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| „This is a Life” aka what I’ve been listening to while working on this piece! I thought it was very fitting 🥹 (everything everywhere all at once destroyed me btw)
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SHHHHHH they're sleeping!!! 😴
Forger fam feat. baby Jamie! Ever since I've become an aunt and receive daily photos of my niece, I've been craving to draw this happy fam - since now I feel like I have more knowledge about how to draw babies and my niece gives me a lot inspo (she's 8 months old) 🥹 Something new (art) but nothing new really (spyxfam) for this new year! Revisited an old sketch from 2023, at least I got a little bit better at anatomy?? 😭 This is version 6.0 of the same drawing and MAN i am happy, I'd be crying if I didn't after spending so many hours on it in agony OTL I even left a secret message in the illu, kudos to everyone who finds it >:3c
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I think the first time Yor and Loid kiss/hug/cuddle post-reveal Loid will break down crying. Yor can already bring that emotionally repressed man to his knees with a few words. Imagine how Loid would react to the first genuine physical affection he's had since he was a little kid. He doesn't even see himself as a person, but a government tool who can't afford those kinds of emotions. Yor will remind him that he is a person who deserves love, and I think it will break him. Kind of like how Anya was subconsciously holding everything in during the bus arc until Yor asked her if she was okay.
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I think about them all the time 😩❤️
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She is his home😊✨💕
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First drawing of the year!😊✏️💕
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individually, these two pieces of poetry remind me a lot of twilight, yor, and their character journeys in sxf. but when i place them side by side, they feel like a conversation of sorts, two parts of a story from twilight to yor, from yor to twilight.
the first by nixscriptum is about pre-forger twilight and yor—both of them drifters, shadows, ghosts in their own ways. the ghost metaphor works especially well with twilight as someone who doesn't exist, who has no name and no life excepting what the mission asks of him. but it also works with yor and the consequences of her own secret identity, even reflected in her demeanor before marrying loid—someone detached, absent, untethered. and when i read it alongside snowdrops, it feels retrospective (well, use of present tense notwithstanding). like, i see it as something they can now say about their old selves, having realized the difference between how they lived then and what it is to be alive.
where the first speaks of the before, the second talks about the transformation, on what those realizations have done to them.
when i read this with twilight in mind, two phrases jump out to me: "risk joy" and "new world."
"risk joy" reminds me of this line by twilight in chapter 1—"hopes of marriage, joys of ordinary life." sure, he might have thought this is in a sarcastic way, as if looking down on karen and other normal people for these being things they aspire to have. but personally, i believe that by describing them as such, we learn that these are the feelings he ascribes to marriage and ordinary life, that he views them as something to hope for, something to find joy in, which is exactly what the forgers become for him! where they are at first viewed as risks to himself as a spy, they become people he could risk losing.
there's also the interpretation that, in his efforts to live authentically as twilight the man and not twilight the spy, he risks losing this family he cherishes, risks the joy he's found in being together. he fears they'll abandon him or won't accept him now that he's alive, real, and himself. in which case the whole poem feels like a plea for understanding, a hope that if they do, they can stay together. because you know it, too, don't you? what it means to be alive again? to find life in the family we built together?
"new world" would refer to a life, That Life, the ideal that he once believed he could not attain, but is now possibly within his grasp. those hopes for marriage, those joys in an ordinary life. on one hand, i like the idea that twilight sees the Spy Life and That Life as wholly separate things (the mission that is the family vs. the family that is the mission), that That Life is something entirely new and foreign to him. and as time goes on, those two lives superimpose themselves, and it's almost like he's walking through two parallel universes. but on the other hand, there is something about the idea of a world that you think is "new" but is just long forgotten to the point that you don't recognize what's been there all along.
with yor, the phrases catching my attention are "waken again" and "raw wind."
"waken again" is such a nice phrase for yor. as mentioned, she used to seem dazed before meeting the forgers. like a ghost, yes, but also like someone trapped in a dream. and "again" feels key here, implying a time when she wasn't asleep or dead or lifeless, when she was happy and bright and alive, a state she's returned to now that she has found love and acceptance with the forgers. (it also ties into how in japanese, ibarahime is how they refer to sleeping beauty, who at the spell of a fairy also fell asleep and woke again with true love's kiss.)
"raw wind" makes me think of yor's struggles with the normal world and fitting in, things she feels more aware of now that she's awake. it connotes a sense of discomfort, and how maybe that's what the normal world (the new world?) feels like to her as she's stepping into it, not unlike how things feel sharper and stronger and overwhelming when we've just opened our eyes.
that these two pieces feel like a conversation—things that twilight could say to yor, that she could say to him—is also just really special to me. it goes to show how much a shared understanding, both implicit and explicit, really is the foundation on which their family is built upon. to quote yor from chapter 2, "this is the only man i may ever meet who could possibly accept me as i am." and i feel like that's true for all of them: for twilight about yor, for anya about her parents, etc. they're all individuals whose experiences are so unique that it must be difficult to find someone who could understand. and somehow, they have. quite a miracle, isn't it? ^^
(special mention to @beannoss for sending me the second poem, giving me the idea for this post, and reading thru the rambles and finding the sense in them 😂)
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Ch86 ironing the shirt