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““The mannerisms that help define gender - the way in which people walk,swing their hips, gesture with their hands, move their mouths and eyes when they talk, take up space - are all based upon how non disabled people move…The construct of gender depends not only upon the male body and female body, but also on the non disabled body.””

— Eli Clare, Exile and Pride: Disability, Queerness, and Liberation

“I no longer have a gender. Rather, I have a wheelchair.”

—Christina Crosby, A Body, Undone.

This includes all disabilities, not just physical disabilities.

No actually.

These are very obviously two references to how gender is perceived through physical markers–the extent to which your hips swing, how you curl your hands in the air, where your eyes look when your mouth opens–and both writers are making claims that the acknowledgement of kinship depends on comfort with the physical. That the same classifications of physical markers allow the figurative human to classify the person into “man” or “woman” depend of adherence to certain norms, and those with visibly classifiable disabilities raise that sense of unease that one would experience by not being able to classify gender.

Part of critical thinking is recognising that certain contexts are more pertinent than others, and if you make wildly deviated claims like you just did, you better have a pretty good argument to back it up.

Part of critical thinking is knowing:

  • "Visible" disabilities are not just physical disabilities. Mental disabilities can also be physically seen. And your desire to lift up "visible" disabilities so often while leaving "invisible" disabilities out of your activisim, especially when you consider these words to be synonyms for physical and mental disabilities, is inherently problematic.
  • A person with a mental condition, whether a neurodevelopmental disorder or a mental illness or any sort of mental disability, also has difficulty conforming to norms. Yes, including gender norms.
  • A person with a mental condition can also have difficulty with where their eyes look, what their face does, how they walk, how they use their hands, etc. People with autism often have difficulty with eye contact. A person with tourette syndrome cannot control their body, face, and voice. A person with a cognitive disability may struggle to perform the social norms required for their gender. A person with neurological issues may struggle with balance, walking, holding stuff. A person with OCD may have compulsions that affect how their body moves and how they speak. And this is just the tip of the iceberg for examples.

Your sanism is concerning and sad, especially when your bigotry leads you to not think further beyond who you believe "has it worse." Please do better.

This is so fucking blatantly ableist and sanist. This was said about a homophobic church advocating for queer people to be killed. The asshole who wrote the comment and all of the assholes who liked the comment have decided conflating bigotry with mental illness is a-okay. Fuck these assholes. Stop saying ableist shit about mentally disabled people! It's not fucking hard!!!!!!

I notice a lot of hypocritical shit that's done by people who claim to be progressive, and one of those hypocrisies that I see constantly is people who say they support equality and then call out bigotry by being ableist.

If you call bigoted people "insane," "deranged," "delusional," "crazy," "bipolar," "psychotic," "sociopathic," or whatever other sanist shit, please sit the fuck down and actually think for once about the words you are using. I'm tired of the mountains of hypocrisy in progressive spaces. I'm fucking done with it all.

If you believe that it's okay to equate bigotry to mental conditions, please just shut up. You don't care about equality or oppressed and marginalized communities. If you did, then you wouldn't be throwing people with mental disorders under the bus just to try to make a point. You wouldn't think that words used to describe mentally ill people are synonyms for "monster," "bigoted," "evil," or whatever the fuck you're using mentally disabled people as a stand in for.

You think a republican is "deranged?" I think you need to stop shitting on a group of people who are abused, harassed, and killed every single goddamn day by a society that could not give less of a shit about mental health, let alone the people who have these disabilities.

No, that asshat isn't "crazy" for supporting homophobic legislation.

No, that shitty person isn't "delusional" for supporting Trump.

They aren't [insert mental condition here].

They're bigoted. That's what they fucking are. And that's apparently what most "progressive" people are too, judging by how often I see this shit in progressive spaces as well as fatphobia. (Don't even get me started on the massive amount of "progressive" fatphobes who just laugh in fat people's faces when told that fat people are horrifically oppressed.)

Stop acting like you care about equality and oppression when you actively oppress vulnerable groups every single day. I'm over it. I don't want to hear your bullshit anymore.

