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exquisite corpse

@pretty-ichor

21 | it/he | vent | mdni

my bed is so cozy. i can forget about the horrors for a sec. goodnight

i need so much reassurance like a ridiculous amount and i work on that by NOT asking for reassurance super often. sooooo why doesnt it really get better? i self regulate the best i can but every "oh no what if they..." still gives me a full body reaction

do you ever think about this quote by mary lambert because i think about it all the time

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magnoliarot

Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

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hauntdom

natalie wee, our bodies & other fine machines

sam sax, hydrophobia

ocean vuong, on earth we’re briefly gorgeous

v.e. schwab, the invisible life of addie larue

i exist i exist i exist, flatsound

john cameron mitchell, hedwig and the angry inch

Car Seat Headrest, I Want You To Know That I’m Awake​/​I Hope That You’re Asleep

some of yall need to go back to like preschool level 'girls can do anything boys can do' feminism bc we are regressing into feminine = frivolous = weak = nurturing and masculine = power = force = competence at the speed of fucking light

contourkit-deactivated20160224

What if everything gets better in 2016

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Reblogged

no greater tension than two mutuals who want to talk so badly but are afraid to so they like each other’s post until the end of time

Anonymous asked:

i know gender and sexuality arent exactly the same but “i could survive being with a man” is comphet. “i could survive living as a man” sounds much the same. you’re not meant to live in survival mode. it sounds like you do *need* to transition

That’s… fair

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with 2+ years of hindsight (and almost 10 months of HRT), I want to thank this anon, because I think genuinely this played a significant role in helping me to start transitioning.

I've been so much happier since then, and especially since starting HRT. Yeah, there are new struggles and anxieties and problems to adapt to, but I'm also learning how to enjoy life and find myself and love myself, and it's definitely worth it.

Over the past year I've laughed and cried and been able to look at myself in the mirror and selfies and enjoy what I look like. I've felt more comfortable with my body, and worn outfits and accessories that I've been daydreaming about for over a decade. I've felt pretty, which was not something that I thought was possible.

If you're on the fence about transitioning, please know that it's enough to chase joy. If you think you'd be happier, that's enough. You don't have to have known since you were a toddler. You don't have to be so depressed that you can't bear another day as your AGAB. You don't have to "earn" or "deserve" to transition. It's enough to want it.

Actually, there is a lot of intimacy in someone who lets you spill every single incoherent thought you have throughout the day to them. And to hear theirs. To be the person they think of to send a random photo to in the middle of the day. To be the person they don’t filter their weirdness with. To be the person you begin to make inside jokes with. There is intimacy in that. There is love in that. There is beauty in that. 

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