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Tips for Writing Injuries

✧ Broken ribs suck. You don’t just “walk it off.” Breathing hurts. Laughing hurts. Existing hurts. Characters with rib injuries won’t be doing heroic sprints.

✧ Concussions aren’t instant naps. Dazed vision, nausea, dizziness, maybe even personality changes, but they’re not going to collapse neatly like in the movies.

✧ Blood loss is sneaky. It’s not just about dramatic pools of blood. It’s dizziness, confusion, and the body getting cold as circulation tanks.

✧ Adrenaline lies. Someone can take a serious injury and not feel it until the fight’s over. That “I didn’t realize I was bleeding until later” trope? Very real.

✧ Twisted ankles are brutal. One bad step and suddenly running is off the table. Even walking hurts like hell. Perfect way to ground a chase scene.

✧ Burns linger. Even small burns hurt more than most people expect. Blisters, infection risk, constant pain, it’s not just a cool scar later.

✧ Dislocated shoulders = useless arm. Characters can’t keep swinging a sword or firing a gun. They’re basically fighting one-armed until it’s fixed.

✧ Shock is a thing. Pale skin, trembling, rapid heartbeat, and eventually disorientation. A character might not even realize how bad their wound is.

✧ Stitches aren’t magic. Getting sewn up is painful and recovery takes time. They’re not instantly battle-ready after a needle and thread.

✧ Scars tell stories. Some fade, some don’t. Some stay sensitive forever. Don’t forget the aftermath when the wound becomes part of the character.

the most annoying thing about racism towards asian stars (especially the half asian, half white stars) is that people love, love, love to act like they dont recieve ANY racially motivated hate trains, when in truth its all racially motivated. do you know how many comments ive seen from fanbases of two white blonde women attacking olivia rodrigo about her being a "c**** slut"? commenting about her body hair, something filipino women and southeast asian women in general are overtly criticized for? how many times she's been denied her filipino heritage by acting as if it doesnt exist at all?

or this sudden hate train on hudson williams? find him annoying, criticize him as you want, but sitting there and acting as if there is not racial aspect to the hate he recieves is either naive or bigoted. calling him ugly and then moving to praise the sex appeal of a different white actor. calling him unclassy, barbaric, every single word in the book to say he's so uncivilized compared to his white costars. that he should sit down and behave.

all of that being the tip of the ice berg of the shit i've seen.

but people love to play dumb. they love to say "i didnt even know they were asian" or "theyre white passing" (or "well theyre half white anyway") in a way to completely invalidate the racism they recieve. love to act like that NO, theyre not asian AT ALL, so obviously they never recieved any racist comments, are never targetted specifically for their asian heritages, or that people don't weaponize racism to attack them. when they do. all the damn time.

and it never fucking changes, not even a little bit.

its so tiring, it really is. i'm a big fan of olivia rodrigo's music and she's shown such incredible pride in her filipino roots when she came to manila you could feel it across the stadium. even having all its profits go to a non profit charity that supports filipino women. it gives ME pride seeing her so proud

and i havent even seen heated rivalry (and frankly won't for a long while. its not at all my taste and thats ok) but its so upsetting that people are furious an asian man is getting successful, finding almost any reason to criticize him where it stops being in good faith, it's just another way to bring an asian person down.

at the end of the day thats all there is to it.

biiiiig kpop demon hunters dump thats not very polished but i need to get it out of my system

one thing i haven't really seen much talked about much as a whole (tho it could just be because i havent been in the right places) is how the movie definitely infers that gwi ma is jinu's (and all of the demons) abuser. mentally. he continously tortures jinu with his own guilt and shame, butters jinu up when jinu begins to show doubt, reminds jinu of his own selfishness despite how much self hatred it manifests in jinu, and of course when jinu tries to 'free' himself from gwi ma, he comes in to remind jinu how jinu CANNOT escape him at all. i know these are very standard villain things, but its meant to be a darker mirror to the way celine's misguided love had made self hatred manifest in rumi, and how gwi ma continously feeds that self hatred into jinu.

now, this ofc doesnt absolve jinu of his actions and betrayal of rumi NOR the suggestion to make a boyband to steal the fans from huntrix in the first place as those were still his own choices. but it absolutely represents a lot about how abusers remind you of your worst qualities to keep you dependant on them. hell the whole reason jinu wanted to start a boy band to steal the fans is to win gwi ma's favor and be free of the memories that gwi ma constantly assaults him with to keep him in check. it's a very vicious cycle.