It's sad that the whole "It's not a choice!" rhetoric that the queer community—my own community—has so heavily relied on for decades has negatively affected other oppressed communities now, as well as queer identities often targeted by exclusionists.

In particular, I hear often from bigots, including self-proclaimed progressives (many often having pride flag icons), that fat people "can't be oppressed" because these bigots believe fatness is a "choice." Hearing this from people with "DNI terfs, homophobes, conservatives, and racists uwu" in their blog bio is always a slap to the face because aren't you supposed to be...against oppression? As in ALL oppression??

This insistance on caring more about "choice" than the oppression itself causes me when fighting fatphobia to also have to waste time proving to people how fatness most of the time is not a "choice." Half of my effort has to be spent jumping through the hoop of "I promise us fatties are doing everything we can to not be fat for you!"

I've also seen this often used by disability exclusionists. The disabled community is not a very welcoming place for people whose disabilities are either "invisible" or "not physical." I have literally been told by physically disabled exclusionists that people with mental disorders (aka fellow disabled people) don't actually have it "that bad" because "YOU can CHOOSE to not be disabled whenever you want. WE can't." Which is just...the audacity to throw the same ableist shit at your fellow disabled people that mentally ill people already deal with every day and then claim with your next breath that you care about disabled people is a joke. So, yet again, I'm forced to focus on justifying my existence, proving my hardship does actually "count" and "isn't a choice, I swear!" and then begging these people who say they care about oppression to view my life as worthy too.

I do not give a fuck if someone's oppressed identity is a "choice." I shouldn't have to lay my life bare for you to scrutinize and decide what parts of me are allowed to be abused and discriminated against. Why in the hell would an identity being a choice EVER fucking matter when deciding who needs support? You could choose to change your religion if you wanted to. You could choose to go back in the closet. You could choose to not use disability aids so more people will think you're abled. And you could choose to abuse your body into temporary thinness and mask your mental condition as best you can. But I don't think any of that is what "equality" means, does it?

If you want so badly to brand my identities as a "choice" so you can put me on the bottom of this oppression hierarchy you've created, fine. Then I will remind you until your last days that when deciding whether to help my oppressed communities, you chose not to.

You chose.

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My therapist and I accidentally ended up personifying my OCD and phobia as an Among Us imposter today, which is so fitting. Now whenever my disorders give me thoughts that make me afraid, I’m going to try to think of this picture of the button in the game

By the way, this helps with basically any mental disorder, especially mental disorders that involve intrusive thoughts. This also helps with stuff beyond mental illness too, such as internalized oppression. To my fellow fat people, whenever your mind tries to tell you "You're too fat to wear this outfit" or "You shouldn't eat today" or any thought at all that wants to do the work of fatphobes for them, pretend that thought is an Among Us imposter trying to do this to you:

And if the Among Us theme isn't your thing, you can adjust this strategy.

Personify these thoughts and disorders as an ex-best friend, someone who always lies, a fake person who hates you, someone trying to tell you what to do while knowing nothing about your life. Because why would it ever make sense to listen to an ex-best friend talking shit about you? They don't care about your wellbeing. Why would you care what a person who hates you thinks you should do? You hate me and are telling me to be afraid of eating this sandwich/touching this table/wearing this outfit/etc.? No, fuck you. In fact, I'm going to do the exact opposite of what you tell me just to spite you.

Another strategy is to give these thoughts/disorders a name. So when you have a thought like "What if my friends secretly hate me?" you can then think "Ugh, Samantha is at it again." Maybe even give it a silly name to make the disordered thoughts seem more absurd. "Are you kidding me, Bartholomew? No, I don't care." "Mmhm. That's nice, my cousin Throckmorton. I'm busy watching a movie though, so please be quiet."

You have a fictional character you cannot stand for the life of you? That could be a good motivator to dismiss thoughts that want to hurt you. "Suzaku, stop telling me this fork is contaminated. You were annoying as fuck in Code Geass and now you're trying to make me afraid of this fork? Uh uh, nope. Not today, bud!"

Or you can just acknowledge when the thought is your disorder if that's what would be most helpful for you. "That thought was my depression that wants me miserable."

