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For the uninitiated, I wrote a quiz where you can find which AFTG character you are, but the takers have been sending me all day. I never thought y'all would be into this that much, but here are my fav genre of takers:
(Aaron isn't even the most common result) Again, thank y'all, ask my roommate I've been getting way too much joy from this.
finally good fucking quiz
my only options were this or jean, i’m well aware of the type of bitch ass motherfucker i am
OKAY. alright..

What i.e. and e.g. really mean!
I’ve seen so many posts that say, “Oh, I just realised what e.g. means. It means ‘example given’” and “I know what i.e. means, its in essence’”
This really makes me grind my teeth, because:
- They’re abbreviations for Latin words
- It takes two seconds to google what they actually mean
- Why aren’t English teachers taking two seconds out of a lesson to tell their students this.
Meanings and Latin Origins:
i.e. is an abbreviation of the Latin phrase id est, meaning ‘that is’. The definition being: ‘that is to say (or to add explanatory information or to state something in different words)’.
e.g. is an abbreviation of the Latin phrase exempli gratia, meaning ‘for the sake of example’ It’s definition being: ‘for example’.
There you go, now you know. (Ha, that kind of rhymed)
Lauren Marie
I wonder how much of the fandom's general animosity towards Lotor is based, first and foremost, on this hulking misconception that Lotor's being born to royalty means that he is a powerful -- even influential -- political presence in the Empire. All too often I see Lotor characterized as if he's lived his entire life in splendor and luxory, and that his subterfuge is simply the rebellious actions of a spoiled child who hasn't gotten what they want.
Because Lotor is many things, but he is not spoiled or draped in finery. He is mocked and belittled in the Empire, and is constantly fighting for even a trace of respect from those in the military's chain of command. Lotor shows the hallmarks of a survivor of emotional abuse. Hell, we're constantly seeing how comfortable everyone in the Empire is with referring to him by racial slurs.
If the fandom at large understood that Lotor's being born to royalty meant that his abuse was normalized, serially invalidated, and encouraged, there might be a shift from this heated animosity towards aspects of his character that simply don't exist towards a shared appreciation of the fact that Lotor's lies and subterfuge are his way of controlling a situation instead of a deep, underlying determination to betray everyone around him. I wonder, if fandom understood how emotionally isolated Lotor was, if they would appreciate his calling a group of people friends and inviting them to stay.
I wonder if, because Lotor is a nuanced character who operates solely in shades of gray, he will ever be appreciated by this fandom.
I’m antish/eith in part because Keith has to grow up. Shiro—er, Kuron—is hindering his development just by being there. I hope they can resolve this issue soon.
To be honest, I don’t understand this concept. And I’ve heard it before. This idea that Shiro is just a stepping stone for Keith, or even worse–that he’s holding him back. If you only have one friend, if you’ve been abandoned and turned on all your life, if you had only one person you can count on, a single constant, is it “growing up” to give them up? “My life would be a whole lot different without you.” “Shiro is the one person who never gave up on me, I won’t give up on him.” Shiro didn’t make Keith’s life worse, he changed it for the better.
Before Shiro, Keith had nothing. No one. He was abandoned by his parents. He lived in fear or abandonment because, as he says, “Maybe, I’m naturally untrusting because my mom left me? And so, instead of accepting people into my life, I push them away before they reject me. I guess I have some walls up…” Shiro and the garrison were likely all he had. We know this is true, because after Shiro disappears, Keith leaves. He isolates himself in the desert for a year, because he has nothing left to lose.
I see people say that Keith needs to “get over Shiro” all the time, that somehow him falling for Lance would be far more meaningful development because being “too close” to someone, sharing in unconditional love and support, is supposedly childish or wrong. When Keith gets kicked out of the garrison–an orphan with no home, no remaining family, someone who had just lost his only friend in an incredibly tragic incident, Lance’s reaction is to do a victory dance. He’s all excited that Keith’s out of the way and he can further his own piloting career. “Hasta la later, Keith!”
Meanwhile, that boy’s wondering the desert, feeling completely lost and alone. I highly doubt Keith’s the only one that has some growing up to do here, and I refuse to believe losing his only long term support was “helpful.” We’ve seen firsthand what happens when he loses Shiro.
