Bodily an adult | Asian | Fictionkind-heavy Idolm@ster-heavy plural system, started learning about alterhumanity mid-2022 | Aroace aplspec | not RP | Alterhuman & plural-focused account
We're The Pluralm@ster (shortened to Plurmas / Plurm@s), a fictionkind-heavy plural system heavily sourced from the idol franchise THE IDOLM@STER! We discovered our plurality, properly learned about alterhumanity, and started trying the identity labels back in August 2022. Othercon 2023 has pushed us to be more open about alterhumanity and plurality, and that's what this account is for! If you have questions for us, our ask box is open!
Keep in mind that this blog is reblog-heavy and doesn't tag reblogs consistently. If you want us to tag for something, feel free to reach out!
If you want to mention us in the context of citing our writings, something like "[member name] of THE PLURALM@STER" works well! The @ can be substituted for an A if it messes with screen readers, and our collective username doesn't have to be in all-caps. Also, if we have members who add emojis at the end of their names, it serves as a way to tell the difference between different members with the same name and source. For example, "Kogane Tsukioka 👑" is a different person from "Kogane Tsukioka 💗" and each of them have their own unique traits that tell them apart. We understand if people don't know that, we just wanted to clear things up.
We made a member list on pronouns.cc! (Only some members would be shown. Members will be added over time)
We don't use a specific DNI but keep in mind that we will block liberally. In addition, we support all system origins.
If you see our fandom posts, you may notice that we refer to some characters with pronouns different from what’s universally accepted by the fandom and canon. That’s purely for the personal comfort of the fictives of said characters, we hope you can understand.
Donation asks and tags will only earn you a block. We have neither the money nor the reach that you want, so we kindly ask you to find someone else.
DID or OSDD are independent of origins and can also happen at literally any point in time much later in life (yes this includes systems formed from trauma not being synonymous with having a dissociative disorder. Dissociative disorders aren't "having people in your head" disease)
A lot of skills may be learned and are not definitively set in stone (communication, visualization, etc.)
I’ve had some moments where I thought “I’m not really doing anything much that’s related to being a magical girl” but then I remembered. Generally speaking, at their core, magical girls are normal people! They may have magic powers and whatnot, but when they’re not fighting evil, they’re just normal people! They go to school and hang out with their friends just like regular people their age! This mundanity too, is part of being a magical girl!
it really is fine to look in the mirror and to not really see yourself reflected in there, whoever you are. you're a headmate residing in a body, it's perfectly fine if there are inconsistencies.
just be sure to take care of the body as if it is your own, regardless if you see yourself in it. it's how you interact with the world, after all, so it's more than worth it to protect it.
hii! im really sorry if you've answered something along these lines before but i'm stuck trying to figure out if i'm plural. i know you're not a doctor but a system's help would be greatly appreciated!
i've seen it described that alters are (generally) developed people within your headspace, but my 'modes' (i call them that so as not to use DID terminology since i'm not diagnosed) don't feel like people so much as they feel like what i said: modes. on and off like a light switch, yknow?
sometimes i can talk to them, sometimes i can't. one's more of a therapist and another is more of a jester-like thing and he likes to berate me. another is a cryptid-looking creature that doesn't speak often. there's more, but they're too fuzzy for me to describe that well.
i have memory gaps on occasion and i've been told by people that i've said and done things that i have no recollection of doing. it scares me and whenever i ask the others what happened, it feels like i'm just talking to myself and they're not ACTUALLY there.
i can't interact with them or anything. can't touch, only see them as a blur unless i draw them. they feel like sentient mood swings more than people.
nobody really recognizes the face on the body we share. like we know it's this body and there's a link, but it doesn't feel like any one of ours. when things happen, i can literally hear them screaming at me to do things to help or get away and stuff like that.
i know theres SOMETHING, but it doesn't feel quite like DID. i don't say i am (part of) a system, but it doesn't feel right to say there's nothing there.
thank you!!
First: You are the only one(s) that can say for sure whether you're plural. We can't tell you that. Do what works for you. If thinking of your experiences as plural helps you live your life, then follow that.
Second: Plurality is not the same thing as Dissociative Identity Disorder. Even if you believe that the only possible way to experience yourself as plural is in association with a mental disorder (the last part of this post gets into where that belief comes from), there are other disorders under the plural umbrella.
