older dom with the biggest virgin kink ever. sweet at first, talking me through it, explaining everything while they finger me and point out how my hole clenches every time they praise me just a tiny bit. all until they finally sink their cock inside and lose the control and sweetness almost immediately, repeating "im so sorry for being so rough, you just feel too good baby" while ramming inside with their hands bruising my hips from how hard they're gripping them.
maybe even a little blood appears from the stretch and the dom starts crying pathetically at that and from how horny it makes them that they're my first and they get to see how unprepared and innocent i was before they made me their victim, blabbering "please don't let anyone other than me ever fuck you" "no one has felt as good as you, you're perfect" while they finish inside a countless time, definietly not the last since the view of their cum mixed with blood leaking out gives them an instant hard-on yet again, maybe murmuring "sorry"s and how they "feel so bad for ruining me".
I love men. I love masculinity. I love being a man. I love stupid boy flannel pjs and deep voices. I love bulges and hairy thighs and the scratch of stubble. I love when men laugh and cry and beg sweetly. i love their passion and desire and vulnerability. I love men's bellies. their arms. hands. I love the way my voice is husky in the morning. the way I get hard. the way I buck my hips. the way he fills out a T shirt. the way he fills out mine. i love how men smell and create heat. when their eyes roll back into their heads. when they squirm with my fingers on the waistband of their pants. how they cum. I love how they love. skin to skin. chest to chest.
easy to love myself when i love these things about other men.
I'm just obsessed with the idea of a soothing sadist, something that will force me to do whatever they want but understand that I'm just a pathetic pet that needs comfort.
I want to whine and whimper, telling them that I can't take, that it's too much, it won't fit. Just to have them cooing at me, hugging my distressed body and being like "shhh I know puppy, I know, deep breaths, you can take, it's okay".
Want to cling to then and beg to stop just to receive an "oh no no no, it's happening baby it's happening and you can take it, that's it, relax for me. I know I know, but it's going to happen puppy"
Want them to also be a bit sarcastic, when I start whining saying that it's going to hurt, want them to chuckle at me "yes it's going to hurt, but I'm here for you, don't worry. Yes puppy it is going to hurt, deep breaths don't panic, I'm just being honest. Good boy, let's do it"
I want that confusion sensation, they're hurting me, making me miserable, but they're also my only source of comfort, I need them! Want to hug and cling to someone that wants to hurt me, it's going to hurt me and it's being sweet about it.
lets hear it for cross necklaces bouncing during sex
let's hear it for naked except for the cross necklace. let's hear it for trying to take it off and being told to leave it on.
Leather and Steel 🗡️🖤
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Want someone to force a dildo that is way too big inside my ass but in a soothing yet sadistic way.
They softly cooing at me, telling me that it's alright and that I can take it. Hugging me and giving me breaks when I start crying that it's too big and it won't fit. But at the same time they don't stop, they're there for me and comforting me but I'm not in control, they want it in and it's going in no matter how long it takes.
Want to be helpless, needy and a mess for them.
"yes baby, it's going to hurt but you can take it"
"deep breaths puppy, let's wait a moment before I keep pushing"
"no no no puppy, you can take, you will take"
"relax your body darling, relax and let me push it in"
"shh shh, good boy, you want a break or I can keep pushing? No no, we won't be taking it out, it's going inside boy, you want a break or not?"
I love guys who are loud, who can’t help themselves but open their mouths and let out sound after sound. They’re so desperate. Then when they get a little too loud I gently shush them, and instantly their loud moaning and groaning is reduced to soft whimpers, closing their eyes and concentrating on being so good for me. You don’t want the neighbors to hear us, do you? Do you really want them to know how desperate and pathetic you are when the doors are closed and it’s just us two?