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(icon desc: tarot card for the darkspawn from dragon age: veilguard. a corpse-like figure emerges from the ground.) chronic overexplainer. romance isn't real.

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fiadh/hawke/v but call me whatever i don't actually care lol / 21 / it/its + any neos / white

  • this is the main blog that i use but it is a sideblog
  • i try to describe any images i post but i am very tired these days. if i do add an ID to your post, please put it on the og post, i do not care about credit.
  • i will no longer reblog/respond to screenshots of my own replies/tags if it doesn't already have an ID on it. the copy and paste function exists.
  • contrary to the rest of this post and my entire blog, this is not actually a dragon age blog i just never shut up about it. other interests include rpgs, bnha, and mediocre tv dramas
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Main DA Worldstate OCs

Peachtober day 3: Slug

[image description: a black and white pen drawing of a slug with a city on its back. several birds fly over the city skyline. /end i.d.]

Major depression (major depressive disorder) is a serious mental health condition characterized by deep sadness and loss of interest in daily activities. It affects thinking and behavior and causes physical and psychological symptoms such as insomnia or excessive sleep, changes in appetite, difficulty concentrating, feelings of guilt, hopelessness, and may even lead to suicidal thoughts. It requires specialized medical and psychological treatment.

Every time I talk about myself, no one donates to me. Why am I dying slowly? I suffer from depression, and the eye doctor told me I need surgery, but I don't have the money. I'll lose my sight. I care for my elderly parents, and we lack even the most basic necessities. Our only source of income after the war is donations because we lost everything. I'm dying slowly, and there's no one to care for my elderly parents. Your donation is life for me. If you can't donate, please share this so it reaches everyone. I'm dying inside; I've lost myself.

sorry for shooting your dog with a crossbow you have to understand Im american our education system is in the gutter most of us were never taught that killing peoples beloved pets with medieval projectile weaponry is wrong and we're all too burnt out to research it on our own time

the rapture has already happened and only a singular starfish (most innocent) was sent to heaven in 632 AD

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Wyll, Davrin, & Regret

When it comes to discussions of Wyll in relation to his pact and regret, there are sometimes these takes that emerge where people bring up how he should not feel bad for regretting his pact. I've interacted with such posts in the past, reblogged them, found them interesting. I will not deny that they make good points! However, I was reflecting on some of my own approaches to the concept of regret recently, and I made a connection of why these posts also never felt entirely right to me personally. In part, I think it is because people assume that, if a decision and/or action brings you harm or distress in some way, shape, or form, then it is only expected of you to regret the decision and/or action that led to that outcome of suffering. When, in reality, I truly believe that Wyll does not regret his pact, whereas Davrin's approach to leaving his clan explores a similar mindset where the interpretation is more open to that of regret.

one of my favourite things about the complete plot contrivance of the inquisitor's amnesia is that corypheus had no way to know that was happening and he surely had to act under the assumption that the herald had already told everyone the bad guy was a big blighted freak surrounded by grey wardens, and then was presumably baffled when the inquisition was like “our main goal is to figure out who did this”. the corypheus pov is always funnier the more you think about it

Not only is having worldbuilding threads that are mentioned once and never picked up again not a flaw in fantasy media, I'd go so far as to say that a lack of such threads is a flaw. If everything ties up in one neat little package, you're missing the point of fantasy worldbuilding. Like, don't do it on every page, or your setting is going to be an overstuffed mess, but every so often you are not only allowed but obligated to casually drop some utterly batshit worldbuilding detail and then just never follow up on it. Maybe some rocks are sentient. You don't owe your reader an explanation. Just fucking go for it.