gwi ma i know is meant to represent doubt, insecurities, mental illness (?) that's more internal for us, the viewers, but within the movie he acts the way an abuser would. from the moment jinu is introduced to us, gwi ma reminds him "he doesn't do anything that doesn't help himself".

and it's the fact that we know that that isn't true the moment jinu covers up rumi's marks in the bathhouse, an action that absolutely doesn't help anyone BUT rumi. an action that's inherently kind and could have been set up as a part of jinu's plan, but we see later he contemplates over his own choice because it was genuine. he could have let rumi deal with the fall out of huntrix seeing her marks by herself, but he didn't. and then he continues this by reaching out towards rumi and helping her understand demons are not as horrible as she's been raised to believe.

jinu is very much capable of kindness— but gwi ma can't let him know that, nor else his manipulation can't work anymore, much like many abusers always try to drill into your head you have no good qualities without them, that you NEED them. and of course, you aren't DESERVING of anything better, something jinu was slowly starting to accept for himself when he continously bonded with rumi and let her open his heart up and even accept her plan (which was abad plan since it was more suppression of their traumas but this isnt about that lmao). and of course jinu— whos lived under that guilt for 400 years, believes him and betrays rumi.

"your idol" is such a fascinating song, as its definitely more of gwi ma's villain song with the saja boys as the messengers, much of the song definitely comes from both his and jinu's perspectives. i've seen people say that "i'm the only one who loves your sins" parallels jinu's "im the only one who can understand" to rumi— and they're correct! it does! but it doesnt mean jinu was manipulating or trying to get rumi to rely on him solely during that moment, nor was it actually meant to a show of how unhealthy and toxic their relationship is— sometimes the only person who can understand you really is just someone who experiences the same thing! that's not inherrently bad! but its very much a representation of genuine kindness twisting into something far more sinister when intentions get in the way, and gwi ma and jinu's intentions were to control people. something we can even infer with "i'm the only one who can save you" turning to "no one is coming to save you".

rumi reminds him of what real companionship is— someone who doesn't look past your flaws but also believes you should be allowed to heal from them and that self hatred. she never downplayed jinu's act from the past (even after he tells her the full story) but she also understands how much he hurts over it and wants better for him and knows he's capable of kindness. "you should start listening to those voices instead" when that little girl gave him that drawing of him having a beautiful soul. and when jinu sacrifices himself for rumi, he reassures rumi that she did free him. she gave him his soul back, something he had surrended to gwi ma centuries ago. with rumi he finally learned to love someone more than he hates himself, truly escaping gwi ma's influence to finally choose for himself the person he wants to be: the selfish demon who aides in hurting people like gwi ma just to free himself or the demon who displayed that moment of genuine kindness he showed at the start of the movie.

i hope none of this means im blaming all of jinu's actions on gwi ma, because jinu has hurt many and especially rumi by his own actions, but its still a fascinating display to me. i loved rumi and jinu through out the movie, both as individuals and their relationship and find this part of jinu adds much to the complexity of his and rumi's relationship.

Anonymous asked:

So….u got any soriel thoughts queen

my fave part about soriel in both universes is the contrasts, contrasts everywhere!, things that are so different, so similar, familiar but opposite and then back around again.

An optimist and warm person beaten down by the world, and a nihilist that wanders around aimlessly, perhaps too aware of the futility of fighting a godlike anomaly. And yet somehow, despite the different origins, and the same situation, they pull each other out of the hole. Someone so maternal imbues some of her Care to someone who is so detached- but in his detached-ness still deeply cares about his brother... it's like two paths that go in wildly different directions but converge at similar points.

They are both so old- not just in literal age, but spiritually- yet have this almost fantastically romantic, shy, childlike romance. They have seen so much, yet they fluster each other with dumb puns.

I think sans and toriel both suffer over caring too much (sans to the point that he stops caring like some odd stack overflow, because not caring is easier than caring), and in having each other they get the rare, precious opportunity to stop caring, for a bit; the anomaly and the dead children aren't front and center for once. Something they can't usually afford. a brief respite. And in their being able to stop caring, soothing a heavy heart makes it so they end up caring even deeper.

