and while we're on the topic.. nova artino to ethel cain lyrics
im never opening our dms or your blog ever again thanks β€οΈ
oh and ykw @odetoatropa? purely to fuck w u:
magpie's internal monologue after finding out about her identity at a point where nova doesn't yet know that evie didn't actually die.
the essay that was promised to many ( @lettersfromkleio and @mikodrawnnarratives ) about my girl <3 nova artino and the lyricism in searows most recent album
(the lyrics are in bold)
when i said guard dog by searows was the ultimate older sister album i MEANT it and originally i was just gonna do a collection of songs but im gonna keep this one entirely searows and specifically the guard dog album just bcs its so nova artino
(nooo im definetely not projecting what r u guys even talking about)
β roadkill -> SPECIFICALLY the two verses being each of the sisters
say "dont worry now,its already dead"/pick me up like im fragile/carry me to the nearest tree/or bury me under gravel/just deep enough so nobody finds me (EVIE dead girl walking ARTINO)
a racehorse with nothing to win/running just cause im supposed to/cause they bet too much money on it/and ive got nothing to fight with/but ill do it cause you asked me to/a guard dog with a death wish/in the center of the ring, i lose (NOVA child soldier ARTINO)
β’ also just magpie with the final line of this song "what would it take for me to be cared for, too?"
β used to be friends -> ok the next song doesnt really fit BUT it can be used to push my nova and winston used to be friends and that devastating agenda bcs of these two lines only
i already swore to be the person id defend/you were just waiting on the call/i never cared for it at all/i never wanted you to take the fall
i dont need to explain myself.
β walk me home -> ok so this song is very post finale adrian and nova bcs of the repetation of just despite everything, despite the betrayals, the fights, despite what you know now will you still walk me home?
after the flood comes/you and i know/i had the words you thought a hundred times/oh, darling/will you still walk me home?
β haunted -> now this whole song is just nova and evie and it hurts
and the prettiest parts are the ones i see (nova only thinking the best of evie and glorifying her in her head)
when the lightning starts/will you know where to find me? (that affecting magpie bcs she isnt perfect little evie and she isnt the sister novas built up in her head all these years instead she's brash and and hard to love and thats what she fears the most with nova)
i am the master of mistakes/i missed the point you tried to make/and id forgotten what it felt like to be living like you're dead/I am a picture in a movie, in a moment, in your head
(I MEAN??? novas limited memories of evie when she was younger constantly playing in her head and her guilt consuming her when she finds out the truth along with magpie having to deal with basically having a grave of herself bcs shes apparently been dead for years
β keep the rain -> novanovanova and all her inner turmoil
am i comfortable in silence?/or is it eating me alive?/nothing's ever really quiet/when you need distraction to survive/are you really having fun/or do you like becoming what you hate?
nova convincing herself that shes doing what she needs to do for some greater good and has vengeance to even the scales for what happened to her family but in the end just realising that that both sides are extremes that are flawed and that she truly doesnt know who she is without her rage and the one purpose that forced her hand her entire life and made her decisions bcs she couldnt comprehend living another way
im good at letting it get to me/im good at letting you go/no, you were never the enemy (NODRIANNN<333)
β villian -> and while we're on the topic of nova and adrian...
and i know that you told me that everythings fine/but i wrote this story before it was mine/and i know there's a villian/but im worried its me this time
novas internal struggle while being an anarchist undercover as a renegade will never not be interesting to me bcs its shows that you truly cannot know the full story without playing both sides and more often then not you end up coming out with your own set of percepectives that follow neither side but god is the tension pre finale SO GOOD.
turn me into a believer/i hardly recognize myself either/ill change for the better/and ill even make it last for you
FIRMLY against the "nova switched sides bcs she fell for adrian" (i beg yall to interact with more media) BUT adrian was a big driving force when it came to novas just bcs the system is corrupt doesnt mean all the people in it are and just because a diff system is advocating for change doesnt mean that the people in it cannot be corrupt
β sleeping with the lights on -> i dont even know how to explain this one bcs it technically doesnt fit anything but to me in my heart and soul its magpie and nova when they firsy founf out and are walking on eggshells bcs they dont know how tf to move forward
ive been sleeping with the lights on/and ive been standing at the door (that one headcanon of nova standing outside magpies door constantly on guard)
you were so easy to hide from but i dont do that anymore/and ive fixed up all the broken things/ and ivs been carefully content/pretty soon im gonna say something that ill eventually regret (the two of them having so mucn blame and guilt and so many issues that they dont know how to bridge the gap bcs every past conversation just ended in rage and misunderstanding)
i would've followed you anywhere/cause if i loved you at start then i would love you at the end (this is nova reassuring magpie and anyone who disagreed can fight me)
β coming clean -> this song !! omfg !! this song alr makes me ill without the nova/magpie subtext but lets get into it
find me in the raincoat you couldve sworn you were missing/we dont talk the whole way home/i leave the coat in the kitchen/let me have a few more months/ill talk to you when im ready
this to me is very much the scene in resting place by @knight-in-baggy-sweatpants which i ADORE that fic and when i listen to these lyrics that scene where magpie first comes home is all i can think of
fallout from the glass you broke/theres still a peice in my palm/and just like that, we're starting over/just when we were getting into it/ fake your death and call it closure/just like we would do when we were kids
this is just the entirety of their story in some lyrics bcs them having to completely start over there relationship and what they thought they were to each other from annoying snarky co worker who i hate to holy shit thats my sister and the only family i have left basically re defining how their dynamic now works with both of them still being blunt and rude but also having to learn to be soft and how for nova evies death was a major traumatic event for her but also in her head closure when it came to having siblings just to find out NOPE shes alive and you actually have a second chance at being an older sister
β north star -> this is where personal headcanon comes into play bcs not only is this song nova towards magpie but also i firmly believe that magpie when she was younger heard about how as long as you follow the north star it will lead you home and she eithet attempted that or would stare at it in the night sky hoping to one day find her way home and yoy can pry this from cold dead hands
i dont know what else came before you/you must know that i just adore you/and i want you to have it all/all you ever needed/the minute that you fall/and i wanna be a saviour/i dont wanna need anything when youre all ive got to lose
most of novas memories of her childhood having evie in them and the fact that if these two would have grown up togethst nova would have been THE older sister with how much she dotes over even in the way she talks about her + her finding out about magpies upbrining in the orphanage and immediately wanting to give her everything she evet missed out on + both of them being each others "i thought i was the only one left till you"
but when its said and done/ill be the north star that takes you home
(if you strain ur ears you can hear me sobbing in the background)
β’ and i think this is the perfect place to end it bcs while i know some people ( @lettersfromkleio ) will point out that i left two songs thats bcs as much as i love them i couldnt fit them in here and i think there will never be a better conclusion than north star and considering how much of a hyperfixation im entering the new year with this might be my first but it definitely wont be my last essay <3
L. V., excerpts from the afterword
peak dynamic in my opinion
some of you have never watched your family get murdered in front of you, taken down their killer when you were six years old, lost your uncle and the last family you had left, become an anarchist to avenge your family, infiltrated the renegades to help the anarchists, mutilated your fingerprints to pass the scans, killed your friend and teammate after she betrayed and tried to kill you, discovered your uncle was alive all this time, formulated a plan to save him, only to lose him again, betrayed the renegades you started to get close to, been blamed for attempting to kill a ten-year-old when you were trying to save him, and it definitely shows!
I really love my over hated son
january is one of those months where you experience every feeling on the human spectrum and you just have to go about your day like that isn't happening
what are they going to do about the fact that you can never go back