SoH Mercy

paleful:

u know its ok to admit that u love me in my ask

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Seeking: death

Will pay: life

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tl;dr I am hungry and poor (in the college sense)

So I’ve run out of ideas for how to make use of the limited food in my house. These past few days, I lived off of really gross smoothies, fluff and nutella s’mores, a LOT of Goldfish, and a nasty soup I made by pureeing tomatoes and frozen beans and corn. There’s not even sliced bread anymore because it went moldy.

I’m home alone with no means of transportation. I had about $10 in cash and $30 on my debit card. My options were takeout or walking to the grocery store about half a mile away.

So I went to the grocery store and bought tater tots, pizza rolls, a jar of pasta sauce, and a single-serving pizza for $9. Part of me is really happy that I got enough food to last until somebody can take me shopping and pay for raw ingredients for me for less than an hour’s salary, but the rest of me is like FUCK I’M POOR AND I HAVE NOTHING TO COOK ACTUAL FOOD WITH.

Anyways, I took a small baking tray and heated up some pizza rolls and tots and ate that. I’ll probably blow the rest of my money on fast food for lunch this weekend (because drum corps, and because there’s nothing I could bring, anyways), although I’ll also be at TJ’s house, which means mooching his food. So I just need to last for a few days before my sister comes home and buys me snacks and I can convince my mom to go food shopping. And hopefully I’ll have a paycheck coming in the mail in the next few days, too.

For now, I’ve avoided a potential disaster and maybe my body will stop giving me “you have not consumed sufficient calories to perform this action” error messages. Also, crap food is tasty.

Also, my dad might have hooked me up with a telemarketing job for the summer. Not exactly the kind of work I wanted, but at least it looks like I’ll have an income before school starts again. I’m checking it out on Monday…

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*jitters uncontrollably because side effects because WHY NOT, THAT WAS LIKE THE ONE SIDE EFFECT THAT I DIDN’T HAVE YET*

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UGH, I just had the boyfriend talk with my mom because there’s really no good way of explaining how I’m going away this weekend considering that I have no friends. Turns out she’s not stupid, though, because she remembered one of the dates we had over the summer.

In other news, TJ and I are doing Christmas this weekend and I’m super excited!

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I am cold, I am sleepy, I am in pain, I ran out of coffee three hours ago, I am sitting next two girls who keep giggling loudly and making stupid faces for snapchat selfies.

Thank god I actually like my history class, or I would’ve given up on these notes by now.

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my-psychological-tower:

miseriathome:

my-psychological-tower:

Less than a month until the school year ends and I still can’t decide what instrument to march next year.

Same, bro. I’d like to stay on bari because I’ve gotten used to holding it and I really miss it, but apparently the tuba line is dying…?

I switched to tuba in high school because it was literally me or nobody. Then we put whoever on the line with me to make it symmetrical and he turned out to be aiight. Sousaphone is a lot of fun and I’ll always play euphonium for concert band so that’s a thing.

We’re losing a good number of tubas and not so many euphs but I’ll have a good shot for either line. My mind is telling me to stick with the euphs, but my heart is leaning towards tuba. 

I have no doubt I’d miss tuba, since my whole life story is literally me wanting to play tuba and finally doing it. But I don’t get to do much with it, which is pretty disappointing. I’m not a bassline person at all, and fuck me if I ever have a melodic line. I love how tubas look and sound, but I think I was made to be more than just an admirer. I miss my babyyy. (Also, I don’t think I have the lungs for tuba anymore. And definitely not sousaphone+marching.)

I guess I’m the reverse of you–my heart says bari but my mind says tuba. So I guess I’ll just let the band pick where they need me most. Plus there’s always non-marching band ensembles, so…

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I looked over at Aaron during band and suddenly I missed him a lot and I wanted to tuck him away and keep him safe and touch his face and talk to him about stupid things.

Feelings are the worst. I don’t know what happened. I blame the snow.

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Might ask a kid to prom, but idk, I really don’t want to go.

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meekasa:

Do you just ever love a person so much

But not in a sexual/romantic way

You just love them so much it’s not even a friendship

It’s like they’re your sibling or a platonic soul mate

You don’t want to make out with them or do sexual things

You just want to keep them close to you and protect them and be their friend for life

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apointbetweenrageandserenity:

I’ve gone from so happy after Sherlock because it was so good, to annoyed, to moderately depressed, to just fuck it all because fuck everything.

HAHAHAHAHAHAyeah same here bro. But different reasons.

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