I hope these strategies will be helpful to someone. I need to start doing this again myself. What I tended to do was use the imposter theme and also say stuff like "That was my OCD that hates me and wants to make my life as hard as possible. Fuck you, OCD."

To everyone who reads this post: you're strong for getting this far, no matter what your disorders or internalized oppression say

I'm so sick of having to say this over and over again because no one fucking listens.

If you use phrasing like:

  • "Disabled and mentally ill"
  • "People with mental illnesses or disabilities"
  • "Neurodivergent and mentally ill people"
  • "Disabilities or mental health struggles"
  • "Mental illness and neurodivergence"

and anything else like that

You are being ableist and sanist

You are inherently saying with that phrasing that mental illnesses are not disabilities and not neurodivergencies.

You are pretending that "disabled" solely means "physically disabled."

You are saying that the only neurodivergent conditions that "actually count" are autism and ADHD.

Stop. Supporting. Disability. Exclusionism.

I shouldn't have to scream this from the rooftops and make five million posts about this.

On the same note:

"Able-bodied" is not the opposite of "disabled." These two words are not antonyms. The opposite of "disabled" is "abled." Stop pretending only physical disabilities are "real disabilities." Stop saying that only a single type of disabled person matters.

People with mental illnesses are given no support. We're not welcome in the disabled community nor the neurodivergent community despite mental illnesses counting as both. Do you know what that's like? To be shoved out of communities that are supposed to care about you and then be left with nothing?

And because exclusionists are going to froth at the mouth if I don't say this: Yes, I have mental illnesses. Yes, I have autism and ADHD. Yes, I have physical health disabilities. Yes, I even have mobility issues because of hand tremors that affect my fine motor skills. So don't try to @ me or pretend I'm "just a whiny abled-bodied who doesn't know what REAL disabilities are like." I've had to see you exclusionists literally start using "able-bodied" like a derogatory term because THAT is how much you hate mentally ill people. That is how much you believe that mentally ill people experience nothing.

The exclusionism in the disabled community is so bad that it's arguably even worse than the rampant exclusionism in the queer community, and that is a feat to accomplish. (And yes, I'm queer. Don't tell me I know nothing about queer exclusionism when I have been putting up with said exclusionism forever.)

Disabled exclusionism is so bad that exclusionists attempt to rewrite history so they can erase mentally ill people from it. They pretend mentally ill people have never been included in the word "cripple" and also pretend being called that word is the be all end all of whether you're oppressed.

They say that it's okay for cripplepunk to be an exclusionist movement because the person who invented it is now dead, so we gotta respect their wishes no matter how bigoted. It doesn't matter that the original cripplepunk rules literally call "able-bodied" people the opposite of "the disabled." Since we apparently can't fix bigotry when it'll make a bigoted person who's not even alive anymore sad, I'm assuming disabled exclusionists also think we shouldn't change the constitution because "It's what the Founding Fathers wanted." They took the original John out of Papa John's due to his bigotry too. Sorry for your loss. I know how much you believe things shouldn't be changed, especially when they solely benefit yourselves.

Disabled exclusionists even try to erase mentally ill people from issues like ableism. I have seen so many posts that talk about ableism or even disabled representation and SOLELY talk about physical disabilities. Do you know how bad exclusionism has to be in the disabled community to pretend that there's no ableism against mentally ill people in horror movies? You know, the genre that almost every single plotline depends on fearmongering about mentally ill people? Funny how mentally ill people face no ableism when I have heard of countless movies involving mental hospitals but have never once heard of a horror movie in a regular hospital. I wonder why?

I have to hear people say that mental illnesses are INHERENTLY "less bad" than other disabilities, that you apparently know MY body and MY life experiences SO WELL that you know I don't "have it bad enough." You claim that mentally ill people are "overrepresented" in the disabled community because we "don't even have it hard." Meanwhile, I have to fight just to even be included. I have to see posts about disability and disability-related blogs and even progressive organizations and events for disabled people, and I'm so excluded that I have to literally ask if my mental illnesses "count" every time.