Spiraling into depression isn’t healthy. Watching Keith break down and mourn and grieve all over again, push himself further away from the team and throw himself headlong into danger with reckless abandon, I don’t think anyone can say that’s progress. When Shiro disappears, Keith takes to talking to Black like he’s communicating with Shiro through her. Everyone else calls her the Black Lion. Rather than acknowledge her as a separate entity, Keith says things like, “I know this is what you wanted for me, Shiro. But I’m not you. I can’t lead them like you.” And, “This one’s for you, Shiro.” He latches onto Black as an attempt at clinging onto what little of Shiro he has left. Keith wasn’t healing or growing into a “better” person. He was suffering the entire time.
So let’s talk about what Shiro has done for Keith’s development, because the answer is–way more than anybody else. We’ve already established that, in Keith’s own words, Shiro has 1) Completely changed his life, and 2) Has been the only person to never abandon him. Not Lance. Not Allura. Not Team Voltron. Just Shiro. When Keith goes through his BOM trial, arguably one of his paramount moments of character development, who spurs that growth and change? Shiro. Shiro was the one by his side the entire time, the one he desperately wanted to see, the person who came rushing to his aid immediately.
There’s a reason none of the other paladins appear to tempt Keith. It’s because his bond with Shiro was always what mattered most, the most tempting lure his mind could offer. And it’s how much he cares for Shiro that becomes his salvation as well. “Nothing was worth Shiro’s pain.” That’s why he gives up the knife and is able to awaken his blade.
Or, let’s talk about season 3, how Keith only pilots the Black Lion to honor Shiro’s wishes, how he’s the one we feel Shiro’s loss through, how he’s searching for a way to save him the entire time. How there are numerous parallels between sheith and zaggar, how their storylines inevitably intertwine, echoing a tragedy of 10,000 years ago as they tempt the same fate. Let’s talk about how Keith and Shiro’s bond is one of the main overarching themes, as is Keith’s devoted loyalty to Shiro, his vow to save him “As many times as it takes,” just like how Zarkon risks everything to save Haggar before him.
Or, let’s talk about Keith’s galra nature. How Shiro was the only one who accepted him without question and immediately showed his unconditional support. Let’s talk about how he’s been helping Keith embrace his identity long before that. How galra suffer from very volatile, painfully, viscerally intense emotions. How Keith was unequipped to handle those feelings, never grew up with essential coping mechanisms. How it was Shiro who was able to help him remain calm and taught him vital coping methods to stave off sensory overload. As Lauren clarified, these volatile emotions are inherently galran trait, and it’s understandable that this would cause immense stress and meltdowns. Shiro was the only one able to alleviate that pain, to try and help anchor Keith and teach him ways to cope:
- Joaquim: “[Keith] latches onto Shiro at times because Shiro’s sort of the only thing that can really calm him down and keep him in check.” (source).
- Lauren: “It’s kind of exasperated by the fact that Shiro’s gone. Like he’s having a hard time dealing with it, he doesn’t really know how to feel. And I think he just goes back to that inner part of himself where it’s just—he can’t control his emotions. And that comes from the galra side.” (source).
Similarly, Alfor mentions that Honerva really “softened up” Zarkon. In much the same way, Shiro was able to help Keith. And we know those grounding methods really stuck with him and continue to be helpful over a year later, because Keith still uses them when he’s overwhelmed. That’s why his mantra is “Patience yields focus.” “That really stayed with you, didn’t it?” It did, and it meant more to Keith than he could say. In light of all that, I don’t see how Shiro’s just “holding him back.”
Or, let’s consider season 4, and how a big part of why Keith even left the team was for Shiro’s sake. Because he believed in Shiro. Or, to quote one of my previous meta:
- Just like he’s always believed. “Shiro, you are the rightful leader of this team. And you proved it today by reconnecting with the Black Lion. It was always meant to be yours.” A good portion of the reason why he even distanced himself from the team in the first place is because he refuses to take Shiro’s place away from him, because he still believes in him more than anything. And that’s directly stated on the show–“He can finally be the leader I was unable to be. I’m not meant to pilot the Black Lion.” “Is that why you’ve been pulling away from us?”
To say that Shiro has stunted Keith’s character development when he’s proven to be a major catalyst for a lot of Keith’s growth and motives is just…incredibly counterintuitive. Even more so when you consider that having Keith lose Shiro for good would go against the heart and soul of the story. Zarkon was very attached to Honerva as well, and he ended up making a poor decision that caused a lot of destruction. But the point isn’t “you have to give up on the people you love” or “you have to make these kinds of sacrifices.” That was never the point. Because Keith already lost Shiro twice. He never properly moved on from the grieving phase during Kerberos. If the lesson he needed to learn was, You have to let Shiro go, then why have Keith painfully endure the entire mourning process again just to ultimately tear Shiro away from him?