It takes an average of 5 to 12.5 years in the mental health system to get a DID diagnosis, and people will be given other diagnoses before DID. It might be schizophrenia or another schizo-spectrum condition. It might be Borderline Personality Disorder or Bipolar Disorder. It might be something else. Does that mean that they aren't having a plural experience, even if they later receive a DID diagnosis?
What about people who were diagnosed with Multiple Personality Disorder who don't qualify for Dissociative Identity Disorder? What about people who used to qualify for DID, but achieved functional multiplicity and no longer meet all of the criteria for that diagnosis? What about people whose medical systems don't have DID as a diagnostic option in the first place?
On top of that, some folks with DID don't see themselves as plural- they experience themselves as one person who changes between dissociated states of themselves, but they're most comfortable within the "one person per body" paradigm. They don't relate much to the plural community. Other folks with DID do experience themselves as more than one person in some capacity and feel comfortable self-identifying as plural because of that.
And then there's the entire therapy modality of Internal Family Systems, or the handful of other ego state therapies...
It's a little bit of a mess.
Third: Plurality is an umbrella for more than just disordered experiences- plurality is an umbrella for any subjective experience that falls outside of "one person per body." There's a lot of history behind that, and I'll point you to LB Lee's excellent plural history series and Monster Linkdump (annotated) for more information- the history series also comes in video form.
The medical model isn't the only way to understand experiences that fall outside of "one person per body". Humanity has a very, very long history with possession, mediumship, and other spiritual cohabitation experiences across many different cultures. Outside of spirituality, there are a good number of people who experience themselves as non-singular but don't meet criteria for any mental health diagnosis; the experience does not cause significant distress/problems for them, and they may not want or need any support coping with it. There are even voluntary experiences of plurality (tulpamancy, daemonism, some soulbonding, etc.).
Fourth: Not all systems can talk to each other internally. Not all systems can sense each other inside (especially not early on!). In DID especially, it's pretty common to have a hard time contacting your system at first. It's also pretty common to downplay how much dissociation you experience- enough so that some of the major clinical scales for dissociation account for this.
Internal communication is a skill that can often be built with time. I might suggest starting by leaving yourself external notes, journaling, or otherwise trying to make contact outside of your head.
Two people with identical experiences might understand them in very different ways, and there is no objective way to know if one person is more "right" than the other.
the thing about dissociative amnesia is it's not always like "how did i get here whose clothes am i wearing why dont i remember buying this pineapple" a lot of the time you don't actually notice the memories disappearing until someone asks you how your week has been and you try to remember your week and realize that your memory somehow has 4 wednesdays in a row, no thursday, and a seven minute long friday afternoon, but nothing that could be said to be Your Week
i really think that a poor sense of time is something that should be emphasized more when it comes to DID. i am scatterbrained and can't meet deadlines because i literally am not continuously experiencing the time leading up to those deadlines, and any time i remember to do a task my brain might be hijacked by another person entirely who is not thinking about the task at ALL. i've never woke up in a strange place with no memory at all of how i got there, but i do regularly catch myself about to write 2023 on paperwork. amnesia can and does present as time blindness.
Remember that if you want to do more of something, you have to do less of something else. It's that time of year where people set goals for the new year and they have plans and hopes and it's always focusing on what they want to do more of. More studying, more exercise, more crafting, more socialising, more making things from scratch. Okay, great. What are you going to do less of in order to have the time and energy to do more of those things you really want to do?
And if your answer to this is "less doomscrolling" or "less bedrotting" then great, but please think about why you're doing those things. No one's doomscrolling or bedrotting because they don't have things they'd rather be doing. Actually, I'm willing to bet you have a lot of things you'd rather be doing and you spend your life internally screaming at yourself to do literally any one of the many things you want to be doing instead, but you don't have the energy for them all and you can't work out how to prioritize them, so doomscrolling spares you from making that decision. Or perhaps you're burned out from taking on too many projects and you need to rest your brain, so you lie in bed because you don't even have the energy to get started anymore.
This is going to be a really hard pill to swallow, but the truth is you might not be able to balance all your hobbies and all your projects the way you'd like. If you want to finish writing that book, you might have to reduce your daily drawing habit to a couple of times a week. If you want to do yoga every morning, you might have to accept not cooking from scratch as often. If you want to spend more time with your family, you might have to cut down on your yearly reading goal. I'm not saying give up on your hobbies; I'm be realistic with your time and your energy and be kind to yourself. Stop expecting yourself to do more and do better every single year. You don't have to constantly be growing upwards and reaching for the stars; you can be content with where you are, or even cut parts of yourself back to make space for other things in your life to bloom.
