On that same note, I think a lot of people need to really accept the fact that they can become disabled at literally any moment. Not all disabilities are slow and progressive illnesses or massive tragic accidents or simple aging, you can become disabled by tripping in your house or hitting your head against something while doing housework or even just by existing and experiencing a sudden brain aneurysm or blood clot or something else that can change your life in literal seconds. Bodies are both very durable and extremely delicate in ways that we don't entirely understand and they change in moments.

You've gotta take this in, really hold it in your mind and understand it. If you are able-bodied, that is most likely a temporary state. Statistically speaking, you will be physically disabled one day. That's life, friends.

the two things I wish people would learn more than anything are: 1) an activist community is not a friendship group and 2) nobody is exempt from doing harm. you will believe things that are wrong. you will say things that hurt people. the people you like and respect will do the same. people you agree with and have many of the same political goals as you will be absolute cunts. people who believe awful things will be super nice about it. it is unhelpful to act as though the world can be broken into "people I like, and are nice, and therefore never do harm" and "people I don't like, and are mean, and do harm". you have to be able to learn from mistakes you have to learn how to work with cunts and you have to learn that not all of your ideological enemies are cartoon villains

It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

diet culture people make me feel like i’m going crazy. you want me to take an experimental pill that destroys my appetite?? you want me to remove part of my stomach??? you want me to stop eating bread and rice, two of the staple foods most inherent to humanity????? why exactly? because my stomach is big? because you don’t like the way i look, and you think it’s reasonable to tell me to carve pieces off of myself and try random drugs and ruin my own life so i can look more visually pleasing to you? and you somehow don’t see how absurdly cruel and selfish that is to ask of somebody???? while pretending you care about their HEALTH????????????????? FUCK YOU!!!!

shoutout to the survivors who are not forgiving, who do not believe that what happened to them was ‘for a reason’, who know they did not deserve it, who are angry at what happened to them, and who do not show the typical ‘good victim’ trope. You all get so much shit from people about how you should act from your trauma because only ‘good victims’ are deserving of empathy and support. You deserve so much more than that.

Don’t let adulthood make you too serious and too bitter to keep you from letting yourself laugh at the smallest pleasures. They usually turn out to be the most fulfilling.

A Checklist Of Possible Reasons I Am Upset, To Review When I Can’t Seem To Figure It Out:

  • did not eat
  • new hyperfixation and no time for it
  • have not done a creative in 24 hrs
  • Bad Sounds
  • clothes are touching my body
  • cold
  • people
  • one (1) comment is stuck in my brain like a popcorn kernel
  • last time I drank water was ??????
  • nervous nervous nervous nervous
  • got a Slightly Worse grade than expected
  • last hug was ??????
  • slept a full 45 minutes
  • lonely …………
  • guts are shredding (again)
  • have not seen sunlight in 24 hrs
  • stuck inside
  • too much screen time
  • Yay Overwhelm
  • room is disaster area
  • have not talked to Person in a while
  • bored
  • imposter phenomenon (again)
  • no current routine
  • how long have I been working???
  • Too Much Socialization

and then. and THEN. I may consider:

  • something is actually wrong

Ye I’m printing this and putting a checklist on my wall

with adhd/autism it's funny like. people will call you weird all your life, people will bully you for your "outlandish" behaviour, people will criticize literally everything you do as "not normal", BUT THE SECOND YOU GET DIAGNOSED (or suggest you might have it) they're like "huh what but you're so normal, you're literally the most normal person I've ever seen, you're literally so normal and absolutely nothing is wrong with you? why would you have that now all of a sudden???"

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