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Chaotic Bitch

@mosspapi

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Adult. Disabled, neurodivergent, LGBTQ+, leftist. I’m going for a Snowflake Bingo /j
This page is a place for me to vent, shitpost, and just generally vibe; feel free to join!
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ANOTHER fucking UI change??? Unprompted without warning??? Kill me

God this shit is so fucking confusing I hate it so much why does everything need to b made so much more complicated than necessary. Surely there was a better way to make this change right. Like. This just seems suboptimal.

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Making my thoughts on this a little more coherent lmao

One. Why is the standard reblog option all the way at the very fucking bottom. It should be the first thing. The quick-reblog should be under that and the queue button should be at the bottom.

Two. Similar note, having the "view reblogs" thing in the same tab as the "reblog post" thing is dumb. They're not related. When I reblog a post it's not because I want to see what other ppl are saying on it, and when I want to see what ppl are saying I don't want to always post it to my blog. They should b separate.

Three. The queue button should take you to the standard reblog menu but put it in the queue. Otherwise it's basically pointless- if I want to tag something or add a comment before putting it in my queue, I have to hit standard reblog, add the tag/comment, then manually change it to add to queue like u had to previously. And let me remind u standard reblog is the last option shown to me.

Four. Is there no way to see who's liked a post anymore??? When I click the likes button it likes the post, tapping and holding just does a fancy animation, double tapping the button just likes and un-likes it. Are all likes private now or am I dumb?

Like. Idk. It's a cleaner layout for sure but it adds so many unnecessary extra steps to doing things and the things I'd actually want it to do the most aren't actually any different. It's not Horrendous but it's juuuuust infuriating enough to b a pain in the ass and deeply frustrating to use lmao

#hi sorry I am in a shit mood and this new UI thing is pissing me off lmao#armchair speaks
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Alarm wakes me up -> "ok, time to take my pills" -> immediately fall back asleep -> have a dream that is just me taking my pills -> wake up again

Having a normal one, clearly /j

#armchair speaks
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"What the fuck why is my bed vibrating rn?? Are they doing more construction I just can't hear???" -> Touches it with my other hand to make sure -> turns out it is actually my hand that is vibrating :))))

Why only my right hand is tingling and numb and pins-and-needles-y rn is beyond me, but I am Not A Fan

#it's not even on the side where my neck is stupid so idk what it is#like it's the shoulder I dislocate the most but I haven't done anything different today so it still doesn't make sense#armchair speaks
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Really seriously considering getting a stick and poke kit again lmao

#I've been thinking abt it for years lmao but never had the balls to do it#but I have a couple tattoos I want and ik I could draw em myself and the idea of Fully Doing It Myself is rlly appealing#esp bcuz I haven't been physically able to get an appointment to see an actual artist bcuz of my stupid fuckin disabilities#so it's like. three birds one stone#but also I'd wanna do it on my wrist/forearm and the skin there seems rlly thin which scares me lmao#(sh mention incoming) like I've cut everywhere on my legs so I know how thick the skin is or isn't in every place and where major vessels r-#-but with my arms I haven't cut them much at all so I don't have a good gauge of where a safe spot to do the tattoo would b yk?#and like ik ppl get tattoos on every part of them and forearms/wrists r Super common but if im doing it myself id wanna pick somewhere with-#-as small a chance of me fuckin smth up severely as possible lmao#armchair speaks
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Taking a disability studies course for one of my options this semester. Was pretty nervous abt how they'd handle it all (esp considering how painfully ableist the "accommodations" department is as well as a lot of my other profs) but so far it seems good! I do think it's gonna b fairly easy for me considering I so far already know all of what is being talked abt but that's not a bad thing lmao. Will see how the rest of the students handle it tho. Hoping the discussion boards aren't incredibly frustrating (even moreso than they are just as a concept for me lmao. I fuckin haaaate mandatory discussion boards)

