do you ever think about this quote by mary lambert because i think about it all the time

Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

natalie wee, our bodies & other fine machines
sam sax, hydrophobia
ocean vuong, on earth we’re briefly gorgeous
v.e. schwab, the invisible life of addie larue
i exist i exist i exist, flatsound
john cameron mitchell, hedwig and the angry inch
Car Seat Headrest, I Want You To Know That I’m Awake/I Hope That You’re Asleep
it's so fucking unbearable how year after year you're still you
some of yall need to go back to like preschool level 'girls can do anything boys can do' feminism bc we are regressing into feminine = frivolous = weak = nurturing and masculine = power = force = competence at the speed of fucking light
What if everything gets better in 2016
i know gender and sexuality arent exactly the same but “i could survive being with a man” is comphet. “i could survive living as a man” sounds much the same. you’re not meant to live in survival mode. it sounds like you do *need* to transition
That’s… fair
with 2+ years of hindsight (and almost 10 months of HRT), I want to thank this anon, because I think genuinely this played a significant role in helping me to start transitioning.
I've been so much happier since then, and especially since starting HRT. Yeah, there are new struggles and anxieties and problems to adapt to, but I'm also learning how to enjoy life and find myself and love myself, and it's definitely worth it.
Over the past year I've laughed and cried and been able to look at myself in the mirror and selfies and enjoy what I look like. I've felt more comfortable with my body, and worn outfits and accessories that I've been daydreaming about for over a decade. I've felt pretty, which was not something that I thought was possible.
If you're on the fence about transitioning, please know that it's enough to chase joy. If you think you'd be happier, that's enough. You don't have to have known since you were a toddler. You don't have to be so depressed that you can't bear another day as your AGAB. You don't have to "earn" or "deserve" to transition. It's enough to want it.
It all feels wrong.
i want to crawl on you like. Bugs
9/11 could never happen today because the twin towers arent there anymore for some reason
9/11 could never happen today because it's January
Aborted Descartes voice: I would've thought...if I was.
Actually, there is a lot of intimacy in someone who lets you spill every single incoherent thought you have throughout the day to them. And to hear theirs. To be the person they think of to send a random photo to in the middle of the day. To be the person they don’t filter their weirdness with. To be the person you begin to make inside jokes with. There is intimacy in that. There is love in that. There is beauty in that. 




