[so horny my penis is whistling like a tea kettle] what? i cant hear you over my penis

reading the vampire armand book is kind of like when you're hanging out with a friend of a friend who you find pretty interesting and then he opens his mouth to tell a story and you slowly realize that the story he's telling is like the most horrific, traumatic shit you can possibly imagine but he doesn't. seem to realize that what he's saying is traumatic and horrifying? he's still talking like it's all completely casual and he just keeps fucking talking and the story just keeps going and getting worse and you think it can't get any worse and it just gets so much worse and he's still behaving like he's talking about the weather and you're just so fucking stunned that he survived all of this that you're completely speechless and you just. you don't know how to tell him how fucked up it all is. you don't know how to tell him that this is the most fucked up shit you have ever heard in your entire fucking life despite his nonchalance. and then the book is over

you wanna know what the most terrifying part of tva is. it’s the part where you’re disgusted during the entirety of marius, and then armand is taken by the cult, and it’s not worse in terms of SA but rather there’s just straight up torture (emotional and physical) that brings a new sense of total, existential mind-breaking despair which just wasn’t present in armand before.

and as it goes on this realization creeps up on you that like yeah. yeah. if i had gone from marius to this, i’d idealize marius too. and i think that’s the part that felt the most bone-chilling to me. the part where the narrative puts you so deep in the mind of an abuse victim that despite your knowledge, despite your innate understanding of the situation, the rationalizations of that abuse make sense. they’re enticing.

it’s absolutely haunting, but never for the reason anne rice seems to think it is

Hell, even Marius admits as much. If Armand had gone off from the palace to have a more ordinary life on his own, developing his independence and building his own relationships, he’d likely eventually look back at his experiences with Marius with a dull type of horror or revulsion, even if he could also acknowledge that there was a certain stability and “love” there as well. But… Armand didn’t get that lucky.

so true. always thinking about that moment where marius is like “some day you’ll get older and look back on this time with me and realize how scary and fucked up it is. remember then that this was love” and im always thinking about that. remember then that this was love. fuck. screaming crying throwing up!!

I can swap this life of shame, swap it out for a dark gift and a power you can't begin to imagine. You just have to ask me for it. You just have to nod your beautiful head and say yes.

Interview With the Vampire 1.01 "In Throes of Increasing Wonder"

He was another knife, I could feel it. A different sort, but a knife still. I did not care. I thought: give me the blade. Some things are worth spilling blood for. - Madeline Miller, Circe

some

BODY

the authors who write "sorry for any mistakes" at the end of their 200k word fic that's better than half the published books I've read. bestie you just gave me a whole novel for free with perfect characterization. I'll forgive a typo

"everyone's a little autistic"

"everyone's a little weird"

Iwtv was honestly so slay for doing the part about madeleine having her period in front of claudia. Like it’s so intimate and intense because claudia not only is a vampire, but maybe never had a period of her own due to her young age.

But also as someone who’s done research on the culture history of the vulva for a project, including the shame around periods, and simply for existing in a body that does bleed every month, it was nice for it to be brought up in such a neutral way. Period rep matters :)

(Also not so fun vulva fact: Sartre, the French philosopher who APPEARS IN THE SHOW and was a subject of our research, had ideologies about the vulva being a void or a hole that “evokes horror in the male” and linked femininity, especially in a sexual way, as to being slimy and hence repulsive. Garbage man, I hope Armand bit him)

Also we need more wlw vampire media because period blood + vampires + biting the inner thing. Send post.

Aww.

me talking about horror to normal people: its not torture porn, horror is an incredible medium to explore personal complex emotions and the genre at large can really speak to a society's unspoken fears at a given time in history

me talking about horror to my pervert friends: ranking saw traps by how horny they are

first illustration of 2026 (thanks pinterest for the reference)

Okay 👍

i’m the devil’s situationship and he grants a significant proportion of my wishes

something about louis being deep in the trenches of his catholic guilt but both lestat and claudia seeing him in a holy light the first time they meet him