Pinned
Nothing conceptually deep.
Nothing emotionally deep.
I'm not sure what the big ending they had planned for years was that was allegedly amazing in their minds. I hope they all feel satisfied with their work, even if it turned out that it wasn't ever something for me.
That was, quite frankly, some shallow hot garbage and it's not going to be timeless in any meaningful way.
I'm just glad I have a life outside of the sincerely wasted potential of this show that's far more important to me. I'm glad I have an incredible family, and loved ones, and creative dreams and goals of my own.
To everyone that is also bitterly disappointed: you're not alone. I'm sorry if I got your hopes up in any way, but I don't regret the time I spent sharing ideas with all of you and enjoying the hopes we shared together.
I think what we should take from all of this is that you all need to go out and make some amazing stories yourselves, and make storytelling as deep and heartfelt and intellectually exciting and conceptually mind-blowing and queer as you know it deserves to be.
I want to read your stories. Thank you for being this small but heartfelt part of mine.
I'll be here occasionally for my mutuals by direct message but I don't think I have the desire to contribute to the Stranger Things franchise's success in any way going forward, including fanwork or engagement. I'm sure you'll all write some killer fix-it fanfiction, and that will help get many of you through this grief you're surely feeling, but I'm looking to invest my time in something that truly deserves it: my growing family of course, but also media that's actually for the freaks and the outcasts and the strange but marvelous people that will truly change the world for the better.
This will probably read very dramatic to me when I re-read it another day, meaning I'll have moved on in a healthy way, but I feel compelled to write this out and get my feelings out nonetheless. Crying all over my phone right now. It's gonna be a tough couple stages of grief but I'm going to be completely fine. I urge anyone having a tough time to lean on your loved ones right now and allow yourself to feel and get it all out, and then allow yourself to enjoy new things again when you're ready.
Thank you to everyone that has been here with me. I appreciate you all so very much and I'm giving each of you a big virtual hug if you'd like one.
I'll probably take a hiatus from Tumblr because I don't think my heart can take more grief than my own right now, but you're all in my thoughts.
With all my love,





