Misha Is My Angel

A simple ‘Hello Dean’ could have changed everything. It all could have been so easy. They did not even need to show Cas/Misha.

But they did not do this, and this will forever haunt me.

Ah how fitting and ironic. Half of the Spn fandom united in the end by pain and angst. Now that’s Spn true legecy. Pain angst and family. And unwilling to accept the written story because it was unfair and unjust.

Jensen stop it you’re killing me. I’m trying to make best of what happened I’m trying to cope. Dean Winchester was the most noble loving amazing human and he did not deserve to die like this. If he had to die, then he should have gotten a hero’s farewell. Not be nailed in a barn. And Jensen dropping these things is killing me.

First him being unhappy with the ending. Then protesting it. Then saying he had to make himself like it. Then the post before the finale with the sad smiley. And now this new post saying can we get this nail removed(that killed our epic Dean Winchester) my man is not happy. How can he expect us to cope and heal when he’s doing this. My heart.

No sir i love you and I will always love and support you. You derseved an epic death farewell but you still gave a phenomenal performance. You Dean and us deserved better.

It was so good to see Mark Sheppard again. Crowley was one of my favourites and I really missed Mark on the show. It was so nice of him to return for the last ride and to share his feelings and provide his support even if things did not end well between him and the creators. We truly had the best cast.

Small things matter. I truly thought that Sam would find something of Cas in Dean’s room. Anything. Small things hurt. And they hurt big.

Just a small note. Maybe it could be useful for someone. If you are easily hurt or triggered or simply negetivity or hate or discord upsets you maybe take a break from Tumblr. Yeah I know I’m making this post here but I know how this place can be and it’s too much at times. And not everyone can deal with it. Everyone who cared for Supernatural and it’s characters is in someway effected. And everyone deals in their own way. But if you want to heal or move on, maybe this is not the best place. I understand why you are here, Supernatural and Tumblr are deeply related and sort of always be. So if you are here and find it difficult, maybe don’t let the passions of others effect you, or maybe take a little break. I’m not elequent but I am trying to mean well sorry if I don’t make sense.

I don’t want to say anything else as this is the easiest place to get someone offended. I’m always scared here, been decade and still scared. So just a heads up if someone finds this. Regardless hope you find some peace in some way. I’m gona end on a positive note that if you have friends here and understanding of this place then it’s amazing. People come here for nostalgia and like mindedness. To share and create. To express. So hope you find what you’re looking for. In the end, we are family. Spn family and that’s not gona end.

What’s worse is that I knew that’s how Dean will go. Dean of all people derseved to live long and happy. But also I knew he never would. He always knew and so did Sam. I’m not saying this should have happened, God no one needed more love or nurturing. But that’s how I always thought he would go. I never thought they would actually screw over Dean like that. I knew Cas would die and he did. And I knew Sam would grow old and happy. I’ve been writing this for years. Dean dying young and on a hunt but on his own terms. And Sam taking over and growing old. But I never thought they would actually take this amazing character who has lived the most painful life and end it this way. I wish I was wrong. But that’s the way Dean went. Dearest Dean you deserved better.

Jim Beaver has cap a with balls written on it. It made me happy.

If in next few days I say something that’s not nice or makes you upset I apologize. Please don’t send hate or fight without logic. I am deeply effected by the shows finale. It’s also ending of an era of my life. Lot of things don’t make sense right now and I’m just trying to cope. I’m not usually pessimistic and but right now there is a lot of hate and negetivity right now and that’s also hurting me. We are all trying. I understand how much people are hurt.

Maybe sometimes I will try to look at the positive. If I try to look at something positive please don’t take it as an insult, or if I am upset please don’t be offended. I mean no offence to anyone. I just hope after some time I can fine peace. I think I will. Hurt will be there but I’m not completely negetivie about this. I still love the show and have deep love and support for the cast.

The actual finale did not make me cry as the The long road home did. Please every one watch it. I don’t know what you will take home with it. But it helped me.

They put in so much love and care in these 15 years. No matter how it ended, the rest of the show was amazing. So was our enitre amazing cast.