You make social hierarchies in this pitiful excuse of a "community" to put yourselves on top. You even did that with "visible" and "invisible" disabilities, all while ignoring that mental illnesses can be just as visible as anything else. Whatever you can do to put one type of disabled experience on a pedestal.

These communities are not communities at all. They're exclusionist circle-jerks. And I'm done being forced to defend my right to exist to these people.

I love being told by fellow disabled people that mentally ill people face no ableism or hardship at all when, out of the plethora of ways we do, this is one of them:

[Image ID: "Alongside this, trans people with mental health conditions and those below the age of 21 in Kazakhstan are barred from applying to legally change their gender. In the UK, there is no such restriction for those with mental health issues and people must be over 18 to apply."]

And even when not written into law, societies around the world still use mental disorders as an excuse for not allowing mentally ill people to transition.

If you're a disabled person who excludes and shits on fellow disabled people for not meeting your bigoted and willfully ignorant "standards" of "having it bad enough" (aka "Your disability must be the same type as mine or else it's not valid uwu"), you are a horrible person and a goddamn exclusionist. Fuck you.

I'm getting pretty tired of people refusing to understand that mental illnesses are lifelong disabilities and not some "curable, barely hard, bad feeling uwu"

Almost every single mentally ill person will be dealing with their disability for the rest of their life. Unless it's something like depression caused by a specific situation that is fixed by getting out of that situation, mental disorders are not curable. That's why a person with a substance use disorder can never partake in the substance they're addicted to ever again. No matter how many years they're sober and seem fine, they still have that disorder and addiction. They are still at risk of relapse.

Same with other mental illnesses. Long-standing depression may get better for a year or two, but that disorder is still there. My OCD may hopefully get easier eventually, but I will always have OCD until the day I die. If you don't believe my OCD is lifelong when I've been doing therapy and taking medicine for my OCD and other mental disorders for well over a decade, I don't know how to make you understand.

Mental illnesses are a lifelong battle of ups and downs where the luckiest manage to seem okay but will never, ever be free of the possibility of relapse, and the rest of us can only try to manage our mental disorders and focus on surviving our disabled, neurodivergent brains.

This is why the fact that people consider the term "chronic illness" to be solely about physical health is fucking wild to me. How do you get anymore chronic about an illness than an indefinite illness of your fucking brain? And yes, I have physical chronic illnesses too, so don't try to start with me.

What gets me the most is how mentally ill people are barely welcome at all in the disabled community and neurodivergent community because of rampant exclusionism. Mentally ill people are literally kicked out of the two communities we are inherently a part of, leaving us with no community to find support in. And all because of assholes who pretend mental illness "isn't that bad" or "isn't as hard as I have it" or "but you're not BORN with it!!!!"

I'm learning now at age 25 that I have autism and ADHD because so many of my symptoms I was able to chalk up to being one of my many mental disorders for all these years. I endure so much of the same shit that people with physical disabilities endure. One of my chronic illnesses literally worsens my mental disorders because it gives me a hormonal imbalance and a 24/7, nonstop period if I don't take birth control.

But no matter how similar I am to you all, you will never view me as worthy of support and compassion. Mentally ill people will always be your outlier you love to ostracize and nothing more.

It's wild how much sanist language people use every day. I'm watching a 17 minute video, and within the span of just 14 of those minutes they have said multiple times the words "cr*zy," "psychotic," "psycho," and "psychopathic." And this video is just about reading AITA posts. They're using these terms over and over again to describe stuff they consider evil and bad. Do we not see...how horrible it is that this society's first instinct...when describing evil...is to use words that oppress and stigmatize people with mental disorders? And if you somehow don't see the problem, people with mental disorders are neurodivergent and part of the disabled community. We are disabled people. Please fucking stop using my disabilities as your metaphor for evil. I don't care what mental disorder you weaponize or whether it's a mental disorder I specifically have, I refuse to sit by and listen to people worsen the oppression, stigmatization, and ostracization of my fellow mentally disabled people. There are plenty of words in the English language. You can even invent a word. This very post is an example of how to not use ableist language while still conveying what you mean. Instead of saying "It's cr*zy" at the beginning, I said "It's wild." Not being ableist is that easy. Please at the very least just fucking try.