#I wasn't Planning on taking it but I need options eventually and all the studios r full still-#-so I was just looking for anything that sounded tolerable lmao#excited to see how it goes tho!#First course I've seen the prof include image descriptions for everything too#which like you'd assume they would given it's disability studies but. the bar is so fucking low for me rn#armchair speaks#actually disabled#physically disabled
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I have so many ideas for art pieces I wanna make but they're all kinda blurring together in my brain and it's starting to get rlly frustrating bcuz I'll start working on one but Think I'm working on a different thing and then get upset bcuz it doesn't look how I want it to or I don't have the right materials or what-have-you, so I'll stop and take a break but as soon as I stop I start thinking abt the Other project and then I wanna start working on That, but when I go to work on it I end up working on the other thing and-

#does this even make any sense. am I explaining this coherently at all. I feel completely scrambled rn#armchair speaks
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Been on a real eowyg kick lately and I cannot for the life of me tell u why. Like. I do not think it's a Good Album but I wouldn't call it Bad either, yk? Like it's bad but in an endearing comforting way and smth abt it is scratching my brain real fuckin good lately and I just wanna go up to everyone like hey u should listen to this album with me please. Except not rlly bcuz I Know most ppl would b like "dawg this shit sucks what r u on abt" and idk how to explain to them that yes it sucks and that's why I like it so much.

#to b clear I don't mean this as a negative thing /gen#like I think every bands first album is gonna be 'bad' esp when said first album is over 20 years old yk#its just very like. idek. idk how to explain it its just so fucking good!!! but also it sucks!!!#I'm in a very weird mood tonight if u couldn't tell#armchair speaks
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I have a question for the wobbledogs fandom on tumblr bcuz I am Struggling /lh. I've got over 300 hours in this game and I have NEVER (to my knowledge anyways) been able to get a dog with the "mallow" nose type. Like the cylinder one? I've got plenty of "half-mallow", plenty of every other nose type, but literally None of that specific one. As far as I can tell I've tried every combination of other nose types in the breeding simulation and nothing has come out of it. Am I just oblivious and not noticing them when they're showing up (which admittedly is definitely possible, I have a rlly fuckin hard time telling the noses apart lmao), or is it actually ungodly hard to get

obligatory wobbledog tax (some of my more recent children)

[Image Descriptions: three screenshots of the video game Wobbledogs, each focusing on a different creature. The first dog is pink and red, with stubby ears, two tails, small horns, and three pupils for each eye. It is playing with a blue dog stuffed animal. The second dog has three legs, mouse-like ears, a large curly tail, and a teal body with yellow arcade flooring patterns. The third dog is metallic purple-green, with magenta antlers, all-white eyes, and a purple body with green hearts on it. End ID]

#started a new save recently and my goal is to get at least one dog with every possible trait (IE nose/eyes/ears/etc) without importing-#-dogs from online or my other saves lmao. I've got all the eyes and mouths already but am stuck on these noses :')#armchair speaks#wobbledogs
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GAMERS YA BOI WILL B ACQUIRING A SANTA FURBY we win these

#this has been a life long dream of mine u have no dea how excited i am I can't wait for it to get here#I'm not a huge Christmas guy (it's. a as time for me lol) but Santa furby is like. my holy grail#I've posted abt it before I think but it's like the catalyst for my furby obsession and I can still tell u the exact way it happened lmao#but anyways I shall soon have my very own!!!#tldr I got some money as a gift and decided to morosely scroll thru eBay looking at all the listings for em and-#-I saw one that was relatively reasonably priced with zero bids and only a couple hours left#so I sent an offer and it was accepted ad now I'm very happy :3#it Was a bit more than I would've wanted but most of thst was bcuz currency exchange and shipping costs so I'm v pleased#it's even got the box n everything#armchair speaks#armchair furbyposting
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God I really am the type of guy to see a totally normal and easily explainable physical reality and go "is anyone gonna read 17 layers of metaphor and symbolism and meaning into this" and not wait for an answer

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Like I am Aware that it makes perfect sense that everything in my childhood bedroom feels a little bit too small for me. It is physically smaller than the bedroom in my apartment, it has a kid sized bed, like it is literally the same room I've slept in since I was three. This makes sense, this is logical, there is no malice or unspoken meaning being communicated to me by these facts.

