Still Here

Okay but. The new Zaahen trailer with Xin Xiao? Swap the spear with the First Blade. Swap Zaahen with Demon Dean. And swap Xin Xiao with the dying/dead Dean's human soul after Metatron killed him.

Because, recall when Sam was purifying him of the demon thing, he said "Even after I gave him all that blood, he still said he didn't want to be cured, and that he didn't want to be human".

And Cas replied with "Well, I see his point. You know, only humans can feel real joy, but also such profound pain. This is easier."

If I could fucking animate and if my computer could even handle anything like animation. The Ritalin in my blood is telling me to just redraw each frame in the cinematic but also my wrist is hurting at the mere thought. Also I have a script to write and a challenge to tackle...

I'm already planning to count my script-writing towards NaNoWriMo but I wanted to see what's the general opinion on that?

tl;dr: I'm writing a script for my youtube video essay on a childhood video game I'm doing a challenge in, and I go into lore, story telling, summarize, mechanic breakdowns and stuff, so to ME at least it feels very involved and worthy of going towards my NaNoWriMo word count.

I would still like to hear opinions just in case and also out of curiosity.

Also don't bring up AI please. It's just me and my Google Doc. I don't care what the NaNoWriMo website is doing and I don't keep up with those things. I'm talking about the challenge itself not some org behind the concept's name.

Soulless Sam could've been so much worse and he SHOULD'VE. That guy has his whole memories from when he had his soul, he knows just how every single person in history took ownership of his body and his used, manipulated, defiled, and violated him, he remembers a brief time in the Cage, and the first thing he does when he's out?

Makes sure Dean is all settled with Lisa and goes hunting on his own. He didn't even have to hunt. He could've done literally whatever because everyone thinks he's dead. I know that he can't feel anything which includes anger of course, but just on the principle and how we saw other Soulless people act later - he could've and SHOULD'VE been so much worse. After the amount of times he was bait and victim of sexual abuse, I'd take a back seat and giggle at Meg kissing Dean too because wow, HE sure always laughed these things off.

Soulless Sam should've gone on a serial killer rage spree he well damn earned it, even if he's unaffected and it's the soul that was wronged. Him being Soulless was like the ONLY time Sam wanted to choose life and survival and self-preservation and had some sort of means to reclaim ownership of his own existence and that bitch either gets sexualized or demonized and I'm 💀💀💀I'm gonna shut up now and maybe focus on a fic instead. I'll give him some damn justice my own damn self.

I think Dean has the best hateful-disgusted-side-eye-glare expressions in the whole show, no one can do it like him. I ***aspire*** to convey so much disdain with barely any facial movement.

The slight narrowness in his eyes, the tension in the lips, the nose wrinkle U G H H

Nick after Lucifer's death.

Messy sketch mostly drawn out of emotional signals. Maybe it was done by Alternative Michael as the ultimate torture for Luci, maybe the broken-hearted vessel was found too dangerous to let go and too pretty to waste.

Galaxy Skin // vent art

Sometimes Lucifer decides that Sam's bruises have been healing too well, so he takes it upon himself to tie Sam down and freshen them up. By the time he's done Sam is either a drooling, dissociated mess, or his conditioning wins.

Random thing I decided to draw on stream

The Archangels playing Mario Party.

(I love NorthernLion)

got lazy with a redraw so this is all you get.

Hell!Sam also known as Cage Sam.

I can't believe people give shit to Soulless Sam for his behavior towards Dean. He never risked Dean life on purpose unless he knew he could pull him through it. Oh no, he let Dean get turned to a vampire? Oh no, he laughed when Meg sat on Dean's lap?

He was just treating Dean the way he's been treated his whole life by his older brother. MINUS the physical and verbal abuse. Dean always talked shit about how unstable Sam is and called him a freak again and again, well. Eat up your slice of humble pie this is how bad Sam can REALLY get.

And to put things in perspective? When other people turned Soulless they killed people in cold blood and turned into straight up criminals. Soulless Sam killed innocent people but never unprompted and without a reason.

Also about the Meg stuff - when you don't have a soul so you can't be traumatized yeah. It's funny to see the demon who sexually abused you straddle your brother making jokes. Like "Wow sexually assaulting me wasn't enough she's going for Dean as well, props for the dedication to the bit".

Sam had his body, mind, and soul violated time and time again by pretty much everyone including Dean so I'm pretty sure that guy doesn't get to complain. Not after the blaming a struggling alcoholic and blood junkie that was violated by a Knight of Hell as an infant and then went on to be abused, manipulated, and controlled by everyone in his life. Tricking Sam into saying Yes to Gadreel after the traumatizing events he went through with Castiel and Lucifer, the sabotaging text about Amelia, blaming Sam for respecting his promise to Dean instead of violating their agreement just because he's so used to never giving a shit about what Sam asked for him - those things are way fucking worse than anything Soulless Sam ever did to him.

And before anyone comes for me, I'm not a Dean hater. I sure sound like one right now because I'm just generally extremely upset about this topic.

hey guys will i get into copyright issues if i change my legal name to sam winchester

New Series is up. Warnings below.

Violated by his grace

Has this been done yet

SLAM!

Sam's two fists jolted up at the sound. He'd expected it yet it still made his right eardrum vibrate with discomfort. A front tooth sank itself into his bottom lip, a sniffle following as he turned around to stare at the motel's door. The distinct sound of keys turning and the lock rustling made the younger Winchester take a step forward and bash the side of his fist against the wood.

"Don't lock me in! DEAN!!" He barked, but his voice lacked malice. Sam listened to the deafening silence only accompanied by the impala's engine revving into life outside. It wasn't like Sam couldn't leave if he truly wanted. Lockpick the door, slip out the window. It was the principle, the wordless message behind the action.