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we all deserve Hozier's "no grave can hold my body down, I'll crawl home to her" type of love.
I love it so much when i post sth and witness strangers on this app reposting it, adding small (or big) annotations of their personal experience, anything sweet, heavy, unhinged. It's just so wholesome. It's like finding handwritten notes in the margins of a book you love.
AND MIND YOU I READ ALLLL OF THEM. ALL. EVERY SINGLE ONE. and i love you for that. Pls keep adding things to my life 🩷
I be saying "anime is my escape. anime is my happiness. anime calms me" a lot for someone who cries throughout the show, has attachment issues so bad that I am left heartbroken when the series ends and relates to the mundane parts of the storyline beyond the point of escape and is never calm.
I need to find a new anime to obsess over asap✋🏻🙂↕️
hey girly 🩷
need some advice, hopefully you can help soothe my thoughts...
ive been struggling to find a good job, a part time, decent pay, but most importantly flexible schedule.
my first job was retail, and it was great ! loved the work environment, tasks, and the flexible schedule. ever since I left the job I've been struggling to find that same environment, especially since I returned back to uni, a flexible schedule is what I cared about the most.
anyways... ive been wanting to go back to my retail job, same location and same manager. funny thing is my manager and I are in good terms even after I left the job. we've kept contacted, but only for holiday reasons.
basically im a little afraid to return bc everything has changed since I left, also, even though I am in good contact with my manager and I help her out around the holidays, I dont know if she'll give me back my part time job ?? Im also a bit embarrassed ???
thats the part I wanted to mention,, i do feel embarrassed going back bc most of old coworkers left the job and have better jobs, and I do know that at times they go back and shop around. I just feel embarrassed but at the same time it was the only job I really enjoyed, I know some people hate retail, but I really did enjoyed it.
Right now im working as customer service call center for the ballet, and absolutely hate it ! im constantly bored and I get annoyed picking up calls, I want to quit but I have to remind myself of my savings and uni, but im miserable in that job.
I really dont know what to do....😔 I mena what would you do ?
Heyyyy love🎀 first of all thankyou sm for reaching out and i am so moved by the fact that you thought to share this with me 🥹 really appreciate it.
I can tell how much thought and care you've been putting into your choices. And IT'S OKAY TO FEEL CONFUSED OR EVEN A BIT EMBARRASSED. That's such a human thing to feel esp when balancing work, uni, and your peace of mind.
From what you said, the way your old job made you feel is sth really rare and valuable! So if going back could give you that same sense of comfort and stability again, then there's absolutely nth wrong with it okayy!! People change jobs, return to old ones, explore different paths. But it's all a part of figuring out yourself and your life. You don't owe anyone any explanation or comparison. We all have different timelines we work with. So do not compare yourself with anyone🫂
And about the embarrassment part, i totally get it when you see others "moving on" and getting ahead. But honestly, success in the long term isn't the same for everyone. Doing what feels RIGHT FOR YOU isn't a step back. Returning to an old job isn't the same as going back to that phase of your life entirely. If you crave that peace and sense of comfort that's what you should be feeding your soul with. It's you choosing peace over pressure (and mind you not everyone is capable of doing that) and the fact that you care this much about the right thing, about the type of life you want to create for yourself just shows how much self aware you are🩷
and since you’re still in good contact with your manager, maybe just reach out casually. tell her you’ve been missing the environment and were wondering if there’s an opening. she already knows your work ethic and that you’ve helped during holidays. Ig that’s a huge plus!
as for your current job, if it’s draining you and making you miserable, that’s not sustainable. you deserve sth that doesn’t exhaust your spirit every day. sometimes going back to something familiar and comfortable is exactly what we need for a while, especially while juggling uni. you’re not going backwards, it's just a matter of choosing balance and what really FEELS right to you rather than what LOOKS right to the people outside.
And trust me this is not just an advice. I genuinely would've done the same if it's ever about my peace of mind🌷 Live and work at your own pace. Everyone else's path is not yours. They didn't have to face the issues you did. So it's absolutely bound to be different for you. You crave peace and that's what matters the most.
I hope i was able to do sth for you, even if just a bit💗 and thankyou again for giving me the privilege to help you🫂
There is nothing more romantic than walking back into your life after being gone for so long, finding routes that lead you back to yourself when the map in your life isn't legible, remembering who you are again after misplacing all the keys that lead you back home.
remembering who you are is the greatest love story:-)
I am a firm believer in the healing power of turning to arts, literature, crafts, dance, music and basically any form of expression that allows you to 'create' at times when you feel like you don't belong in this world, when existing feels like a chore.
To create is to resist the weight of existence.
There are certain emotions and memories in your life that you know are never going to leave you no matter how hard you try and eventually you learn to live with the ache they bring. That's Attack On Titan for you.
Then there are feelings and experiences that you think you've healed from. You smile and move forward and life feels lighter. But then,out of nowhere, they hit you again,harder than before, leaving you more WRECKED. And that cycle of temporary joy followed by emotional chaos continues. That's Jujutsu Kaisen for you.
Because honestly...WTF????
funny how you're brutally forced, just once, to learn to let go of the one thing you wanted the most. and then it becomes a built-in instinct and you're ready to leave ath behind anytime if it starts dragging you back to the place you crawled out from. everything after that first time ultimately just becomes an act of letting go.
done healing my inner child. next up is my inner teen. her highness demands a sword.
the amount people actually owning swords makes me jealous🙂😭
one of my first, if not my very first, big purchase was a sword.
i brought this sword at a huge convention that takes over an entire small town, with exhibitors in tents and stalls all around, and cosplayers everywhere.
i brought the sword at the very start of the day like a fool. the huge cardboard box annoyed me, and how was i going to carry it?
well, without the box of course. so i spent the day with a sword on my shoulder like the absolute maniac i was at 16, being a mild safety hazard and the envy of many many people (because swords are cool in general, and this on was a replica of Andúril and lotr was still at peak popularity)
I am even more jealous now cuz i love Lotr sm😭 but i love thiss <3 thankyou sm for sharing. We don't have ath like that here 😔