For the love of fuck, can people PLEASE stop believing that "disabled" only means "physically disabled" and saying shit like "disabled and mentally ill" to pretend like mental disabilities aren't real disabilities that belong in the disabled community???? I am SO fucking tired of this shit that I have to see constantly, every single day on this website. Do you know how horrible it is to be constantly reminded that people don't believe any disabilities that aren't physical "count" as disabilities at all? That there are plenty of disabled people who believe that anything not physical is inherently "not that bad" and "less disabling" than physical disabilities regardless of the details or even what their disability is? Do you understand how awful it is to know that everyone and their mother genuinely believes and treats the word "disabled" like it merely refers to one part of the disabled community, and the part that is automatically allowed while I have to fucking fight and lay down my entire life history and 25 years worth of medical records for the disabled community's review and approval? Fellow disabled people literally believe that "able-bodied" is the opposite of the word "disabled."

Fucking STOP! BEING! EXCLUSIONIST! ASSHOLES!!!!!!

Probably the most disgusting example of lateral ableism is whenever I see posts (and yes, that's plural) about how terrible it is that disabled people are represented so badly in horror movies and the op advocating for this to stop, but all of the examples the op lists of this horrible ableism in horror franchises are solely examples of ableism against physical disabilities. You know, as if mental disabilities are not the very subject, plot device, and bigoted aesthetic of nearly every single horror movie in existence.

Some of the most common horror movie settings are literally mental hospitals, psych wards, and abandoned mental asylums that have the graves of all of the dead mentally ill patients in its backyard. One of the most common visuals in the horror genre is an "ins*ne" person in a straight jacket that the mentally abled main character has to escape from so they aren't killed by this horrifying "monster" in human form. You could make a drinking game of all the times a horror movie uses the words "psychopath," "sociopath," "cr*zy," "ins*ne," "narcissist," and "delusional," but I wouldn't recommend it because you'd die of alcohol poisoning only thirty minutes in.

If you can't even include mentally disabled people in your definition of the word "disabled" when talking about the movie genre that makes its bread and butter off of oppressing mentally disabled people, particularly mentally ill people and those who have severely demonized mental illnesses like schizophrenia and personality disorders, then you might as well put a neon sign and fireworks on your post about ableism that let's you say with your full chest "Mentally disabled people can fuck themselves though, lol💕"

It's disgusting enough how many fellow disabled people genuinely believe that the word "able-bodied" is the antonym of the term "disabled," plus all of the other countless ways anyone not physically disabled is constantly excluded from this poor excuse of a "loving" "community," but if mentally disabled people don't even "count" as disabled to you when we are harmed just as much if not more often than physically disabled people by the specific situation you're talking about? I know for a fact that you are never going to treat us as equal.

This community still demands I lay my medical history, life story, and complete list of traumas out on the table so my application to be part of the disabled community as a fucking disabled person can be reviewed and processed, so that they can make sure I suffer enough and specifically in the right ways to fucking matter to a movement that supposedly cares about disabled lives. The exclusionism I experience from fellow disabled people is to such an unfathomably high degree that I am less excluded as a bisexual, ace, nonbinary woman in the queer community than as a severely mentally ill person with chronic illnesses in the disabled community.

Truly an incredible feat.

If you use "able-bodied" as an antonym for "disabled," I do not want you on my blog, in my house, in my life, or even in the same universe as me. I don't care what disabilities you have. They're not an excuse for your beliefs. Stop being an ableist to fellow disabled people and having the audacity to pretend you give a shit about the rights and lives of people with disabilities. You could not give less of a fuck about ableism if you tried.

Hey, so if anyone needed even more evidence that the disabled community has an extreme and rampant problem with ableism towards people with mental conditions and any other disabilities that aren't labeled "physical," here ya go!

Posts like this show up on my dashboard every fucking day, and I'm somehow not exaggerating when I say that. Even when I purposefully don't follow almost any disability-related blogs in an attempt to avoid the onslaught of sanism in this "community," I STILL will see shit like this in my newsfeed. It is so fucking common for fellow disabled people to pretend that people who don't have physical disabilities aren't "actually disabled," to pretend that "able-bodied" is the opposite of the term "disabled" entirely. Like I seriously have not been able to escape this sanism no matter what I do.

