part one here
Satoru still hasn't gotten over you.
Yes, he cheated. Yes, it was his fault that you left. Yes, he hurt you.
But he was a man, right? Men make mistakes. Men are humans.
That wasn't an excuse, however. Because now, seeing you from across the campus, Satoru's heart gave a traitorous pang.
You looked as beautiful as always with that soft smile you'd always have on your face as you held a novel in your hands. The slight scrunch on your eyebrows as you concentrate on the page. The tiny giggles that would escape your lips whenever you'd read something funny.
Satoru knew it all—because he used to be right beside you whenever it'd happen. Your hair would be all over his lap as you lay on it, staring up at him with a dreamy look in your eye—and he'd throw a boyish smile of his own back at you; the kind only reserved for you. And he still remembers the slight exhale you'd let out whenever he'd lean down to kiss you, unable to take the love in your gaze any longer.
They all felt like a ghost, brushing through his bare hands that twitched in the cold winter breeze. He shuddered, the breath misting up in a small cloud of regret as he forced himself to look away from you. Doesn't matter; his eyes would always stray back anyway.
And almost as if you sensed the weight of his gaze, you looked up from your book, your smile faltering just a little at the edges as your eyes met his.
His irises were as blue as ever.
And just like how he forced himself to look away, so did you.
Satoru still hasn't gotten over you.
Your smiles were always the one that made his day. The kind curves of your lips that he saw every time he came back home from a long mission, the understanding twinkle in your eyes as he leaned on you for support.
He still sees it whenever he closes his eyes at night. He still feels the ghost of your touch whenever he moves around in bed. He still hears your small exhales by his side as he drifts off.
They all flashed through his mind in one go—but Geto was in every one of those instead of him.
Just like what he could see across the campus. His best friend, leaning down and giving his ex a kiss on the cheek as you gave him that same smile you always used to give Satoru. He watched Geto help you up from the bench, slipping an arm around your waist while he listened to your chatting. Your face was giddy, excited even, and you looked so... happy. Beatific.
Satoru thought you looked even happier than when you were with him.
And so he watched from a distance as you left with your lover, your face radiant with love and peace; peace that he didn't have. Peace that he used to take for granted. Peace that didn't return to him after you left.
Satoru still hasn't gotten over you.
It's been a year since you left him. A depressing year of sobs, heartache and repeated relapse. He really thought that his tears had dried by now.
But the familiar sting came back with a vengeance, a scorpion with ill-intentioned venom piercing down to his heart whenever Geto leans down to kiss you.
But it was kind of bittersweet, he thought, trying to focus on his paperwork. He was glad you moved on. Truly.
It definitely hurts him that you didn't need him anymore, that any thoughts of him were probably already wiped clear from your mind, but nevertheless it was such a bittersweet wonder that he still managed to smile back at you when you met eyes across the street.
Like honey with a tinge of spice.
He still blames himself for the mistake he'd done. He still beats himself up whenever he thinks of your heartbroken expression. He still cries himself to sleep sometimes whenever he remembers how you'd comb through his locks and give him a shower after a particularly long and tiring day, his shirt filthy and staining the white sheets—which didn't smell like you anymore. He missed you so much.
Satoru still hasn't gotten over you.
satoru's regretting his life decisions now... but why do I kinda feel bad for him though
anyway here's the part two you guys requested! I hope you liked it </3
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