Thinking today about the way I confirmed as Crocodile (One Piece) last year.
I had been passingly familiar with One Piece in that I knew that it existed since it was airing as a 4kids dub.
And I had been avoiding it for 20+ years. I had been avoiding looking at it.
Even though I love pirate media. Something about it pushed me far away, made me not want to look at it. Not want to acknowledge its existence. This, in hindsight, has been the case with a lot of kintypes I was avoiding.
Last year one of my partners pushed the issue. Every time we'd walk past a piece of One Piece merch or a manga (which was everywhere) she'd say "its us!"
Months later it was not a joke, and we were having actual arguments about whether to look at it and question it or not.
I was very firmly on the side of "not".
We had just walked out of the mall on a day in May of 2024, where the "it's us!" tease had come up again, pointing to the manga.
We talked about it on the drive home.
The shayfer James song "Prologue" from the Ninth Hour came on the playlist.
I just kind of went quiet and stared out the window for a minute as i was overtaken by a vision of a fleet of ships surrounding an island with a tall building where a battle was about to happen.
Something about it shook me. I agreed to question One Piece.
Later, I'd find out that my vision matched Marineford.
Later, when we were piecing things together, I had a dream.
I had a dream about Crocodile - a character I barely knew of and hadn't met yet in our reading, but my partner kept insisting had to be me - i had a dream about Crocodile laying on a stone floor, staring up at the sky and telling someone who had come for him to leave him to die.
I didn't even know that happened in the canon. It was quite the shock to find out it did.
So that... made continuing to deny things very hard, and eventually I had to confirm.