Think about what your priorities are and make peace with doing less of other things. Less is okay. Less is not failing. Less is self care.
as therian who lives with reality variance i think we’d get along better intracommunally if we viewed different responses to reality variance / unreality / delusion /etc in the neutral way we view other neurodivergent needs that incidentally conflict
like for example, some NDs need to stim by making loud noises— but other NDs might be triggered by the volume, and prefer to decompress in a quiet space. NDs who need to stim loud aren’t intentionally trying to set off NDs who need the quiet—and NDs who need the quiet aren’t intentionally trying to suppress NDs who need to stim loud.
neither are “wrong” for having conflicting needs. both are still equally ND and deserving of shared community, but it’s also not wrong if one person needs to leave the room a moment so both people can have the stims they need.
i don’t have anything against alterhumans who need consensus reality bc they need consensus reality in the same way i need reality variance. what i DO have a problem with is when alterhumans who need consensus reality force that ideal onto everyone else, and demand alterhumans who need reality variance be silenced and driven out of community just for expressing different needs and experiences.
some of those needs are genuinely the need to not be “reality checked” ! bc unless you’re a trusted confidant (and, being a stranger on the internet, you are not) a reality check won’t do anything to change that person’s mind. and this is true for trying to change anyone’s beliefs, inside or outside the community, whether they’re clinically (self-)labeled or not
My father is a classic layabout lazy bastard. He's the guy that people try to stereotype people on benefits as when they call them "dole bludgers". Sits in a filthy house all day whining that his wife won't clean it up, gets a great idea for a new business every few months and gives up after two weeks when it becomes clear that starting a business is hard, does everything he can to avoid doing a single scrap of work in life, uselessly drags his feet when the government forces him to actually do some.
Or at least, he was, until about three years ago, when he was sent off to do mandatory Work for the Dole at a volunteer organisation. He'd done a lot of Work for the Dole in the past, of course, and like most people who are forced to do a shitty job under the threat of starvation, was neither enthusiastic nor particularly useful. But in this particular place, he was given a job that he could do better than anyone else (he was one of 2 men working with a legion of elderly women, and the only person able to easily haul around the heavy goods that the organisation works with). He quickly found himself with a job he could understand, he could see the clear utility in, and that his coworkers greatly valued him for. He started arriving on time every day, putting in the effort, getting shit done. He started caring about the results. And when his Work for the Dole time was up, he kept volunteering.
He's one of two people paid to work in that warehouse now (the other person being the manager), and he's a lynchpin of activity there, their sole regular and reliable source of physical labour. When he takes holidays, they have to plan around it, because his consistent hard work has become such a critical asset to their work. And he's not taking nearly as many holidays as he should -- he works extra unpaid hours, lifts loads that are somewhat heavier than he should be lifting, shoulders the work of others when they need breaks, and we all have to urge him to take more days off for his health since he's not a young man any more. For my entire life this man has been a pile of old mud in the shape of a human, and the instant he found a job that fulfils his needs, he won't fucking stop. He's gonna die in that warehouse and die happy.
My p3 is people acting like there is some kind of obvious, innate, unquestionable difference between "endos" and "CDD systems". Not only are some people both (argue with the wall) but also... get more comfortable with the fact that both "categories" can look indistinguishable from one another NOW !! Some people who identify as being endogenic are disordered and/or experience a lot of struggles with their plurality that are deemed "CDD specific" - and some people who identify as people with a CDD/CDDs will experience little or none of what people consider to be "the CDD experience". Two endogenic folks can have extremely different experiences, two people with CDD can have extremely different experiences, and a person with a CDD can have an extremely similar if not identical experience to someone who identifies as endogenic. Stop putting other people in binaries challenge : FAILED
ppp is that people think they *know* us because we proxied once with them. do you act this way towards singlets too or have you just decided you can assign us exactly one personnality trait based on a pfp, a name, and a five word sentence ? :') (no shame to people who feel this is enough to know them, i just don't like people assuming we're not as "complex" individuals as a singlets by default)
don't neglect your female blorbos. put HER in the torment nexus. give HER some old lady yuri. ship HER with everyone under the sun
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