However.

I am being crushed and confined into a space that is not meant for me. A space I have long since grown out of. But nobody around me sees that I am being hurt and stunted and frustrated by the Wrongness of the place they have left for me. They think it fits perfectly, just like it did when I was a toddler. It was made specially for me, so why wouldn't it fit? Am I too good for it now? What gives me the right to complain when someone put so much time and effort into making a bedroom just for me? It's claustrophobic. I still sleep curled up in the fetal position no longer because I am scared, but because my legs simply don't fit on the bed otherwise. It's hard not to look for things to be scared of when lying like this always means something bad is happening. But I have to act like the bed is comfortable, like I'm not tripping over everything and knocking shit over because it's all too close together for my body to easily navigate, like I don't feel like a caged animal clawing at the walls of its enclosure, trying to claw its way back into the open wilderness where it belongs. It's just a bedroom. But it is also the physical manifestation of more than 20 years of abuse and neglect and expectations and facades. The miasma makes the room feel so much smaller.

Do you see my dilemma.

#armchair speaks#tw abuse
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God I really am the type of guy to see a totally normal and easily explainable physical reality and go "is anyone gonna read 17 layers of metaphor and symbolism and meaning into this" and not wait for an answer

#armchair speaks
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Ngl the days feel incredibly long lately and I don't rlly know if it's a good thing or not. Like how the fuck is it only 8:30pm it should b at least 11 by now. Part of it I think is a combination of med change and being less debilitatingly depressed than I'm used to (which is unrelated to the med change lmao- apparently one of the pills I've been taking after I wake up for YEARS has the side effect of making u really sleepy and nobody fuckin told me😭 so I started taking it at night instead and surprise surprise I no longer fall asleep for another 3+ hours immediately after taking my pills). I think also part of the problem is that I've gotten incredibly good at rationing my energy for exactly the amt of time I'm awake during the day, so now that I'm awake longer and also actually have reasons to be awake and doing things other than bedrotting, that schedule doesn't rlly work. So now I'm like well shit I've done all the things my body is able to do for today and it's only 7:30pm, so what do I do for the next 6 hours before I'm able to fall asleep.

#and it rlly doesn't help that for majority of the last 18 months I was even more dangerously anemic than usual lmao#idk I had a lot more I wanted to say abt this but my brain has shut off it seems#idk if this makes any sense km feeling kinda incoherent today lmao#also not entirely sure why km posting this here and not redacted but. oh well#armchair speaks
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Everyone be proud of me I dropped my painting studio and took one of my options bcuz the other studio I want is full instead of staying in the painting studio until either something I actually want opens up or I'm not allowed to drop it anymore

#I'm sure this doesn't make a lot of sense to most ppl but oh well#tldr the painting studios I was in last year made me genuinely try to kms multiple times and I ended up dropping out bcuz-#-of that and some physical health issues. I re-enrolled in the one I dropped out of bcuz I thought it was mandatory but-#-it actually isn't so instead of possibly kmsing again im just not gonna take it#I feel bad abt it for multiple multiple reasons but ik it was the right choice so im trying to b proud of myself lmao#all of the courses I rlly wanna take are full which is to b expected but im still very sad abt it#so I'm taking the only available option that sounded tolerable but it IS online which is good#and I've watch-listed all the studios in case someone drops smth#mayb someone in soft sculpture rlly wanted painting so they'll take my spot and k can get into the class I Really Really REALLY want lmao#armchair speaks#I dknt like that I'm not in any studios this semester atm ngl it's really stressing me out but not much I can do abt that ig

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