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rubi | she/her | autistic byler truther since 2022 | the fourth wheeler sibling actually also obsessed with bbc's traitors so unfortunately every winter i go off about that

hi!!

welcome to my blog <3 i mainly post about byler, autism, whatever im obsessing over currently, and whatever's on my mind.

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how do you tell if your writing is good like. i'm writing a fic rn and i'm on over 3000 words and not even halfway done with the chapter, and i'm scared i'm writing too much internal thoughts and being repetitive and dragging it out. i cant tell at all like how do i tell 😭

every few minutes i get flashbanged by the fact that henry was trying to say “please dont” right before joyce killed him. like i know we already know this but im still in unending agony about it

The way some of you only seem to care about or like Robin as a character when in proximity to a straight man is very weird and annoying and has been for years btw

To those who don't understand why what Stranger Things did is so painful and so harmful to the queer community, or who lack the words to express it themselves:

They showed so much queer pain. From episode one, they were calling Will a f*g. Hopper thought he might've been hate crimed and that's why he went missing. In season 3 even Mike was homophobic toward him, and that was never truly addressed. The scene right after, where Will destroys Castle Byers, his safe spot, with the baseball bat his abusive dad gave him trying to make him man up, yelling fuck as he does? I know that feeling, that fear that I won't be loved, that I will never be accepted, that I will always be other. The pain that comes from that. Everyone queer does. It's like he's taking the bat to my heart, like I can feel the bruises all over my body. In season 4, when he all but confesses his love for Mike, just substituting himself for El, and cries after? I cry with him because I get it, I understand. And I'm mostly accepted by the people around me, the people I care about; I can't imagine how much more people who don't have that acceptance relate to it.

These scenes are cathartic to me. Or at least they were, when all signs pointed to a happy ending. But for all the queer pain they showed, they didn't show queer love. Queer joy. They could have told every queer kid that they're worth it, their stories are worth telling, their love is worth showing, their lives are worth living. That no matter how hard it is now, it will get better. That we can have those epic love stories. That we can defeat monsters, not in spite of who we are, but because of it. But all they gave us was a vague "he and Robin might end up in relationships." Nothing good ever confirmed for the queer characters. So now when I watch those scenes, all I see is never ending pain. And I can't imagine the scars that will leave on people who need that happy ending even more than I do -- especially when the finale is very easily read as romanticizing suicide to escape abuse.

They gave us hope, that suffering is not all there is, that queer people can be happy and joyous and loved and worthy and powerful, and then they ripped it all away and left us with nothing but the pain.

To every queer person reading this: They are wrong. We are all of those things they denied us and more. Don't give up, and don't lose hope.

priah ferguson deserved better too what they did to erica was so unfair bro

i cant tell what possible scenario is more upsetting and insane to me about the pulling wills body out the water scene when mike says "its not will.": mike immediately clocking that the body isn't will's because he knows him that well, or mike immediately saying that it isn't will because he can't bear the thought he just cant

a lot of ppl are saying "will's not over mike at all" and yeah i get that he's not not in love with mike in the epilogue, but he's certainly not pining painfully over him anymore. and also i don't think you guys understand the potential of mike working on himself and trying to get back into contact with will and will saying "i'm over you" in a way where he isn't even sure if he means it, but it still cuts mike to the bone because it shows him that how much pain will has been in for their childhood years and shows him why will needed to get over him.

The fact that even Mrs Wheeler ending was miserable. WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE NEVER DIVORCED TED WHEELER

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