Keith having someone to believe in isn’t childish. He doesn’t need to grow out of trust. Quite the contrary, the fact that he was able to open up so much to Shiro at all represents some much needed, monumental character development. He tenses up when others hug him, but with Shiro he melts. He and Shiro allow each other to see vulnerabilities they never bare to anyone else. Keith has lived his whole life shoving others away in fear of rejection. To say that he needs to let go of the one person he loves and trusts unconditionally, the single person that Keith’s let down all his walls around–that’s a severe loss of character development. As is trying to teach him the lesson that he’ll never be happy, that he must always sacrifice again and again, that there’s no way for love to win. “As many times as it takes.” He’s staying with Shiro until the very end. That’s who he is.
And Shiro’s so much more than just a stepping stone for Keith. He’s his own person too, and he and Keith mutually rely on one another even when torn apart by the universe.
wondering if it’s a common thing for younger/depressed creators to have a tendency to end their stories on a darker note (eg: good guys die/ultimate goal is not achieved/bad guys win sorta deal) bc that’s definitely a trend i noticed in my younger self’s works and... i’ve been getting the impression that i’m not alone in that
i know that i keep saying that i’ll finish Handles.... but i’m strongly considering just orphaning it. or at least marking it as such and putting it on hiatus or smth. i just don’t.............feel anything for it right now. and there’s a lot of reasons for that, but mostly i just want to move on from it. maybe i’ll return to it one day and finish it as a gen fic........ but idk
On a scale of one to ten how edgy are you
oh my god i thought i dreamed getting this ask
What’s it like, to hold the stars in your eyes? To see the world not as it’s meant to be seen but through rose-tinted glasses, seeing love and beauty in everything?
Is it innocent? Or a violent world full of hurt and bandages covering gaping wounds?
There were so many things Lotor wanted to know, so many things he wanted to feel. But he was jaded and gray, and wanting to see was not seeing. Perhaps that was why he thought his home among his Generals was safe, untouched by greed and malcontent.
He’d wanted to see, but he was blind to the stirrings of mutiny.
In retrospect, he’d deserved what had become of him: an exiled prince wandering among the stars, banished from home and title. It was his fault for missing the warning signs.
His fault for killing her, for forcing his family’s hand. Yes, he supposed that much was true.
He knew now, what it meant to hold the stars in your eyes. They were all he’d seen for the better part of a week, if that’s really how long he’d been out here. His communicator said longer, but that couldn’t be right.
For the longest of times, he’d wanted to be free from his parents’ smothering grasp. Then he’d been let loose, and for the first time in his life he’d forged his own self.
He slouched in his make-shift throne out of spite and maintained the most casual of relationships with the people he’d accepted into his closest circles, and he found that the bond shared between a team of individuals working towards a common goal was good. It was everything he’d wanted and more.
Was that why it hurt so much, to have lost it? To know that he’d sabotaged his own place of comfort because of something he’d done in an act of rage was unthinkable, and yet he’d done it.
I am not my father.
Saying that had felt like the truth, but now he wondered. What was so different about them, really? His father had the respect of his armies, for one thing. He still has his armies, too.
No. Pity wouldn’t do anything for him. Better to find his next course of action, to steer himself somewhere safe. Even if he only stayed for a short while, it was imperative that he find somewhere to rest and heal.
The Empire wasn’t an option, for obvious reasons. There was another option, but something told him that the Generals would be headed there. Best to stay away.
He’d spent most of his life dancing in the shadows of the Empire, daring to build it in his image rather than his father’s. A risky choice, perhaps, but one he’d never regretted until now. Now he had nowhere to go.
Unless...
It was risky, but they were known for their mercy. For defending planets and taking them under their wing. Voltron was a last course of action, one that he shouldn’t even consider, but he was exhausted and pained. Desperate.
So here he was, wincing as he reached for the controls of his ship to adjust the radio, hoping against all hope that Voltron still held the stars in their eyes. Praying that they had learned to see through their rose-tinted glasses, to love without restraint, without being burned by the intensity of their emotions.
Hope. It was the one thing he had left.
