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Jolene being an alligator is actually meant to be allegorical. In a lot of ways she embodies transfeminity. Her body is treated as a thing of violence and fetishized. She has sexual trauma after her ex pressured her into a dominant role during sex.
her being trans is also allegorical for being trans.
I think the one thing that's hard about writing is the vulnerability. More than illustration I think my writing says a lot about me. What kind of things I have experience with and what I don't and what kind of blind spots I might have. I think it ends up with me feeling kind of embarrassed by my writing and how I present it. I always feel so naked when I have to look through my writing. Editing feels like deciding what to wear when I go out; do I wear the top that I think I look cute in or will people be disgusted by the fact they can see my cleavage (sounds silly but I'm sure a lot of you can understand how intimidating expressing yourself as a trans person can be.) I think it's genuinely been kind of a road stop for me. It's hard to feel motivated and to get to work with this feeling of shame. I think it really helps to see how meaningful the first MLLWL is to people. I can fuck up and maybe bore some people and make other people uncomfortable (in a bad way) but it's worth it in pursuit of a work that's meaningful.
Something about me with my bisexuality is that I feel like a lot of people I've known placed a lot of importance on them being queer despite being with the opposite sex but I really don't like the idea of me having sex with a man being gay since I'd rather be affirmed in my womanhood over my queerness as a transfem (and honestly if a man insisted that sex with me was gay I'd think it was a red flag)
That being said every time I think about this that one Taylor swift parody song about having straight sex at a gay pride parade starts playing in my head.
Also since I know the lesbians are going to see this post I know that being a lesbian is an easy solution to this. I just think guys have cute hips I can't help it