“You have to cheat. Ask for as many extensions on papers as you possibly can. Pretend your computer is broken. Use your charm if you have any. If you’re going to cry, don’t wait until you’re out of the room–do it where the people in power can see you. Eat the same food every day if you can’t think of anything else to make. Put other things ahead of taking a shower, even if your mom said you have to take a shower every two days. Sometimes people won’t notice you’re cheating but even if they do and are annoyed you might still get by. My mom goes to workshops for people with ASD and then gives me the really long printouts that go along with them. The printouts tell me to sit down and make a list of everything I have to do. When I am anxious, as I have been this year, it’s hard to think about these things so I hold on to the printouts out of guilt but don’t actually read them. Then my mom finds them and gets upset that I haven’t read them and says that I’m not ready to live on my own. But I am ready to live on my own. Badly. Just like I can hold down a full-time job. Badly. Just like I am getting my homework done. Badly. And I forget to balance my checkbook, which none of my non-disabled friends do because you can get it online, and my mom says, “Well it’s different for you because they would be able to do it if they needed to, but you wouldn’t, so you have to do it.” Theoretically I understand this is true, but my checkbook remains unbalanced. Which is bad. And I feel bad. I do! At this rate I’ll never be able to go to college. But I do go to college. At this rate I’ll never be able to have any friends. But I do have friends. I just don’t do everything right with them all the time. For people whose lives are controlled by executive dysfunction, I firmly believe the difference between getting stuff done and not getting stuff done is not caring about doing things right. You cannot always make a list all the time and be early for everything. You just can’t. Hopefully you’re good-looking or funny or you remind someone of their niece. Exploit all opportunities. Do not do what people who are not disabled tell you to do (unless you want to, of course). All too often I find myself waiting for the day when I can do shit properly, which more or less amounts to waiting until I’m not disabled anymore. Then I can feel good enough to deserve everything I want. Well my cure is slow in arriving, so I’m just going to do everything I want now, if that’s okay with you.”

from I’m Somewhere Else, “Max is a Miracle”

The best advice I’ve heard on how to get through college with a developmental disability when there are zero accommodations for executive dysfunction. You can’t let anyone else try to live your life for you, and you cannot worry about “doing things right”. Also: none of the things described here as “cheating” are ACTUALLY cheating.

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We need to stop making fiction/art about alienation & loneliness where the main character has like 2-3 close personal friends and also more often than not a romantic partner. I can't take it anymore.

the spirit is willing but the flesh is so fucking out of it rn. actually the flesh would like to pack it up and leave. it's done with the horrors.

Round #3 — Match 26 of 26

Justice

"justice is one of my favourite companions of all the games, he's wonderful! he fights the baroness because it is RIGHT, and he stays on as a warden to avenge kristoff's death because of course he would! he cares so much about kristoff's wife it is genuinely touching. (i also do think he just wants a lil love <3)"
"Justice, especially Awakening Justice where we truly get to know him, is so complex it makes my heart hurt. He was manifested into existence as a result of overwhelming pain and corruption, and was singlehandedly protecting dozens of souls against the Baroness. He is in love with the waking world almost from the moment he steps out, marvelling at the beauty of it all (especially the little things). He show's an immediate curiousity for his companions and tries to understand each of them even if it takes two or three passes to get to the heart of who they are, and treats them all equally. And despite his rigid sense of "Justice" he actually proves to be remarkably flexible in what that means, open to many interpretations. Plus the way he speaks and thinks is so satisfying to me, and a prime example of the complexities and nuances of Spirits that, aside from Cole, we really didn't get to explore anywhere else in the series. Then there's his relationship with Anders. I could write entire essays on those two, and how they were represented in DA2, but I'll let Nathaniel sum it up; "For life. For love. Perhaps together, you can do what they cannot do alone." (Side note: Nate's exasperated "I was hoping Justice would be the dominant personality." When he and Anders are reunited in DA2 lives in my head rent free, and shows how much Nate loved Justice. They were friiiiiiends! All the awakening crew were, and I love how they never really treated Justice as lesser. He was one of them.)"

vs. Sandal

"He is the best boy and king of enchantment 😇"

sunday 3pm activities:

  • opening the fridge
  • youtubes
  • looking out of the windows with arms folded behind my back
  • opening the fridge
  • melancholy
  • sit on the couch and sigh
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So Cassandra has this line after Here Lies the Abyss when she's trying to document what happened in the Fade and getting frustrated with not knowing whether the Justinia she saw there was a spirit or a memory or the real deal or what. Where if you tell her 'I don't know either' then she goes "Sadly, unanswered questions make for poor reading," which is sort of crazy interesting for reasons I'm having difficulty articulating. I know, as both a reader and a writer, I go to stories, and even nonfiction, to explore questions, not to be given definite answers (which I ultimately won't believe anyhow). I want to walk away still thinking about what the truth is and how we can make sense of things that may be on some level subjective or unknowable. But Cassandra is also someone who struggles a lot with faith and doubt and subjectivity and being unable to determine the best course of action. But she goes to stories for answers, huh? She wants read The Chant of Light or The Tale of the Champion and be told what to think, huh?

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I think my most toxic Tumblr trait is that sometimes I'll scroll past something five times before I reblog it. Not bc I don't want to, but sometimes I'm too lazy to hit the buttons

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