No matter how much I filter and block and don't follow, I still cannot escape seeing fellow disabled people be absolutely fucking shitty as hell towards other disabled people in this horrible excuse of a community. It is fucking painful having to see other people in this community shit on me and other people like me every goddamn day of the year. When I was finally diagnosed with my physical chronic illnesses, I had been so horribly treated by other disabled people that to this day I still don't feel accepted or included at all. I don't relate one bit to other people with physical chronic illnesses because I know perfectly well what most people who also have a physical chronic illness think about my plethora of mental disabilities.

There is literally no solidarity anymore. It's gotten to the point that if someone has the word "cripple" on their blog somewhere, I immediately block the person because I'm not going to take the chance of them being an exclusionist, ableist shithead to me. Words related to disability have become red-flags for so many disabled people, and that shows just how fucked up and exclusionist this community has become.

If you support any sort of idea that involves valuing some disabled people more than others, pretending some disabilities aren't "real" or don't "count," rewriting disabled history, enforcing oppression hierarchies in the disabled community, policing disabled community spaces, forcing a "visible" vs "invisible" disability binary where one type of this made up binary is put on top, making up even more shitty binaries instead of accepting the inherent nuance in disabilities and their symptoms, defining other disabled people's disabilities for them instead of listening and accepting what a disabled person says about their own fucking body and experiences, demanding fellow disabled people tell you all of their pain, trauma, and medical history so you can review and approve their membership in this fake ass community, or anything else of the sort, then you are a horrible fucking person.

You are an exclusionist just like the exclusionists in any other marginalized community. You harm the disabled community every day by acting and believing what you do. Stop putting the rest of us beneath you and being an ableist, bigoted asshole.

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"Mental disabilities are so much easier because you're not visibly disabled."

Mental disabilities:

If you have better reading comprehension than this bigot, clap your hands! 👏

If you have better reading comprehension than this bigot, clap your hands! 👏

If you understood these symptoms are all fucking visible

If you can read better than a bigot, clap your hands!👏

This exclusionist, sanist asshole is the most blunt example I have ever seen of how physically disabled people are trying their fucking damndest to divide and rip apart the overall disabled community, destroying any solidarity between people with different types of disabilities they can.

They've been trying this shit for quite a while, and in the past few years have begun the seed of "visible vs invisible" disabilities to try to convince non-exclusionists "Hey, us VISIBLE disabled people are inherently different and inherently have it worse. Don't you think?"

And this is because there is an oppression hierarchy in the disabled community where physically disabled people are on top. The more "disabled enough" you are, the more "worth" you're allowed to have. This is what exclusionists do in every minority group. The whole "We're actually nothing alike" and "WE actually have it inherently worse, so stop complaining and leave this community" shit.

The ableist codewords of "visible" and "invisible" are what exclusionists have tried doing in the queer community too with "passing privilege," which biphobes loved because it was another tool in their toolbox to pretend that bisexuals and anyone else who is mspec are "just straight" and "look too straight to count as gay," helpful rhetoric for their goal of kicking mspec people out of the queer community entirely. After all, using coded wording, dog whistles, and language that has enough "progressive" words thrown in to sound "progressive" are way more effective tactics than straight up saying what they really want: to eliminate entire populations from a marginalized community.

This asshole literally said word for word "We actually are two different communities completely." You can't get anymore straightforward than that.

If you try to force disabilities and disabled people into tiny rigid boxes with no overlap and no autonomy for disabled people to say how their own goddamn disabilities affect themselves, YOU are the fucking problem. Fuck off.

I'm not going to waste my fucking time explaining what I have already explained a million times before. I'm not going to waste my time providing dozens of links to other explanations and sources either because I'm fucking done with exclusionist assholes treating me like shit and then demanding I justify my existence and suffering to them for their review and approval. So the only link I am going to provide is the easiest link to copy and paste. If you need more information to view me as deserving of being part of the disabled community for having A PLETHORA of mental conditions, neurological conditions, and chronic illnesses, go fuck yourself.🖕

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