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Mixing Memory and Desire

@tarysande / tarysande.tumblr.com

Canadian writer/editor/cat&pup mama/dress addict/traveler. My main fandoms are Lucifer (on Netflix), Dragon Age, and Mass Effect. Currently working on a bunch of original fic (including a novel co-written with my bestest bestie: @w0rdinista). My avatar is by the wonderful @aelwen.
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"Show me," she finds herself saying before she can think better of it.

He freezes, jaws twitching in surprise. "Commander?" His tone is careful, he’s not entirely certain what she’s asking.

"Show me what you see through your scope. How you choose your shots." She's not sure why it suddenly feels vital to understand this part of him, this merge of metal and mathematics. "Teach me your precision."

Garrus studies her for a long moment, then nods. "Grab your gear. But fair warning—I'm a demanding instructor."

They spend one hour on the range deck, Garrus adjusting her grip micro-increments at a time, his keel pressed against her back as he demonstrates proper breathing technique. She learns that he counts breaths, though his are sync to a different rhythm than human ones. Learns that turian eye structure means he sees slight variations in light wavelength that she never will. Learns that his hand on her shoulder, steadying her stance, is the most natural thing in the world.

"Precision isn't just about the shot," he murmurs, close enough that his breath stirs her hair. "It's about knowing yourself. Every tremor, every inhale. You have to become the constant in the equation."

Shepard focuses on the target, trying to see it the way he does—not as a destination for the bullet, but as an inevitability. An outcome already written in the space between heartbeats. His presence behind her is not at all distracting. It feels like restoring perfect balance. Like finding true north.

She takes the shot. Clean through the center mass of the target. Not quite his level of mastery, but close. His approving hum sends warmth spreading through her chest.

"Not bad, Shepard." His hands linger a moment before withdrawing. "Though you might want to work on that breathing pattern. Noticed a slight hitch right before you pulled the trigger."

"Occupational hazard," she manages, not quite looking at him. Not quite admitting why her breath caught.

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Month of Fanart - Day 11 One Step at a Time by tarysande

no paper texture has been added to this one

I like this one for its expansion on the docking tube sequence, especially in light of someone who got spaced. Keeping within the one-hour time limit definitely kept me from refining shapes too much on this one, and I had to do some digital shadow adjustment after the fact (plus adding stars), but overall I'm still rather happy with it.

@tarysande, this one's for you!

two ppl with shared history is the bestest most delicious compelling dynamic in the world... exes. old friends. childhood friends. old friends who are no longer friends. decade long slowburns. multi decade slowburns. etc

Not so friendly reminder that the appropriate response to a dog barking from several feet away is NOT to pull a switchblade and tell that dog’s owner multiple times that you’re going to kill her dog.

I’m fine. Lizzy is fine. But WTF. Frankly, my pal, I’m pretty sure my dog had the right idea barking at you. She was warning YOU not to come closer to HER or to ME. Because apparently you had both a weapon and a hostility problem.

Clearly, she’s fine now.

forgive me father for i have opened a notification and read the message within to make the red dot go away and then forgot to reply for a month . it will happen again

Next week, the Federation of BC Writers is holding an editing intensive, and it’s going to be awesome. I’m particularly excited because one of the sessions will be led by Cheryl Klein (!!! the author of The Magic Words, which is my favorite craft book) ❤️❤️❤️

I’m also doing a session on DREADED FILTER WORDS 😂

1. You don’t need to be a member to attend (though members get a better rate)

2. That said, you don’t need to be in BC (or even Canada) to be a member.

3. It’s ridiculously inexpensive for the amount of programming you get. (Especially since it’s in Canadian dollars 😆)

4. Even if you can’t make sessions live, you’ll have access to the recordings.

5. Cheryl Klein 😍

writing isn’t hard it’s just emotionally devastating and time-consuming and requires full body possession by an idea

For anyone who needs a kick in the butt (or some gentle encouragement … or some coaching … or some accountability … or all of the above) to get some creative work done this summer. ❤️

anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful

Fandom is a party, not a market.

one time I used the ben affleck smoking reaction image in the family group chat and my mom replied with the funniest possible response which was: "mommy doesn't know who the guy is???" and that phrase has not left my brain since. I'll see blorbos on my dash that I don't recognize and I'll be like well it seems mommy doesn't know who the guy is.

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