Sans doesn't try to stop you at all even if you kill his brother- not until literally everyone else has also died and it's just you and him, and he's forced to stop avoiding the horror and confront them directly. The one reason he doesn't harm you, other than his nihilism, is his promise to Toriel- he doesn't care at all, but she made him care enough to watch for your well being. He did all that for what was effectively a voice behind a door. It is simultaneously so chaste, innocent, and so terribly romantic, almost soap opera-esque. I don't think Toriel and Papyrus, each on their own, could defeat Sans' lack of giving a fuck due to depression over giving too much of a fuck, but I think them together is exactly what sans needs to not really stop being lazy, but start actually enjoying life a little again. And someone who's also been so through the wringer being able to do that for him is sooooooooo...

Of course DR soriel is far less insane and more domestic- but i find it telling that toriel is willing to let loose, forget for a minute about her strained/dead friendship with carol, about asgore, the divorce, asriel, the suffering of her teen child she so desperately wants to understand and help but doesn't quite have the tools to do so. Toriel still cares too much- see susie and her checking in with alphys to make sure kris is ok- and yet one weekend she can throw everything to the wind and dance the jitter bug. For a moment she is young again. That's the magic of soriel, for a moment they're young again.

I know that kris is suffering, and I feel for them, I feel for susie, because the two were worried sick and I can't blame them, but man soriel is magical.

I definitely have a soft spot for people who make each other better in the direst of circumstances lol.

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let it be clear i am going to bat for this terrible horrible no good terrifying rotten icicle of a woman like no one has ever gone to bat for a fictional woman before. this is reparations for every single mid ass morally gray man who got woobified because he was sad once. woman you suck so bad. i can see the toxic grief eating at you from the inside, core to rind. i see the terror and obsession behind your ruthlessness. carol holiday i would kill for you and you would probably try to find some use for that which is great and precisely why i love you

everyone hates soriel but twants their ship to do the jitterbug too smh i see how it is

replaying undertale because deltarune kicks my ass so hard, and i dont think anyone can match the sheer yearning sans has for toriel.

like whether or not you believe the sans undertale is from actually from deltarune theory, it's undeniable how hard sans cherishes toriel in undertale. what do you mean regularly depressed and eats out at grillby's sans tried baking a pie. what do you mean he tries to find videogames that he thinks toriel would enjoy. what do you mean he bought snail shaped pasta for himself. "shes the best audience i've ever had" man who has a job at mtt resort as a comedian and is clearly beloved in his local community shown in the grillby's scene. sure. okay. sans "its all going to reset so nothing matters" undertale doing things no matter big or small because they matter to toriel, so of course they matter to him too.

honestly i cant tell if its sadder if sans really is from deltarune, but if not then it wouldnt really matter. that deep yearning exists no matter what.

if you call madohomu unrequited you die and ho to hell tbh rewatching rebellion made it so clear madoka loves homura so much

i still really really love papyton, might be some part of my childhood brain that loved them sm and refuses to let go, but i still think they wouldve been so good together. the recent surge of mettatenna is making me jealous lol (even tho its definitely an enjoyable ship)

deltarune and madoka magica spoilers

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rip kris i think you wouldve really liked sayaka as another depressed and manic vessel meant to only act as a means of making the universe progress in its intended course.

especially if we turn that sayaka/kyosuke/hitomi subplot into kris/susie/noelle which i would and i will. the idea of being in love with someone but you are not entirely you and thus that person cannot entirely love you as a whole— and then having someone who is so fully themselves be the person your beloved will fall for an entirely heartwrenching (heh) experience

Walter white at security at a my chemical romance concert:

No, you listen to ME. i spend my hard-earned american money at hot topic to buy a wallet chain and you expect me to just throw it away like it’s nothing? It cost me enough money just to be here. And for what? For what must i relinquish my possession? For the fear that i might strangle someone? As if i could ever do such a thing. What would i have to GAIN from that. Right hand to god, this chain will stay on my belt loops. ‘No exceptions’? Wow. Just wow. It’s just inconceivable that- I mean, why don’t you ban all necklaces then? Or all bags with a long straps- that girl’s earrings look rather sharp- don’t you try and talk over me! Oh this is just perfect! PERFECT!

Yo mistah white lets just go stop bothering the security guy

Jesse don’t you see that-

Just buy another chain you got the cheddar bitch

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