i am never watching stranger things again. i am never analyzing stranger things again. i am never pouring time and / or energy and / or money into stranger things again. i will think about it and all those now assassinated characters i have all loved so much for a long time, but i will never touch it again.

but like as a follow up to my last post i will get my head out of my own ass i promise 👍 but i just cannot care about karens lasagna or will nd max smoking cics together right now (and that's absolutely a me problem im happy not everyone is feeling as negative as i do i'm gen happy for everyone who has started the character reclamation process) i'm just still stuck in the limbo of disbelief and flabbergasted-ness (it is a word). i'll be fine soon. at some point ! i promise !

i am at the stage in my grief where i don't really want to talk about it right now . don't want to see the characters don't want to be reminded of it don't want to know nothing about the cast or the interviews or that damn documentary or pointing out more plot holes or whatever else. call it the numb + reality settling in stage

i just love how will was there to prop up mike who was there to prop up el who was there to prop up mike and how nobody and nothing ever went anywhere

since i'll probably never be able to look at stranger things ever again there will come a day where all of it just becomes blurred and foggy and it will settle as this distant memory of something i once deeply loved that turned so ugly. i will forget scenes and moments and order of events and details i have fixated on. until then i am left to rot in the confusion of it all, craving to go back to what i love yet unable to because it has been so deeply tainted

trying to act like that finale hasn't fundamentally changed something in me in a bad way

the demogorgons are the cuntiest monsters only second to the mindflayer shadow form edition in this whole show and you think i am fatigued ? you think i have demogorgon fatigue ?

can't even find the whimsy in maya saying will and mike are "the cutest couple that never was" none of this is funny and EVERYTHING is unserious

watching that finale felt like taking a long walk through the desert while dying of dehydration but that one shot of will in his graduation gown through jonathan's camera was the beautiful oasis in the midst of it all. my one drop of water. i was dying but for a second there there was an angel smiling down on me