during No Good Deed is its own transformation into something that isn’t human in order to keep herself safe.
It adds so much strength to her insistence during For Good that Glinda can’t clear her name or try to stand by her because if Glinda were to put herself in harm’s way to protect Elphaba as she originally intended to do, Elphaba having to save her would almost certainly demand taking away Glinda’s humanness as she did with Boq and Fiyero. And I don’t think Elphaba could handle one more person she loves being stripped of their humanity because of her. She cuts off her own humanity at the loss of Fiyero, but then reclaims that humanity when faced with the fear of losing Glinda.
Anyway. Elphaba struggling back and forth with the concept of personhood and vulnerability, fighting for it, longing for it, resenting it, then destroying herself over it, before ultimately making the decision to protect the last shred of humanity left to her in the form of Glinda…Just makes me feel things, that’s all.