THOUGHT GAINED: INFERNAL ENGINES
PROBLEM
The world is ending. You know it, your neighbor knows it, the dealer knows it, the jailer knows it, the king and all his men know it. All one has to do is look around to see it— the future is curdling into something pale and incorporeal. The infernal machine that is this stupid world is going to blow, sooner rather than later. So what are you doing? Why are you still here? Why is anyone still here?
SOLUTION
You are doing the only thing worth doing. You are living. *Why,* you ask? Try and remember now. Remember your mother’s hand on your shoulder. Remember the taste of a fresh catch. Remember the times when you were kind to the dogs in the valley and they did not bare their teeth. Remember the weight of a child on your shoulders. Remember the stars throwing their light against the wall of sodium and smog. Remember singing until your throat was raw. Remember crying just as loudly and publicly, and the gentleness with which someone opened your curled fist and pressed a handkerchief into your palm. Crying, laughing, running, eating, screaming, haunting, loving, fighting, fighting, fighting. The fight fuels you, and you fuel the fight. You run yourself ragged just for a chance to keep running. You never stop. You cannot stop. The world depends on it. *You* are the infernal engine. You are the world. And, simply put: you want to live.

1. Kent - We Need To Eat
2. Carbon Carousel - Skinny
3. ElysianSoul - Waitig to be Weightless
4. Nicole Dollanganger - Please Eat
5. Nicole 12 -Ballerina
6. Fiona Apple - Paper Bag
7. Dollyrots - Skinny
8. Mellow Melange - Anorexia Nervosa
9. Stage - Live Happy, Live With Anorexia
10. Gianmarco Leone - Anorexia
11. Corinna Fugate - Blood Red Bracelet
12. Skylar Grey - Invisible
13. Picture Me Broken - Skin and Bones
14. r00k - Eat
15. Svavar Knútur - Emotional Anorexic
16. r00k - Anorexic
17. Huntingtons - Annie’s Anorexic
18. Pulp - Anorexic Beauty
19. Silverchair - Ana’s Song (Open Fire)
20. Saturday Supercade - Penny is an Anorexic
21. Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie
22. Polly Scattergood - I Hate the Way
23. Los Campesinos! - The Sea Is A Good Place To Think Of The Future
24. Dead Celebrity Status - Someone I Once Knew
25. Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Me and Mia
26. Geri Karlstrom - Starving for Attention
27. Lisa Loeb - She’s Falling Apart
28. Maria Mena - Eyesore
29. Mickey Avalon - So Rich, So Pretty
30. Filter - Skinny
31. Pompeii - Numbers
32. Outcast Youth - Genevieve
33. King Adorable - Big Isn’t Beautiful
34. Jill Sobule - Lucy at the Gym
35. Juliana Hatfield - Feed Me
36. From First to Last - World War Me
37. Superchick - Courage
38. Mother Mother - Body
39. Garbage - Bleed Like Me
40. Wale - 90210
🕊Feel free to add more, and remember I am not running this blog to support people into Ed’s, I’m running it because I need it for me and I know how it feels to feel like you’re alone if that makes sense.🐇




